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- Original post: http://ks.renai.us/viewtopic.php?f=52&t=7281&p=136914#p136914
- I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel.
- After I heard what had happened, everything seemed to go numb.
- The pain is the only thing that feels real now.
- There was a chance you weren’t repulsed by me.
- I know I ran away, but I wanted to stay.
- I wanted to give you a chance.
- And now that chance is gone.
- If I could have had the nerve to stick to my guns, things might have been different.
- I keep trying to forget how badly I screwed up that conversation.
- It hurts too much.
- But I remember everything.
- I have many friends at this school.
- Many acquaintances.
- But I only have one true friend.
- My sweetest friend.
- That’s not something that changes often.
- I thought you could change that.
- You could be a part of our little family.
- It’s not much, but you could have had it all.
- And yet, it wasn’t to be.
- I thought I had done something wrong.
- I’d considered myself an approachable, hospitable person, but it seems I am mistaken.
- What have I become, to have failed at the very thing a Class Representative is here to do?
- I am sorry I failed you.
- I’m full of broken thoughts.
- I always have been.
- It’s like there’s a gap between what I think and the idea behind it.
- Then I met you.
- I didn’t see you very much, but when I did, it felt like you could repair that gap.
- Things made more sense.
- The crown of thorns that prickled into my conscience was lifted.
- I thought so, anyway.
- You still seemed to be lost whenever I talked.
- I could have gotten you to understand me, and we’d be friends.
- Or maybe we both would have ended up on the roof that night.
- Who knows?
- I lost someone once.
- It was a long time ago.
- I’ve been closing myself off ever since.
- When I run, that feeling disappears.
- I can be free again.
- I don’t know what you were like before you came here, but I thought we could run together.
- Be free of our pasts together.
- Maybe even open our hearts together.
- But you never came back.
- I never sought you out, because I told myself you would be there tomorrow.
- You were just taking a rest day.
- I should have gone looking for you.
- Now you’re somewhere else, and I’m still right here.
- Everyone I know goes away, in the end.
- All this time, I’ve struggled to understand why.
- I’m not the easiest person to get to know, for obvious reasons.
- It’s not like I don’t put in the effort to overcome that, though.
- Am I trying too hard?
- Is it possible to pursue friendship too aggressively?
- Logic dictates that success at any task can come down to the same fundamental steps.
- Perhaps friendship isn’t bound by logic.
- Maybe I can’t apply the same strategies I use to win games to winning people’s hearts.
- I let you down, Hisao. I drove you away.
- If I could start again, I would find a way.
- A way to change things…
- A way to make everyone happy…
- A way that doesn’t end like this.
- Did you know that you caught her eye the second you walked into class?
- I was more than a little jealous, I’ll admit, but I wanted her to be happy.
- I did what I could to sway you into joining us.
- No matter what I tried, though, nothing seemed to appeal to you.
- Was it my fault?
- Was I in the way?
- If I could start again, I would keep to myself.
- Hurt is a song written by Trent Reznor, and covered by Johnny Cash.
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