#PastebinMonday 07/12/2021 If Only I Could Do This Full Time Edition

Hey guys, how’s it goin?

Having time off from work this past week affirmed one belief of mine:

I wish I could do this streaming thing full time.

This freedom to stream whatever video games I want whenever I want is the thing that I long for most in this world. However, I don't know what I can do at this point to earn that freedom. I am trapped between the pressure of needing to put in a minimum amount of time to earn money doing this thing and not being able to put in that minimum amount of time because of the full-time job that actually earns me the money to sustain myself. The thing I want to do to make me a living... isn't coming close to making me a living right now, thus I have to do something that makes me miserable but makes me a living. However, this doesn't give me enough time to do the thing that I want to make a living with. I really don't want to do office work anymore, but it's the one thing I can make a living with right now.

This sounds like it's coming from a child that doesn't want to be an adult, doesn't it?

In several ways, I still feel like a child. I don't have a childhood to look back on because I don't remember any of it. I spent those years playing video games I no longer own while avoiding being around people I no longer remember. I feel like I've experienced zero growth as a person in the last 20 years in every way imaginable except body fat percentage. I'm not sure I've ever lived my childhood, to be honest, so I think I'm trying to live it now.

Alright, enough ranting. I got a new best time in Tetris Attack V-Hard and wrapped up another level in Beyblade VForce GBA, but I didn't really have much else to talk about from this past week. I really do have no life. I did commit to something casual, for once, and that will be continuing. With that in mind, here is the full schedule for the week:

Wednesday – 8pm EDT – Tetris Attack 8 Second Lakitus Only, Episode 6 – Estimate: 2 hours
Thursday – 8pm EDT – Final Fantasy X continues past the blitzball tournament – Estimate: 2 hours
Friday – 8pm EDT – In the Salt Mines with the PG crew and Pokémon Puzzle Challenge – Estimate: 4 hours
Saturday – 5pm EDT – Beyblade VForce GBA 1-6 IL TAS work/runs – Estimate: 4 hours
Sunday – 5pm EDT – Beyblade VForce GBA 1-6 IL runs – Estimate: 3 hours

I'm also going to speed up my YouTube uploads a bit. Tomorrow, I will put up my last Panel de Pon PB. Wednesday will have my Beyblade VForce 1-3 video. Friday will finally show my 6:57 Tetris Attack V-Hard. There's a non-zero chance I break that mark before it gets up. KEKW

That’s my life story for the week. Until next time, everyone, thanks for reading!

--Cards