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- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- hey
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- hey
- you alright?
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- yeah
- I just feel weird
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- how so?
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- just this whole shitty situation
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- hmm :(
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- I can't stress enough that I am not angry or upset with you
- just it's weird, I know that I can't expect you to be all mine until this whole affair is sorted but at the same time I do feel hurt.
- As you keep saying it makes sense mentally but emotionally it's very difficult
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- I don't want to hurt you
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- I know and as I said I don't blame you but there is a mismatch between what I know to be fair and right and how it feels
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- I still feel stupid
- I'm just confused
- everyone seems to think I'm just gonna be your bit on the side and after having to leave yours...just makes me feel cheap
- and not in a fun way :P
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- Who is everyone?
- Also I really don't want you to feel cheap or be my bit on the side
- That's why I'm thinking it may be a good idea to stop having sex until everything is sorted. I don't think it is fair on you
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- well, I'm not sure I agree, but I guess if you think it's best
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- As you said I don't want you to feel like a secret bit on the side. I felt terrible when you said you felt humiliated last night because it was entirely my fault
- It was my selfishness that led to that whole situation
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- it just seems ridiculous, I really don't think Sophie and Colin care
- Colin even texted me asking why I left and didn't just stay with you
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- Well it's hard to judge with col and soph. They never really bring up anything like that in conversation. That's why I ended up having that shouting match with col that time when we were drunk
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- what shouting match?
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- you were there it was the first night we slept together after we got back from ziggies
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- I don't remember that at all
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- lol
- well we know for the future now
- God I feel like such a fool
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- heh, you're not the fool
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- if I hadn't sent you home nothing would have happened. Also before that if I was worried about colin and soph knowing you were spending the night I shouldn't have asked you to
- see I'm the fool
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- maybe I just shouldn't have bothered you
- it's difficult
- I know you're used to only seeing Zara every other week or so, but I'd want to spend more than that with you
- but right now I just have to wait around and hope you want to see me
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- well I realise you'd want to see me more than once every few weeks. I would also very much like that as well
- The reason I see Zara so little is out of necessity not desire
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- I just never know when you actually want me around haha
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- if I didn't want you around I would say
- the weekend was great and I really would have liked to cuddle while I feel asleep last night
- I did suggest you stay remember
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- I know, but now I'm worried last night will have scared you off wanting to do that again for a while
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- It's just I really love Zara and I do not want to lose her. And carrying on as we are is definitely putting my relationship with her at risk
- so I am kinda scared about us being together until we get the all clear so to speak
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- I didn't realise it was affecting you guys, I thought you were pretty much set for life together
- but okay, yeah that sucks a lot, but not much of a choice
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- well I hope we are set for life, but you and I are not supposed to be a couple and I certainly shouldn't be having sex with you. It's basically like cheating and if Zara finds out it could really hurt our relationsip
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- I see
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- But as I said before the responsibility is all on me as it is my relationship.
- I'm so sick of this I just feel a combination of confused, frustrated angry and guilty all at once
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- I'm sorry this is so hard :(
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- don't be sorry
- it's not you that is complicating the whole affair
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- well, it kinda is
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- how so?
- Jenny Mugridge
- 29 June
- Jenny Mugridge
- I just mean, if I wasn't around things would be a lot simpler and you'd probably be happier
- Dave Stewart
- 29 June
- Dave Stewart
- simpler most definitely and in the short term maybe happier. However when all of this is resolved and we can just be together I suspect I will be much happier with you than without you
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