Hi Green! I know block-evasion is a really bad move and I should respect your wishes regarding that, but I want to get a last word in too is all

I'm sorry I misinterpreted so much during the last...fuck, like, the last few _months_ we've known each other?

You were a GREAT friend and were infinitely tolerant of so much stupid and invasive and pee-brain bullshit I said and did

I'm good at writing but I'm not exactly great at prose--I just want you to know that I value the parts of you that matter as a friend and as a web-companion, and hell, this whole kink thing was in some ways standing in the way of my ability to do that! I focused on the impetus for our friendship so much (and so drastically over-estimated your investment in the whole chub thing) that I neglected to let it evolve and encompass your actual humanity, which, I've been assured, is a very nice humanity that I've been ignoring

I can bury the kink stuff--like, not just 'dial it back', bury it altogether and never dig it back up! There are so many times you'd send a goofy message you stole off the internet, or a meme that warranted acknowledgement, but I'd skip over it because I'd mentally pigeonholed you to "the girl I talk to about fat stuff" and I feel terrible about it. I've got a million billion outlets for my kink crap and I'm more than capable of being homies with someone like you despite prior association--especially on account of we were pretty close to friends to begin with! The awful muddy heartache I felt while reading your farewell letter is all the assurance I needed that I actually DO give a shit about you deep-down, a now that the veil is lifted, I'm kind of fascinated by the real person I've buried underneath all the roleplay and fronting!

Understand that despite everything, I like YOU and I'd gladly have stuck with YOU even if you told me, straight-up, "I don't want this anymore"! That despite everything, there's still room for us to overcome this crap and be bosom buddies, because I _like_ the girl, and would have gotten the opportunity to like her MORE if she weren't (from my wrong-ass perspective) so koo-koo about fats and so eager to discuss them--I'm sorry I've been such a source of anxiety and torment for you and a better friend wouldn't have done that

There doesn't HAVE to be a friendship between us, but there CAN be, and I just ache for you to know that

Also, remember how motivating I was in ONE weight direction? You'll find I can be just as motivating in the OTHER (i.e. downward) weight direction, especially when there's the extrinsic motivation of making up for the shit I did to a friend

Oh and uh P.S.- we never DID finish Homestuck, ya-know >:3

-Tut oh wait no I mean Hunter