Every time I brought something up about what I dislike about BLH and how I felt about being removed, you seemed to avoid it or not talk much about it, leading me to conclude that it was either out of your control, or you didn't care.

I assumed it was the former, and hence why I did this: because I gave BLH to you, not Ryman, and refuse to let him have power over me.

(also i just unchecked a box, and when i rechecked it, it was listed again, so idk why that's an issue)

I assumed my rant towards Durendal that I showed you was enough, but you just said "brb hating self" or something along those lines and not much afterward.

Was there a misunderstanding somewhere along the way? Did I take the signals wrong? Did I make ANOTHER mistake? Was I right? I don't fucking know. I'm just confused and frustrated. I felt spat in the face when I was fired too, Lily. So I suppose the feeling is mutual? I know two wrongs don't make a right, but I've told you I've been an angry person lately, and not very rational. I've told you and opened up to you about EVERYTHING, so can you at least try to understand?

I'm not trying to pin the blame on you. I'm not trying to make you feel guilty. I just want you to understand how bad I felt, especially after realizing -it was all actually my fault-.