plug.dj/dollars-bbs June, 22 - 2020 GMT+7

Donna.BBS16:29
your friend, just joined!
Donna.BBS16:30
owo
C8Hypela16:30
ay
was about to go out even xP
Donna.BBS16:30
Lolol
C8Hypela16:32
I'm assuming its still the high noon right there?
Donna.BBS16:33
Ah yes it's 3 pm here
I am kinda free these days so maybe I'll join regularly these days.
C8Hypela16:34
oh boy, I was about to be robbed off my free time in a few weeks
Donna.BBS16:35
I got a home tuition now so maybe I'll be off from 6 pm to 7.30 pm.
And oh?
Why so O.o
C8Hypela16:35
unis ;-;
Donna.BBS16:36
Ohhhhh
You gonna be a Uni student soon?
C8Hypela16:36
uh huh
I'm not ready for this tbh ;-;
you'll feel like its too quick
Donna.BBS16:37
Aww be confident! This is a nice change.
and indeed, it feels quick
But you'll adapt soon uwu
I got one more year till Uni
C8Hypela16:37
I hope so x)
ye, savour high school as much as you can
Donna.BBS16:38
Yeah be positive :DD
High school isn't that great for me lolol
C8Hypela16:38
savour what's left xP
Donna.BBS16:42
Sure xD
Tell me something, does it ever happen that your friends judge you behind your back? (saying from my personal experience)
C8Hypela16:43
Either I had a genuine caring life or I'm just being ignorant of all the negativity around me
Donna.BBS16:43
That's helpful. Ignoring negativity.
C8Hypela16:44
I think I had some, but it wasn't that important
doesn't worth remembering, so I forgot
Donna.BBS16:44
That's nice. I think I'm too stuck in the past lol ormaybe overthink a lot
C8Hypela16:45
I only ever overthink what's to come
if its left behind, then let it sunk there
Donna.BBS16:45
Yeah. Past is in the past~
C8Hypela16:47
although I sometimes remember a particular regretful act
but ye, past is past
but this particular trait of mine is what would lead me to my downfall if I'm not careful
Donna.BBS16:47
In my case if I do anything regretful,I apologize soon to maybe fix things and not make it awkward for people.
C8Hypela16:47
You see, my trait of letting the past stay in the past made me quick to apologize anyone
Donna.BBS16:48
But somepeople are just too stubborn
Yeah relatable
C8Hypela16:48
but that kind of mindset is boiled down to my mind that people would do the same when its not
Donna.BBS16:49
Yeah that
I feel like apologizing would make them apologize too
and maybe forget about the whole issue
But some people just mess things up even more
C8Hypela16:50
nonono, I mean when I eventually mess up and they were pissed, my mind would soon forget about it while the pissed one wouldn't
Donna.BBS16:51
ohhhh
C8Hypela16:51
tis because my sisters were a quick forgiver like I do ;--;
we never hold grudges
Donna.BBS16:52
that's nice, not holding grudges
C8Hypela16:52
a double edged sword actually
Donna.BBS16:52
I think I'm the pissed one in every situation
C8Hypela16:53
also, I can't say sorry
Donna.BBS16:53
I don't understand. I can get along with people well and am easy to forgive but when they push me off the edge, it remains in my head forlike months.
Like igniting a bomb
C8Hypela16:54
I can see the reason
reminds me of a particular friend who's an ass to everyone, to the point where everyone just agreed and rolled with it
Donna.BBS16:55
Lmao
I know someone like that
C8Hypela16:55
like, we will blatantly try to exclude him and he'll yell at us lmao
Donna.BBS16:55
But yeah, it's kinda different for me. I am cool but some people just strike a nerve of mine and that's when I'm unble to forget
lol that sounds funny
C8Hypela16:56
you mean some people just naturally ticks you off?
no wrong, just he bad?
Donna.BBS16:57
No not naturally
Like we all argue sometimes right?
I forget the arguement and apologize if I hurt anyone and maybe forgive if someone hurt me
Generally
C8Hypela16:57
ye
Donna.BBS16:57
But some people who are just too stubborn, who just love to fight and don't have a life
C8Hypela16:57
Ah, I know
Donna.BBS16:58
They push me off the edge with their continuous pointless debate
C8Hypela16:58
the kind of person that just likes to piss you off for no reason
Donna.BBS16:58
Yeah that
C8Hypela16:58
Eh, the last time I had to deal with that kind of problem was almost 6 years ago I guess
back in elementary xP
Donna.BBS16:59
Nice. I deal with it every week :,))
C8Hypela16:59
so ye, I had a good life it seems
Donna.BBS16:59
I'm happy for you haha
C8Hypela16:59
dont worry, I used to deal with it for 2 consecutive years
Donna.BBS16:59
Ohh
C8Hypela16:59
like, there will never be a day where I'm not pissed
Donna.BBS17:00
I think I have been dealing with such people since I was a kid
I thought I was the one to e blamed but then I earned that's just how people are sometimes
So no one should be blamed, everyone's got circumstances
C8Hypela17:01
uh huh, I just kinda became immune to anything
oh he tryna piss me, sure I'll play with it
Donna.BBS17:02
lol that's good, I hope to get used to it too
somepeeps just ruin the day
C8Hypela17:03
either they are bored and left first or they pushed you to the absolute point
luckily I had quite a deep gauge bar
Donna.BBS17:04
yeah, in a way while suffering through all these, I find people who actually are friends and care about me
Like I was so happy yesterday and then there was drama again today lol
C8Hypela17:04
rough of\of
Donna.BBS17:05
It's been happening alternately. I'm happy one day, pissed on another xD
C8Hypela17:07
life : you've been slacking yesterday, here have some drama today
Donna.BBS17:07
Lol life be ruining my day xD
C8Hypela17:09
My theory of life is that, they constantly put you on a test whether you could pass it or not
if you couldn't pass it, they will step down the level
Donna.BBS17:10
Yeah I accept that. Whenever my mind is too clouded because I'm distressed I try to calm myself down thinking it's another phase of life
C8Hypela17:10
but there is this key level that determines your absolute performance
Donna.BBS17:10
yeah
C8Hypela17:11
I think failed it tbh, that's why my life has been peaceful thus far
other people got much more salt, so I think they have what it takes
Donna.BBS17:12
That's optimitic. Sometimes I think my emotions may be the problem. It's too strong and I tend to mess things up.
I wish to think rationally sometimes to overcome problems
C8Hypela17:13
Eh, I can't even think when I'm faced with problems
Donna.BBS17:14
Oh, what do you do then?
C8Hypela17:15
so it would all go downhill until someone snatch that steering wheel off from me
ye, quite sad
the nickname of 'kid' might also represent that side of me
the underlining fault
Donna.BBS17:15
Not sad actually. But I think it's rather great that even with problems you deem your life a peaceful one
C8Hypela17:16
my life hasn't been spiced up by friends betrayal and alike, soo
Donna.BBS17:17
That's good haha
I got infinite issues xD
I won't call it spicy but terrible when it happens coz it happens too much
C8Hypela17:17
too much salt
Donna.BBS17:19
salty indeed
C8Hypela17:20
If you are currently facing it, then you're deemed worthy of looking that monster in the eye
At least, that's what my religion taught me
Donna.BBS17:20
You mean I should face it strongly?
C8Hypela17:21
I was taught that life would never gave weigh you more than you could muster
Donna.BBS17:21
Ohhh
C8Hypela17:21
so if you're currently facing it, you can definitely sail through the storm
Donna.BBS17:22
Yeah that's really motivating
It's just when I say ''life'' I always kinda talk about toxic people ruining my day
C8Hypela17:23
of course you would, they're the highlight xD
Donna.BBS17:25
Lol yeah
Only friends ruin my life so much
C8Hypela17:25
not trying to be rude, but why you're friends with rude people?
Donna.BBS17:26
Oh sorry I was afk
They're not rude actually
C8Hypela17:26
oh you mean they always piss you off
Donna.BBS17:27
It's a complicated circle
Not always
I can actually explain what happened these past few months
C8Hypela17:27
oh, so its always a different one everyday
Donna.BBS17:30
I have been like this since I was a kid. I don't have a single consistent friend
Maybe dunno,my school was a bitchy place
or rather it's coz of my emotional problem that I start disliking people soon
But Discord was nice
I got to talk to so many peopleonline and befriended them
and I got close with a few
We got close after we played mafia
They were seriously my bros but soon our group kinda became inactive
some just went offline, some became active on other server
and one day, I read the chat log to see one of them back talking me
saying shit about me behind my back
it hurt me a lot so I discussed it in the DMs,apologizing if I hurt her and asked her not to spread her hate
She grew distant ever since
C8Hypela17:31
those were some sheet friends
Donna.BBS17:31
Then there was this one toxic person that was so rude to me on a server. I tried retorting but the admin said she'd ban me. The admin was one of my bros so i was shocked when she said that
C8Hypela17:32
guess the admin found a new favorite
Donna.BBS17:33
Not only was my opinion shot down but my own friend said lik that to me
I admired all my mafia friends
And they turned out like this
I discussed things in her DMs too, she was like ;;ya whatever'' and then grew distant
Then next day I tried being happy again
But another bro was back talking me
C8Hypela17:33
no one defended you?
Donna.BBS17:33
Idk on purpose or not but that hurt me again
No one did
C8Hypela17:33
jeez
Donna.BBS17:34
Most of them were strangers and my bros were like ''agreed'' with the back talk
Again I tried talking in DMs but that bro never replied
Ghosted me
I thought it was my fault but I'm done apologizing for something I didn't do
C8Hypela17:35
so you yeeted off!
Donna.BBS17:36
Then this whole uncomfortable thing happened
I tried talking nicely th next day actually
Some of them really took some nsfw jokes too far and it made me SO uncomfortable that I couldn't help DM a mod
since they always say ''dm us if you need anything''
C8Hypela17:36
the mod says no
Donna.BBS17:38
The thing was, one of the admins was in the nsfw thing so ovbiously they didn't help me
That admin used to be my bro but he was like ''meh I don't get along with her, I try to be nice''
i was like ;;where's the nice??;;
Even after telling him to stop repeatedly he continues his shit
So after that he grew distant too
Also the owner of the server is actually quite immature
Takes dumb decisions a lot
In the end, I'm deemed to be the ''party pooper'' of that place who's too uptight or gets butthurt easily
All my bros are now distant and don't even talk tome
Maybe it's not as bad but these all happen in just twomonths so kinda hard to bear