Poems

Darkness, pulling me
The abyss calls for me now
To swallow me whole

Love. What is it for?
To drain one's emotions dry?
To tie one's self down?

It makes zero sense
I have loved, and it was dull
Empty. Hollow. Dead

To push myself further into the dark
To drive myself deeper into madness
Why do I do this?
Why do I not wait, and hark
To my own desperate drys of sadness
And find my own bliss?

Her head hangs low
Yet she found a way
Her scars do not heal
Yet she found a way
Her tears flow free
Yet she found a way
She was scared and would cower
Yet she found a way
A way to make me care
Her heavy heart and scarred legs
Didn't frighten me
Her constant tantrums
Didn't frighten me
Her shouting and yelling
Didn't frighten me
Where most saw a broken mare
I saw a beautiful gem
And she saw a glimmer of hope

Is she lying to me?
I don't know
Should I rather make tea?
I don't know
Should I continue on?
I don't know
Where should I put my pawn?
I don't know
Is it worth it?
I don't know
Should I move that pic a bit?
I don't know
Should I end it all?
I don't know
I guess I'll just sit and bawl
While I live my life
And contemplate ending my life