Never tell your password to anyone.
Starbucks: ok
cat-bot 12: who this
Starbucks: guy in your game
cat-bot 12: alright
Starbucks: I wanna hear from a hacker, what makes hacking fun
cat-bot 12: its not the killing or the highscores
cat-bot 12: its the time i spend with the people i like
cat-bot 12: and they also like cheating
Starbucks: but can't you spend your time with friends playing the games legit?
cat-bot 12: i do, sometimes
Starbucks: what pleasure comes from hacking?
cat-bot 12: its not the killing or the highscores
cat-bot 12: its the time i spend with the people i lik
cat-bot 12: and they also like cheating
Starbucks: but you can spend your time with friends in ways that don't corrode the community
cat-bot 12: i could
cat-bot 12: but this is much more fun
Starbucks: cuz you're laughing with your friends abt how helpless the other team is?
cat-bot 12 is now playing Team Fortress 2. Click here to join.
cat-bot 12: nope
cat-bot 12: cause we're just enjoying the game
cat-bot 12: we say goodnight to eachother
cat-bot 12: we say goodmorning
Starbucks: but how can you have fun hacking? there's no challenge to it, no adversity to overcome, it's just stealing candy from a baby, over and over again
cat-bot 12: once again
cat-bot 12: its not about killing
Starbucks: ok
cat-bot 12: or completing the objective
cat-bot 12: its more about chatting
Starbucks: so it's something to relate to, a bonding point
cat-bot 12: yepper
cat-bot 12: made quite a few friends
Starbucks: what appeals to you in hacking more than anything else? is it the social time?
cat-bot 12: yep
cat-bot 12: 1 am chilling with the dudes
Starbucks: so you hack because your friends do it or you find something especially appealing in hacking
cat-bot 12 is now playing Team Fortress 2. Click here to join.
cat-bot 12: uh
cat-bot 12: both
Starbucks: so what do you find in hacking that makes it especially appealing?
cat-bot 12: the ability to both lose focus in the game and conversate with everyone while still mantaining a high score wait fuck i said its not about the score
cat-bot 12: well actually im a sad sad man who cant handle failure
cat-bot 12: so i cheat to avoid failure
cat-bot 12: and if i lose
cat-bot 12: i blame the cheat
cat-bot 12: bam ez
Starbucks: really? so it's a way to void responsibility for loss, since a hack did the work for you
cat-bot 12: exactly
cat-bot 12: im a fan of double standards
cat-bot 12: if i win, im good and if i lose its because im using a bad cheat or bad settings or a bad team or something
Starbucks: " if i win, im good"
Starbucks: isn't more like the cheat is good?
cat-bot 12: no
cat-bot 12: because i have to set the settings
cat-bot 12: and posistion myself
cat-bot 12: or something
cat-bot 12: basically i can do no wrong
cat-bot 12: i am the ultimate in life
cat-bot 12: i can be the success i never was
Starbucks: so it ultimately comes down to a power grab? to feel good, that you can win all the time
cat-bot 12: yes
cat-bot 12: exactly
cat-bot 12: im not a good person
Starbucks: but have you ever thought how failing is an essential part of life?
cat-bot 12: no
cat-bot 12: i shouldn't have to work for anything in life
cat-bot 12: except for money
cat-bot 12: i wish i had a job
cat-bot 12: i failed school
cat-bot 12: i wake up and sit infront of my computer and cheat and eat and drink and sleep and continue
cat-bot 12: and i want it to continue for the rest of my life
cat-bot 12: because i like this
cat-bot 12: dispite being a failure i like this
Starbucks: because you want to always feel like a winner?
cat-bot 12: yessir
cat-bot 12: you know how people play those virtual life games
cat-bot 12: you know, to compensate for their bad lifes
cat-bot 12: well i just win online
cat-bot 12: yay me i guess
Starbucks: like VR?
cat-bot 12: ever heard of second life
Starbucks: as in online? or is it a game?
cat-bot 12: its a game
cat-bot 12: where are we headed with this conversation
Starbucks: I just want to really know why someone hacks, it's always intriguied me
cat-bot 12: some people do it to get a reaction from others
cat-bot 12: their the type of people to blow up your house in minecraft for the laughs
cat-bot 12: other people do it because they have genuine fun doing it
cat-bot 12: their the type of people to steal from you and honestly think they did nothing wrong
cat-bot 12: i do it because i want to feel good about myself and i cant handle failure
cat-bot 12: i like to play with cheats on 2fort while hiding them
cat-bot 12: i hardly notice the cheats and feel like the victories were won by me
Starbucks: so your fear of failure has made you insecure about your potential?
cat-bot 12: right
cat-bot 12: or something
cat-bot 12: idk
cat-bot 12: i start up tf2 without cheats sometimes
cat-bot 12: i usually end up leaving the game and injecting cheats
cat-bot 12: due to be doing extremely bad
Starbucks: do you want to be good at tf2?
cat-bot 12: no
cat-bot 12: i used to be legit
cat-bot 12: 600 hours in though some guy kept making fun of me when i died
cat-bot 12: so i downloaded free lmaobox to give cheats a try
cat-bot 12: then i heard of lithium
cat-bot 12: a decent free cheat
cat-bot 12: and that was the end of me being legit
Starbucks: so you someone kinda bullied you into getting cheats?
cat-bot 12: idk maybe
cat-bot 12: i didnt have a friends
cat-bot 12: irl or online
cat-bot 12: at least now i have some online friends
Starbucks: wow
Starbucks: were you ever bullied at school?
Starbucks: I'm sorry if that was too personal
cat-bot 12: idk
cat-bot 12: people called me creepy
cat-bot 12: some people threw food
cat-bot 12: etc
cat-bot 12: not sure if thats bullying
cat-bot 12: or teasing
Starbucks: sounds like bullying
cat-bot 12 is now playing Team Fortress 2. Click here to join.
Starbucks: so you cheating was the culmination of a fear of failure, a lack of friends to interact with, and the insecurity that came with it, you cheat to put yourself in a bubble to make you feel great and powerful to hide the pain of the past
cat-bot 12: wow slow down im not saskue or somethign edgy
Starbucks: ok lol
Starbucks: but is it something along those lines?
cat-bot 12: maybe idk
cat-bot 12: i dont think about life i just live it
Starbucks: do you feel good outside of your computer? does the great feeling you get from tf2 carry over?
cat-bot 12: uh
cat-bot 12: when im listening to music
cat-bot 12: thinking about what life would be like if i was a white teenager in the midwest
cat-bot 12: with a band
cat-bot 12: and friends
cat-bot 12: then i feel good
Starbucks: so you're still insecure outside of your computer? there's no shame in being honest
cat-bot 12: pretty much
cat-bot 12: but ive been listening to this one song on repeat since two days ago
cat-bot 12: it makes me feel good
cat-bot 12: so i feel better than before maybe idk
cat-bot 12: yesterday i make a reddit post
cat-bot 12: and it didnt do so good
cat-bot 12: so i avoided the subreddit for a couple hous
cat-bot 12: and felt bad whenever i saw a post from there
Starbucks: but you do have to understand cheating in tf2 is only a quick fix for your insecurity problems, you'll never get better IRL if you keep it up, to me it sounds like an addiction, as long as you stay connected online, you're impervious, but once you go into the real world, reality seeps in
cat-bot 12: well actually i dont have any plans for life
cat-bot 12: as i said i just live it
cat-bot 12: day to day
cat-bot 12: i plan to do the same thing im doing right now for as long as i live
cat-bot 12: i dont think about the future
Starbucks: because everything outside your bubble of tf2 has potential of failure
cat-bot 12: not really
cat-bot 12: i play other games
cat-bot 12: your looking too deep into this
Starbucks: maybe
Starbucks: do you really think that you can do this your whole life? a life without failure?
cat-bot 12: suicide is an option
Starbucks: you would take your own life to prevent failure from dawning onto you?
cat-bot 12: well i mean
cat-bot 12: if my mother ever chooses to kick me out
cat-bot 12: id be force to
cat-bot 12: concidered she alienated herself from her family
cat-bot 12: meaning that i too am alienated from them
cat-bot 12: outside of my mother i dont have anybody
Starbucks: will you ever consider accepting life as it is? one that is chalk full of failure and mistakes, hell I could be a multi-millionare right now but my dad made a shitty investment, but my dad didn't take his life because of it
cat-bot 12: i have accepted life as is
cat-bot 12: however if i ever stopped being supported by my mother, life wouldnt be as is
cat-bot 12: because as it stands
cat-bot 12: i wake up
cat-bot 12: move to my computer
cat-bot 12: sustain my hunger and thirst
cat-bot 12: and sleep
cat-bot 12: repeat daily
Starbucks: I can tell you being someone who gets up and does running or golfing or tennis, you aren't living life
Starbucks: you're living an empty husk of life
Starbucks: life has so much to offer, you just need to get out there and take it all in
cat-bot 12: uh
cat-bot 12: that wasnt a question
cat-bot 12: that was a statement
Starbucks: ik
cat-bot 12: i have nothing to add
cat-bot 12: i cant keep conversations going sadly
cat-bot 12: due to the aspergers
Starbucks: but once you get out there and explore life as it is, you will thank me for opening your world
cat-bot 12: uh
cat-bot 12: okay?
Starbucks: so will you do it?
Starbucks: will you leave your computer to see what life truly is?
cat-bot 12: do what
cat-bot 12: i dont like going outside
cat-bot 12: or interacting with real people
Starbucks: so you have accepted life as it is, where you stay at your computer because it feels good, and outside doesn't
cat-bot 12: yes
Starbucks: wow
Starbucks: well, I hope one day you may take my words into consideration and see what life has to offer you
Starbucks: thank you for your time
cat-bot 12: i dont think i will in all honesty
Starbucks: if you give it a try, you can find something like a gaming club or something
Starbucks: there are people irl who are just like you and relate to you
cat-bot 12: i dont want to make friends
Starbucks: why not?
cat-bot 12: i dont need them
cat-bot 12 has changed their name to Cert.
Starbucks: since you have your game?
Cert: since i have the internet
Starbucks: and what if the internet dies?
Cert: i have books
Cert: i used to read a lot
Starbucks: have you ever had friends? or any traumatic experiences with them?
Cert: i had friends
Cert: then i got a computer
Cert: and stopped hanging out with them
Cert: when i finally came back
Cert: i realized that i couldn't talk to them anymore
Cert: i lost the know how
Starbucks: the internet changed you that much?
Cert: i used to be the defacto leader of the group
Cert: the charisma
Cert: the moral booster
Cert is now playing Team Fortress 2. Click here to join.
Starbucks: what do you like more? your previous friends or the internet
Cert is now playing Team Fortress 2. Click here to join.
Cert: i cant decide
Cert: ive thought about it before but im 50/50 on it
Starbucks: all I can say is go get them back, since the life your living right now won't last forever, but friends can
Cert: 'all i can say' so you're finished?
Starbucks: yeah, I just hope what I told you will make you reconsider the life you've decided to live
Cert: i really wont
Cert: i refuse to change
Cert: but i hope i helped you see why people cheat
Cert: or at least, why i cheat
Cert: because the one reason i dont cheat is to make people angry
Cert: i leave if someone asks me to
Starbucks: that's nice to know
Starbucks: and I did, and I greatly appreciate your time
Cert is now Offline.