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- from /sus/ Thread #1002: Chalk and Apples Edition
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- Never Be Game Over
- >Susie wakes in a cold sweat, tears already streaming down her face
- >It's not the first time she's cried in her sleep
- >She knows how to muffle her own whimper into a sleepy sigh, how to wipe her eyes and sit up before anyone can see
- >It’s a reflex, unconscious, automatic
- >This time, however, “anyone” is a special case
- >Her best friend, Kris Dreemurr, asleep in his bed on the other side of the room
- >He lies on his side, one hand under his cheek, snoring shockingly loudly
- >His thin, pale features catch the moonlight that arcs through the window, soft, sleepy and peaceful
- >Susie takes a deep breath, grits her teeth as she tries to calm herself
- >The dream still won’t fade, not completely
- >As quietly as she can, she swings her legs out of Kris’s brother’s bed and shuffles downstairs
- >The Dreemurr residence is silent and still as she tiptoes to the kitchen, fills a glass of water at the sink
- >She drinks it greedily, trying to pretend that the queasy feeling in her stomach is just a candy and soda hangover from the sleepover
- >It isn’t.
- >The last thing she saw before waking is still in her mind's eye
- >Images of Kris
- >Of her dearest friend
- >Broken like a toy left in the driveway
- >Bleeding from a hundred wounds.
- >Cold and still, no matter how much she begged, no matter how much she screamed
- >Susie swallows hard
- >Her claws skate across the kitchen counter as she grips down, screeching as they go
- >She is no stranger to nightmares
- >Does she have more than her fair share?
- >Maybe, but they always fade in the morning, especially these days
- >Now that she has things in her life worth waking up for
- >This dream, though…
- >It paralyzes her. Steals the breath from her lungs. Makes her feel cold and lonely and very, very scared
- >She rubs furiously at her eyes with the sleeve of the ratty old hoodie currently doing double-duty as her pyjamas
- >Stupid, she thinks. It’s just a dream, how come I’m getting so hung up on it?
- -
- >It’s not real. Probably just… ate too much shredded cheese last night or something
- >Besides, it's not like it could actually happen.
- >...But it could, couldn't it?
- >Kris and Susie have been through more scrapes than she can count in the Dark World
- >Each and every time they’ve come out on top
- >Sometimes thanks to her brute strength
- >More often, if she’s being honest, thanks to Kris’s charm and intelligence
- >She trusts him, trusts that ability so completely that their unbroken string of victories seems obvious, barely even worth thinking twice about
- >Well, she’s thinking twice about it now.
- >More than twice
- >She rolls it over in her head, prodding at it like a bad tooth
- >For the first time, Susie realizes how close to the edge she and her friends have come
- >How she and Kris and Ralsei danced within inches of absolute disaster
- >If things had been just a little different… If they’d gone even slightly worse, missed a single attack or…
- >The images return, stronger than before. Kris, her Kris, broken and ruined and gone
- >Sweat beads on her scaly forehead. She swallows thickly, her heart racing in her chest
- >Susie is *scared*.
- >The thought of losing Kris has crossed her mind before, of course
- >But the fear was always of it being her fault
- >Pushing him too far, saying the wrong thing, karma from everything she'd done to him finally coming due
- >The thought that he might be taken not just from her, but from everyone, from the whole world by something she can't even stop, no matter how hard she tries…
- >Terror fills her, so total and sudden her knees start to shake
- >Her breath comes in short, sharp gasps, her stomach clenching so hard her abs ache
- >”Dammit. God DAMMIT.”
- >”Susie?”
- >She jolts upright, slowly turning to look over her shoulder
- -
- >Kris stands at the edge of the kitchen, sleepily rubbing his eyes
- >He is wearing a set of pyjamas that are far, far too big for him, probably hand-me-downs from his father
- >They drape around his slender frame like a wizard’s robe, a good few inches of extra sleeve trailing from the end of his hands
- >Susie barely bites back a guffaw
- >”Uh. H-hey, dude. What’s up? I didn’t wake you up, did I?”
- >”I heard someone downstairs. Weird noises, like…”
- >He peers into her eyes, curious and guileless, and she glances away with a huff
- >”Everything okay?”
- >God damn it.
- >”Yeah. Just… Had a bad dream, I guess.”
- >Susie blushes
- >She didn't mean to say it so bluntly
- >Stupid, she thinks. What am I, six? Help, Kwissy, I had a bad dweam? Come the hell on.
- >But Kris doesn’t say any of that
- >He just nods and leans against the wall
- >”Do you want to talk about it?”
- >She snorts
- >Of course. Of course he’d say that
- >”Nah. I’m good. It’s just a dream, dude. No reason to-“
- >It's as though the question forms itself.
- >Like the words, the sick feeling in her gut are alive, leaping from her lips before she can stop them
- >”Kris, if I died, what would you do?”
- >If it surprises him, he barely shows it. A tiny raise of an eyebrow as he takes his chin in his hand and thinks
- >”We talked about this already, didn’t we? I’d go find the Dragon Balls and use them to-“
- >”Kris.”
- >It just doesn’t seem as funny as usual.
- >Not tonight.
- >”…Right. Sorry.”
- >He takes a deep breath, sighs it out slowly
- >”I don’t know.”
- >Susie nods, scowling as she sets the glass in the drying rack
- >”Yeah. It's a weird question, right? Ah, man, I'm tired. Let's just go back to-“
- >”I wish I had an answer. I’ve thought about it before, after all.”
- >”Whuh?”
- >He smiles, but it’s frayed at the edges, brittle
- >”You want some hot chocolate?”
- >She knows how Kris makes his hot chocolate, practically just a candy bar melted into a mug
- -
- >Not really, she thinks
- >”Uh, sure. Why not?”
- >She sits on the couch while he makes it, listening to the crickets sing in the bushes outside
- >After a moment, Kris sits beside her, hands her a mug full of deep brown sludge
- >She sips at it cautiously
- >It’s so sweet it makes her mouth ache and only allegedly a liquid
- >Dreemurr signature hot cocoa. Love it or hate it, there's nothing quite like it
- >Kris stares into his mug for a moment, eyes hidden behind his hair
- >”Why'd you ask? What I'd do if you died, I mean."
- >She’s still ashamed of it, embarrassed by the dream
- >But lying to Kris feels wrong, more wrong than regular lying
- >”I... I had a dream just now. That you died, in a fight in the Dark World."
- >She turns away from him.
- >It’s too much, saying it to his face, seeing him look up at her with those clear, crimson eyes while the dream still lives in her mind
- >Kris nods, sets his mug on the table
- >”I see."
- >Before she can laugh it off, make a dumb joke or act tough like she usually does, before she can even scoff, his arms are wrapped around her stomach
- >”What in the HELL-“
- >His embrace is surprisingly firm, a lean strength in his skinny, almost bony arms
- >”Knock it off!”
- >She struggles, tries to pry him off, but he clings on
- >”I have dreams like that too.”
- >Susie freezes
- >Her stomach drops
- >”About you. About Ralsei. About Noelle and Berdly too.”
- >She looks down at Kris, at his shoulders, trembling just a little as he presses his face into her side, at his hands, clutching fistfuls of her hoodie
- >A great and terrible pity swells in her chest
- >How long has he worried about this?
- >How many sleepless nights?
- >How many fights has she treated like a game while he was paralyzed by the same fear she's feeling right now?
- >Kris's voice is muffled, vibrating in her hoodie, in her side
- >"Because you all listen to me in fights. So if... if anything happened, that would make it my fault, wouldn't it?"
- >"God, Kris..."
- -
- >She sighs, scratches awkwardly at her tousled brown hair
- >”You never said anything.”
- >He laughs, so quietly it’s barely more than a sigh
- >”It’s a tough subject to bring up. You know how it is.”
- >Susie smiles sheepishly, rubbing a hand across her jaw
- >”Good point.”
- >She leans back into the couch, presses a hand into her forehead
- >”I guess it just… got me thinking. Like, we’ve been through a hell of a lot. We've won some real tough fights."
- >She stares into the darkness in the corners of the room.
- >"I used to think it was really cool. That it meant we were super badass, but now..."
- >Now she thinks about Kris, or Ralsei, or Noelle or even that dumbass Nerdly motionless, cold
- >Gone forever
- >”It scares me too.”
- >She startles at the sound of his voice
- >”You asked what I'd do if you died. I don't know. If any of you died, I don't know what I'd do. I've thought about it, over and over and-"
- >A hot wetness seeps into her hoodie
- >Tears. He's crying.
- >"Kris..."
- >He shakes his head, looks up at her
- >His eyes are still shining wet, but he smiles
- >And Susie doesn't realize at first how feverish, how unsteady it is
- >"It's okay. I won't let it happen. Not to any of you. I promise."
- >Her heart swells with secondhand pride
- >She knew he had it in him. Knew he's stronger than her, even if he doesn't show it
- >"...Because I'll do whatever it takes to stop it, if it comes to that."
- >Wait.
- >"So it's okay. You don't have to be scared."
- >She listens to Kris speak with a mounting sense of dread
- >It's not just the words he's saying
- >It's that she knows it's exactly what she would say, too
- >And hearing it from him makes her realize how stupid she would have been to say it, how stupid they both are
- >"I'll keep you safe. Even if it kills m-"
- >"Shut the hell up."
- >A shivering twitch of shock runs through Kris's body, up Susie's side as he holds her
- >He looks up at her, dumbfounded
- -
- >"Don't *ever* say that. Don't even think it."
- >Susie's eyes are hard, her lip curling in a snarl
- >Her teeth gleam in the midnight darkness
- >"How the hell do you think that would make me feel, huh? If you wound up dead because of me."
- >Kris goggles at her
- >"I... I didn't-"
- >"Yeah, I *know* you didn't think of that."
- >Because she knows she wouldn't have either
- >She sighs, closes her eyes, and then puts one huge, scaly arm over the boy's shoulders
- >"Listen, God forbid, but if it ever comes down to that... You worry about *you*. Fight like hell, do whatever it takes to win, but don't you dare die on me."
- >Because I couldn't take it, she thinks.
- >Because a world without you scares me more than anything.
- >And I'm guessing you feel the same way.
- >The fear turns to a burning resolve inside her
- >To hell with sacrifice. To hell with dying.
- >She'll fight as hard as she needs to, as hard as she can, for both of them
- >So that it never, ever comes to that.
- >"And I promise I'll do the same, yeah? So now you can stop worrying about me."
- >"Susie..."
- >Kris tightens his grip around her, just for a moment, enough to bring a smile to her face
- >"You're really cool."
- >She grins, reaches over and ruffles his hair
- >Enjoys the silky feeling as it slips through her fingers
- >"Hah. I know."
- >They sit there, silent, sinking into each other, eyelids slowly growing heavy
- >Just before she drifts off, one last question occurs to Susie
- >"Kris... that thing you said earlier, about the Dragon Balls... You'd really do that for me?"
- >Her voice is slurred with weariness, her head already slumping onto her shoulder
- >Kris nods into her side, and she can feel his lips curling into a sleepy smile
- >"Yeah. Of course."
- >She smiles, her head lolling back onto the sofa
- >"Badass."
- >There are no more nightmares that night
- >No more dreams at all, at least none that will be remembered in the morning
- >Just warmth and closeness
- >And the knowledge that no matter what comes, they'll face it together.
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- Happy Monday, /sus/. Hope you all enjoy.
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