Denial

Eversince the talk with Shinra, the young Ryozo appeared to be haunted by same ill thoughts whenever she went after training, though suprisingly said thoughts appeared to help her alot. She kept pushing herself over the peroid of months, constantly trying to work over the practice Rorik told her about, reuslting with her forcibliy shrinking her aura, slowly making it s maller than the apple.

She tried to smile and cheer herself for the acomplished result, thouh only ending up with a painful scowl as she knew it wasn't enough. She let out a quiet growl and tried to squash her aura with doubled force, resulting with it momentarly shrinking to size of a pea just as she began to once more focus on Alistraie and her abusive authority over everyone.

Something that Sophia believed she didn't deserve, especially if she truthfully desired to create a better Valmasia, the thought of never reaching anything similar in terms of authoritical and physical power made the young Ryozo boil, feeling the odd, disgusing yet motivating envy, slowly realizing what the fox yokai meant back then.

Suddenly she shook her head and allowed the aura to return to its size and shape before starting to pant  loudly, denying the temptation which the feeling gave her, hard to resist especially after seeing the result its usage brought to her training. It felt wrong, as if it wasn't fully her who was doing it, she decided not to relay on it, at least not yet...
(Sophia Ryozo)