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- Faustiian: a jackass?
- Guest_Vunir1: Yes
- Faustiian: how so
- Guest_Vunir1: Bc I just made a lot of shitty choices and idk
- Guest_Vunir1: You know it's hard to express feelings
- Faustiian: yup
- Faustiian: so thats why im letting you tell me what happened
- Guest_Vunir1: I don't know where to start
- Faustiian: what could someone as sweet as you do
- Faustiian: we could start with the point you knew you made a bad choice
- Guest_Vunir1: I did a lot wrong, trust me
- Guest_Vunir1: And yes I did make a poor choice
- Guest_Vunir1: Very poor
- Faustiian: compaired to me you are a saint
- Faustiian: just take pleasure in that one
- Guest_Vunir1: It's not so much what I actually did
- Guest_Vunir1: But what the intention was
- Faustiian: why was it a poor decision.. did you get hurt? did you harm others? did you do something to swore not to do again?\
- Guest_Vunir1: Yes, I'm not sure, and no.
- Faustiian nods
- Faustiian: does this situation cause a threat to your life?
- Guest_Vunir1: No, not at all
- Faustiian: good
- Faustiian: is it a matter of the heart?
- Guest_Vunir1: Yes, I guess it could be called that
- Guest_Vunir1: It's just so difficult to even think about
- Guest_Vunir1: Because the entire thing is based off assumptions
- Faustiian: those can prove problem
- Faustiian: got a bit close to someone?
- Guest_Vunir1: Which I have no evidence of them being true or false other than tiny snippets that could support either side
- Faustiian: didnt mean for nothing and felt something spark?
- Guest_Vunir1: No, wasted a potential spark for a dull burn
- Faustiian: worried someone is hiding something so your brain told you blowing up the bridge would be better than burning it?
- Guest_Vunir1: .....Exactly
- Faustiian: you dissociated
- Guest_Vunir1: Yes
- Faustiian: aww
- Faustiian: its ok.. you can hang out in the dark with me.. i wont tell no one
- Guest_Vunir1: Did anyone message you today that you weren't expecting or didn't know?
- Faustiian: no
- Faustiian: not really.. my ex replied back but we are still friends so we talk sometimes
- Guest_Vunir1: That makes this...rather worse
- Faustiian: why?
- Guest_Vunir1: Bc I have to admit something as well now and by admitting it I am going to have to make an assumption that I have no evidence of
- Faustiian: hmm
- Guest_Vunir1: Yeah, I got myself into a bad hole
- Faustiian: but confessions are good things.. i like them
- Faustiian: /phrasing/
- Guest_Vunir1: Bad web
- Guest_Vunir1: bad pickle
- Faustiian: when you decide to stop spinning and free yourself
- Faustiian: sometimes things hurt but in the end you realize they were needed
- Guest_Vunir1: Everything is at a standstill right now
- Guest_Vunir1: Yeah, but some pain has already happened
- Guest_Vunir1: So I guess I should start with the baseless assumption
- Guest_Vunir1: ?
- Faustiian: sure
- Guest_Vunir1: Okay, well almost this entire thing is based off an assumption I made that you had some intent of more than friendship, and my only evidence of it was "mein schatz" but that evidence is hardly sufficient to support such a large assumption
- Faustiian: it bothered you?
- Guest_Vunir1: No quite the opposite..which made an issue
- Faustiian: its a term of endearment...
- Faustiian: it felt like the right thing to say
- Guest_Vunir1: I need a confirmation or negative on the assumption though before I say the rest, otherwise it may be irrelevant completely
- Faustiian: i dont plan that far ahead
- Guest_Vunir1: So neuter
- Faustiian: what happens happens
- Faustiian: more chaotic neut
- Faustiian: but ayyyy
- Guest_Vunir1: I suppose the rest may be relevant then
- Guest_Vunir1: So what occured was
- Guest_Vunir1: A little while after, a guy messaged me and somehow seemed to sweep me off my feet and be "perfect". But, I was very conflicted on my standing with someone else, you in particular. So I told this guy no. He brought up the phrase "does he care about you like I do" and I couldn't answer it
- Guest_Vunir1: So
- Guest_Vunir1: (there's more)
- Guest_Vunir1: So, I was stunned because I had no logical reasoning to say no or yes to this guy. So I defaulted to yes. He said I would have to stop talking to you completely though.
- Guest_Vunir1: I hesitantly agreed out of the sake of having no reason that I couldn't say no
- Faustiian: well do as you wish
- Guest_Vunir1: So I ended up talking to him for a few hours
- Guest_Vunir1: And then it went really south.
- Faustiian: hope hes not another retard in tin foil
- Guest_Vunir1: I don't think I need to go into detail but I got burned very badly
- Guest_Vunir1: And now I'm a jackass
- Guest_Vunir1: Because I had that intent to actually stop talking to you
- Faustiian: cuz you got me banished for some useless prick?
- Faustiian: nahh i dont care
- Faustiian: just a message before you do so would be good.. just to make sure i dont wander and come message you
- Guest_Vunir1: Please, I would rather you hate me than be indifferent
- Faustiian: no im good
- Faustiian: burn
- Guest_Vunir1: I'm sorry.
- Faustiian: sorry for speaking for me?
- Faustiian: sorry for running after the first thing to even give you a second glance?
- Faustiian: what could you possibly be sorry for?
- Guest_Vunir1: For assuming, for making a poor choice, for that^, for a lot
- Faustiian: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Hu48wvLO-8
- Guest_Vunir1: ...
- Faustiian: you make 8 this week to do it
- Faustiian: maybe 9
- Guest_Vunir1: I feel even worse now.
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