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 Anonymous 01/20/20(Mon)22:54:06 No.818921666 [3] [Reply]>>818928888 >>818929809 >>818930043

    I’m leaving this place. Not just /b/, not just 4chan, but this mental hellhole I’ve put myself in. I’ve wasted so many god damn years on video games, countless YouTube videos, movies, tv shows, image boards, reddit, memes, useless apps, EVERYTHING. I’ve become such a fucking loser and become depressed. Or is it the other way around, did I become depressed then end up wasting years? I don’t know. All I know is I’m so sick of it, I’m sick of myself. I’ve let myself down and I’ve let my family down.

    I never would have thought I’d be where I am now. If you told me at 15 that my adult self would spend years in his room alone and depressed I wouldn’t have believed you. I went out with friends ONCE in all of 2019. I’ve lost all my money, put myself in tens and thousands of dollars in debt, and I can’t even support myself financially. It’s the fucking 20th of the new year and I haven’t made progress on ANY of my goals. What kind of fucking loser am I? How did it get so bad? This wasn’t how it was supposed to be. My moms in debt up to her eyeballs and I can’t even help her. I can’t even help myself. It’s so fucking embarrassing. Tons of my friends made a bunch of money. Where’d my money go? Down the drain from lack of work ethic, paranoia, depression, fear of failure, and pure utter laziness.

    This can’t go on, if this goes on I won’t be able to live with myself. I can’t let my life be like this the next 10 years. The thing is I’m scared as fuck about trying. I’m scared about trying to beat my addictions to instant gratification, to porn, to youtube, to 4chan and reddit and sugar and junk food. I’m truly scared shitless. I can’t sit down and study or work for even one minute without being filled with insane amounts of anxiety and fear mixed with utter boredom. But I have to try. (1/2)

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Anonymous 01/21/20(Tue)01:04:52 No.818928888

    >>818921666 (OP)
    What's the fucking problem.

    Get a job. If you're too autistic to function in a workplace, learn a skill or two and make a living as a self employed nigger.

    Fucking drama queen holy shit.