I smoked meth once about 7 years ago. I had a few friends over and they offered it to me while I was drunk so I tried it without using the forethought to remember the bad things I had heard about it in the past. I used weed, and alcohol before as well as trying coke and acid once or twice, but I never touched any drugs that could harm your brain like meth did. I wish I knew meth was a drug that caused permanent damage to the brain, it's much worse than ecstasy, although I have never tried ecstasy I can't imagine the damage could be as bad as what I suffered from using meth once. After I first smoked it, I felt better than ever before. It gave me a huge rush and an extreme euphoric feeling. All seemed to be going well until the people I was using it with began to go crazy after withdrawal. They began beating the crap out of me until I gave them the key to my bedroom which they knew I had some money stored in. I cried and cried and begged them to stop without giving them the key and they just kept hitting me with a complete lack of empathy, all meth addicts care about is getting more meth no matter how. In the end they ended up getting away with 60 dollars I had hidden in a drawer and left to get more meth with the money while laughing there ***** off about the whole thing. When I woke up in the morning I couldn't function mentally anymore. I couldn't read and remember what I had read for more than half a sentence, I asked my friends to ask me some simple math questions like 15 + 22 or 19 + 24 and I couldn't get them right at all, and I also lost my motor functions and couldn't play the piano anymore. Now it has been 7 years and I still haven't fully recovered. I am doing terrible at school and have a difficult time remembering things or understanding them while my twin brother has straight a's as well as a scholarships for math and chemistry. My family looks at me as a half-wit and most of them don't want to be around me anymore because they view me as a wasted human life, but some of them feel bad about what happened to me and wish I could be the way I was before, but I know now that I never will be. All of my gifts and aspirations in life have been completely diminished in one night and I will never have the brilliance and memory like I did before before. I need to spend my life working ****** jobs and will never be able to finish any difficult or mildly difficult courses that I need to get a degree. All this has made me terribly depressed over the years and has made me try to commit suicide several times; I seriously regret that every attempt (consisting mostly taking a large dose of pills) never worked. For the rest of my life I will be a tragic seen and a failure in my families eyes. Please, if any of you out there think about doing it once don't listen to your retarded friends who act like it isn't that bad for you. Remember that most of them are so stupid that the probably don't even notice the effects it has on the brain because they never had a brain to begin with. Remember what I have said and never be tempted to try it once. If I can prevent one person from trying it then my life has some meaning again. Please just learn from my mistake instead of yours. I guess that is all I can do now is work for minimum wage and try to prevent someone else from regretting one night for the rest of there lives. If you have been through what I have been through you would realize that a lifetime of loss, pain, and regrets are never worth a night of pleasure no matter how good it makes you feel.