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  1. [7/19/2015 5:29:44 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Hope you're doing well.
  2. [7/19/2015 5:30:13 PM] Scootie-sama: I'm actually here
  3. [7/19/2015 5:30:19 PM] Scootie-sama: What do you need
  4. [7/19/2015 5:31:12 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Nothing, just checking in.
  5. [7/19/2015 5:31:38 PM] Scootie-sama: Oh.
  6. [7/19/2015 5:34:18 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Why are you upset?
  7. [7/19/2015 5:35:55 PM] Scootie-sama: ..
  8. [7/19/2015 5:37:23 PM] Scootie-sama: I don't really feel like sharing that reason
  9. [7/19/2015 5:38:12 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Okay, then.
  10. [7/19/2015 5:40:38 PM] Scootie-sama: Just everytime I look at that patreon, it looked much worse
  11. [7/19/2015 5:40:59 PM] Scootie-sama: I wanted to go back and help, but I've been keeping my word to not do so
  12. [7/19/2015 5:44:12 PM] Scootie-sama: And on some days, I kinda look at my profile and then wonder "Why do I still consider this person a best friend"
  13. [7/19/2015 5:44:29 PM] Scootie-sama: People tell me, if they were me, they would've cut ties a while ago
  14. [7/19/2015 5:44:33 PM] Scootie-sama: But I'm not them
  15. [7/19/2015 5:45:10 PM] Scootie-sama: Yeah, I'm pretty clingy, at times extremely moody to a point I breakdown or just go and tear apart whatever I happen across at times
  16. [7/19/2015 5:45:36 PM] Scootie-sama: It's a bit upsetting for me that I keep hanging on for a long while
  17. [7/19/2015 5:45:55 PM] Scootie-sama: But I do feel happy when others are happy
  18. [7/19/2015 5:46:15 PM] Scootie-sama: Really ever the only times I'm happy
  19. [7/19/2015 5:51:54 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Well, I've never been upset by you taking your pledge on Patreon, though I was upset by the fact that you never let me know about it. And to be honest, Scoots, now that you're telling me how you really feel, I'm not surprised. We barely talk, RPs are all but dead, and the bad times stick out in my head more than the good times. We've both made a lot of mistakes, which ultimately, led us to this point.
  20. [7/19/2015 5:53:13 PM] Shrimp Noodle: If it's upseting you this much to keep hanging on, then maybe we should take some time away to let things cool off, and then maybe try to restart this friendship later.
  21. [7/19/2015 5:53:45 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I don't want to be a burden on you or anyone, Scoots.
  22. [7/19/2015 5:54:26 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And if you want to get some distance from me, you should be free to make that decision.
  23. [7/19/2015 5:56:43 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I don't mind staying friends with you to see if things improve, but I won't keep you latched onto something you don't want. ,
  24. [7/19/2015 5:57:54 PM] Scootie-sama: We rarely talk because your hardly around
  25. [7/19/2015 5:58:07 PM] Scootie-sama: And when I try to say hello
  26. [7/19/2015 5:58:11 PM] Scootie-sama: Like yesterday
  27. [7/19/2015 5:58:13 PM] Scootie-sama: Nothing
  28. [7/19/2015 5:59:26 PM] Shrimp Noodle: We rarely talk because I have commissions and projects to work on to earn money. And there have been more than a few times when you were away as well Scoots, playing Monster Hunter.
  29. [7/19/2015 6:00:26 PM] Scootie-sama: I might've been playing MH4U
  30. [7/19/2015 6:00:32 PM] Scootie-sama: But you can say hello
  31. [7/19/2015 6:00:59 PM] Scootie-sama: I will put the game down and even fail a quest on the randoms I joined to talk to anyone if they want to talk to me
  32. [7/19/2015 6:01:12 PM] Scootie-sama: If you want to say hello
  33. [7/19/2015 6:01:33 PM] Scootie-sama: If you want to talk, it's easy to just say "Hey Scoots, what you up to?"
  34. [7/19/2015 6:01:56 PM] Scootie-sama: I do it for Sunny, I do it for Jreid, heck even Durgon if they've got stuff going on
  35. [7/19/2015 6:02:14 PM] Scootie-sama: I'd sometimes see you on TF2 before
  36. [7/19/2015 6:02:18 PM] Scootie-sama: Try to say hello
  37. [7/19/2015 6:02:38 PM | Edited 6:02:45 PM] Scootie-sama: I don't get a response until maybe, what? Like after you've stopped playing?
  38. [7/19/2015 6:03:01 PM] Scootie-sama: And then you can't talk cause you have to go to bed, understandable
  39. [7/19/2015 6:13:45 PM] Shrimp Noodle: So I'm obligated to talk to you even when I'm busy or stressed out about something? I'm really sorry, but sometimes I just don't want to get into a full conversation with someone while I'm in the middle of a TF2 game, you know? And that happens sooo often on Steam...I try to play a game and no one seems to care. Sometimes, I just want to burn off a bit of stress and worry by playing a bit.
  40. [7/19/2015 6:14:18 PM] Scootie-sama: Well, that's understandable
  41. [7/19/2015 6:14:32 PM] Scootie-sama: But last night, you were recording for your channel, weren't you?
  42. [7/19/2015 6:14:48 PM] Scootie-sama: You were editing after
  43. [7/19/2015 6:14:59 PM] Scootie-sama: Sure you could've stopped the game for a moment
  44. [7/19/2015 6:15:09 PM] Scootie-sama: And just edit out me talking to you on steam
  45. [7/19/2015 6:15:23 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I wasn't editting last night. I spent the entire time jumping to different servers on Gmod.
  46. [7/19/2015 6:15:58 PM] Scootie-sama: You told me you were editting
  47. [7/19/2015 6:16:23 PM] Scootie-sama: But then come tell me I'm your scapegoat because I pour hours into MH4U
  48. [7/19/2015 6:16:36 PM] Scootie-sama: Which is mostly me sitting around more than half the time
  49. [7/19/2015 6:17:29 PM] Scootie-sama: I got the conversation still up
  50. [7/19/2015 6:17:37 PM] Scootie-sama: I can pull it right up for you even
  51. [7/19/2015 6:17:40 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I didn't edit anything last night, even if I had planned to. And scapegoat?
  52. [7/19/2015 6:17:48 PM] Scootie-sama: You said you were recording for youtube
  53. [7/19/2015 6:17:59 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Sure, can you take a screenshot then?
  54. [7/19/2015 6:18:10 PM] Scootie-sama: You took me as playing Monster Hunter for the reason I don't talk
  55. [7/19/2015 6:20:23 PM] Scootie-sama: https://www.dropbox.com/s/tfvmr0g8fcz0dkl/Screenshot%202015-07-19%2021.18.32.png?dl=0
  56. [7/19/2015 6:22:33 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I think you misinterpretted my words, Scoots. I said that I'd be heading to bed after I organize my footage to have it ready to edit later on.
  57. [7/19/2015 6:24:10 PM] Scootie-sama: You were still recording it all though, as you had mentioned
  58. [7/19/2015 6:24:24 PM] Scootie-sama: Is that the reason you couldn't stop to just respond at least
  59. [7/19/2015 6:28:22 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Soo...is this the reason why you're mad? Because I took a while to reply to you while I was recording several hours of continuous collab gaming footage for Youtube and didn't stop everything to have a conversation with you, making my collaborator wait for however long it would take for me to type in a conversation?
  60. [7/19/2015 6:29:36 PM] Scootie-sama: No, because if it was only about that
  61. [7/19/2015 6:29:42 PM] Scootie-sama: It'd be pretty petty
  62. [7/19/2015 6:29:44 PM] Scootie-sama: I know that
  63. [7/19/2015 6:29:48 PM] Scootie-sama: It's a lot really
  64. [7/19/2015 6:29:50 PM] Scootie-sama: A lot
  65. [7/19/2015 6:30:19 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You know my regular Skype, and FA account. And you know that it can take me a while to respond at times...this honestly isn't the first time that I've been delayed in replying to you because of someone else.
  66. [7/19/2015 6:31:49 PM] Scootie-sama: But what about this account?
  67. [7/19/2015 6:32:17 PM] Scootie-sama: And FA?
  68. [7/19/2015 6:32:21 PM] Scootie-sama: That's fine
  69. [7/19/2015 6:32:30 PM | Edited 6:32:36 PM] Scootie-sama: Responses are meant to take time
  70. [7/19/2015 6:32:46 PM] Scootie-sama: I can wait for those responses
  71. [7/19/2015 6:33:04 PM] Scootie-sama: I don't even see you get on your regular Skype account
  72. [7/19/2015 6:33:18 PM] Scootie-sama: It's been a really long time since I've even seen you on that one
  73. [7/19/2015 6:36:53 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Well, two things. First, I don't really understand why you need to see me on that account if you already have this one. Plus, you know that I've been removing people from that account, so I'll be on that one soon anyways. And second, we both have to admit that the reason you were upset at me yesterday was pretty petty, Scoots.
  74. [7/19/2015 6:38:07 PM] Scootie-sama: I wasn't upset, I was dismayed for the fact you couldn't just say anything back until later
  75. [7/19/2015 6:38:22 PM] Scootie-sama: No, the reason I'm upset is for other reasons
  76. [7/19/2015 6:38:40 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Okay, then tell me the real reason you were upset.
  77. [7/19/2015 6:38:59 PM] Scootie-sama: Part of it is evident in this conversation
  78. [7/19/2015 6:39:14 PM] Scootie-sama: Saying I'm unable to sit and chat because I play Monster Hunter
  79. [7/19/2015 6:39:22 PM] Scootie-sama: Yet your hardly ever on
  80. [7/19/2015 6:39:31 PM] Scootie-sama: I don't know what you do through out the day
  81. [7/19/2015 6:39:36 PM] Scootie-sama: I don't make it my business
  82. [7/19/2015 6:39:49 PM] Scootie-sama: But honestly, I rarely see you
  83. [7/19/2015 6:40:00 PM] Scootie-sama: And you say that we don't even talk as much anymore
  84. [7/19/2015 6:40:25 PM] Scootie-sama: That's not something you can pin on me when you are hardly present for the conversation
  85. [7/19/2015 6:40:43 PM] Scootie-sama: The day I had asked if you had something to say to me, something honest
  86. [7/19/2015 6:40:49 PM] Scootie-sama: You couldn't think of anything
  87. [7/19/2015 6:41:04 PM] Scootie-sama: But bringing up the patreon sure jogged your memory
  88. [7/19/2015 6:41:10 PM] Scootie-sama: Because I was silent about it
  89. [7/19/2015 6:46:38 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You're mad because of that now? At this point, it sounds like you're throwing stuff at the wall to see what you can use as ammo, Scoots. Literally all of what you said are petty reasons for being upset with me.
  90. [7/19/2015 6:47:10 PM] Scootie-sama: That's pretty ironic with the guy saying I'm using ammo
  91. [7/19/2015 6:47:15 PM] Scootie-sama: When that's pretty true
  92. [7/19/2015 6:47:28 PM] Scootie-sama: You say we lack connection because I'm playing monster hunter
  93. [7/19/2015 6:47:35 PM] Scootie-sama: Your barely even on skype
  94. [7/19/2015 6:47:41 PM] Scootie-sama: That's not some ammo
  95. [7/19/2015 6:47:44 PM] Scootie-sama: Or even ammo
  96. [7/19/2015 6:47:46 PM] Scootie-sama: That's a fact
  97. [7/19/2015 6:48:04 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Honestly, I've actually avoided using actual facts or ammo, Scoots.
  98. [7/19/2015 6:48:20 PM] Scootie-sama: You called what I said ammo
  99. [7/19/2015 6:48:37 PM] Scootie-sama: Thinking I'm saying shit like I'm throwing stuff to the wall
  100. [7/19/2015 6:48:40 PM] Scootie-sama: Hoping it sticks
  101. [7/19/2015 6:48:54 PM] Scootie-sama: You wanna say I don't come to talk to you?
  102. [7/19/2015 6:48:57 PM] Scootie-sama: When I have been
  103. [7/19/2015 6:49:04 PM] Scootie-sama: FOR a long while
  104. [7/19/2015 6:49:10 PM] Scootie-sama: You are barely around
  105. [7/19/2015 6:49:22 PM] Scootie-sama: You wanna say I'm off playing a game
  106. [7/19/2015 6:49:31 PM] Scootie-sama: That I don't drop my game time to talk
  107. [7/19/2015 6:49:40 PM] Scootie-sama: Really?
  108. [7/19/2015 6:49:46 PM] Scootie-sama: That there, that was your ammo
  109. [7/19/2015 6:49:55 PM] Scootie-sama: The bullshit you tried to make stick to the wall
  110. [7/19/2015 6:50:14 PM] Scootie-sama: This ain't a turnabout of your words
  111. [7/19/2015 6:50:21 PM] Scootie-sama: It's literally what you put down
  112. [7/19/2015 6:51:45 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Well...true. I've been actively trying to avoid any of the deeper issues. I don't want to bring that stuff up.
  113. [7/19/2015 6:53:39 PM] Shrimp Noodle: It never works out, and no one is satisfied afterwards.
  114. [7/19/2015 6:53:59 PM] Shrimp Noodle: So I'll stop this argument right now before we continue.
  115. [7/19/2015 6:55:05 PM] Shrimp Noodle: No more, Scoots. I'm tired of all the arguing, so let's just agree to disagree.
  116. [7/19/2015 6:55:28 PM] Scootie-sama: You can't avoid fights happening
  117. [7/19/2015 6:55:33 PM] Scootie-sama: They'll happen
  118. [7/19/2015 6:55:38 PM] Scootie-sama: I want it to stop too
  119. [7/19/2015 6:55:46 PM] Scootie-sama: But you make that a bit difficult
  120. [7/19/2015 6:56:06 PM] Shrimp Noodle: How do I make it difficult?
  121. [7/19/2015 6:56:34 PM] Scootie-sama: Just looking back at this conversation piece above is just enough to prove that
  122. [7/19/2015 6:57:11 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Please tell me how I make it difficult.
  123. [7/19/2015 6:58:15 PM] Scootie-sama: You want me, to explain the fact that you just tried to lay bullshit on me as to why you make it difficult for an argument to not start?
  124. [7/19/2015 6:58:40 PM] Scootie-sama: Cause bullshit has been laid on me hard by you before
  125. [7/19/2015 6:58:42 PM] Scootie-sama: A LOT
  126. [7/19/2015 6:58:52 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You mean...like the bullshit that started this argument in the first place?
  127. [7/19/2015 6:59:09 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You've done me the same way, Scoots.
  128. [7/19/2015 6:59:49 PM] Scootie-sama: I might have, but I'll step forward and admit my mistakes
  129. [7/19/2015 6:59:55 PM] Scootie-sama: You hide away when you do
  130. [7/19/2015 7:00:18 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You haven't really admited to many of your mistakes.
  131. [7/19/2015 7:00:34 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You didn't even admit to being petty during this argument.
  132. [7/19/2015 7:00:41 PM] Scootie-sama: I did
  133. [7/19/2015 7:00:46 PM] Scootie-sama: You wanna go back and look
  134. [7/19/2015 7:00:57 PM] Scootie-sama: That's you turning a blind eye to my words
  135. [7/19/2015 7:01:12 PM] Scootie-sama: You lock your faults up
  136. [7/19/2015 7:01:26 PM] Scootie-sama: I'll go back to ask for the forgiveness of mine
  137. [7/19/2015 7:01:32 PM] Scootie-sama: Even if I don't get it
  138. [7/19/2015 7:01:43 PM] Scootie-sama: Or worse, get called a fucking monster for that shit
  139. [7/19/2015 7:01:50 PM] Scootie-sama: I try
  140. [7/19/2015 7:01:58 PM] Scootie-sama: I haven't seen you tried yet
  141. [7/19/2015 7:02:11 PM] Shrimp Noodle: No, because if it was only about that
  142. It'd be pretty petty
  143. I know that
  144. It's a lot really
  145. A lot
  146. [7/19/2015 7:02:33 PM] Scootie-sama: That is me mentioning it was petty
  147. [7/19/2015 7:02:50 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You always do this, Scoots. You dance around the mistakes, and then quickly move on to something else.
  148. [7/19/2015 7:03:06 PM] Scootie-sama: I didn't move to anything
  149. [7/19/2015 7:03:13 PM] Shrimp Noodle: But what about this account?
  150. And FA?
  151. That's fine
  152. Responses are meant to take time
  153. I can wait for those responses
  154. I don't even see you get on your regular Skype account
  155. It's been a really long time since I've even seen you on that one
  156. [7/19/2015 7:03:24 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Your very next response.
  157. [7/19/2015 7:03:30 PM] Scootie-sama: You brought up those subjects
  158. [7/19/2015 7:03:40 PM] Scootie-sama: So I responded to them
  159. [7/19/2015 7:03:45 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You avoided the issue of being petty, and changed the subject.
  160. [7/19/2015 7:04:00 PM] Scootie-sama: You brought those subject up before my response
  161. [7/19/2015 7:04:08 PM] Scootie-sama: And you say I changed the subject?
  162. [7/19/2015 7:04:17 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Yeah, you changed the subject.
  163. [7/19/2015 7:04:30 PM] Scootie-sama: I changed the subject cause you changed it?
  164. [7/19/2015 7:04:33 PM] Scootie-sama: Amazing
  165. [7/19/2015 7:06:11 PM] Shrimp Noodle: At this point, we were talking about the reason for you being upset with me yesterday. I say that you were being petty, and you say that you weren't. Then you move on to talking about my public Skype account, the one you don't immediately need to see me on and the one I didn't mention at all because you have my private account as well.
  166. [7/19/2015 7:06:24 PM] Scootie-sama: No
  167. [7/19/2015 7:06:31 PM] Scootie-sama: I was upset for bigger reasons
  168. [7/19/2015 7:06:43 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Tell me the reasons, then.
  169. [7/19/2015 7:06:47 PM] Scootie-sama: I said it would be petty if I had no other reasons
  170. [7/19/2015 7:07:07 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Then just tell me the real reason you were upset.
  171. [7/19/2015 7:08:15 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You don't want to tell me.
  172. [7/19/2015 7:08:35 PM] Scootie-sama: ... I don't want to because it'd be beating a dead horse anyway..
  173. [7/19/2015 7:08:56 PM] Scootie-sama: Because it's the part that hurts me the most..
  174. [7/19/2015 7:09:22 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I'm willing to bet that you've hurt me at least as much.
  175. [7/19/2015 7:09:47 PM] Scootie-sama: I know I did.
  176. [7/19/2015 7:11:38 PM] Scootie-sama: Be honest with me
  177. [7/19/2015 7:11:47 PM] Scootie-sama: Let me know how I hurt you..
  178. [7/19/2015 7:12:38 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Do you want the cold truth, without any bitterness or spite from me?
  179. [7/19/2015 7:14:00 PM] Scootie-sama: Give it all to me, every bit of bitterness and spite in you that you have
  180. [7/19/2015 7:15:57 PM | Edited 7:16:07 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I hope you truly mean that, Scoots. Durgon asked me the same thing a while back, and that was the last one-on-one conversation we ever had.
  181. [7/19/2015 7:16:16 PM] Scootie-sama: I do.
  182. [7/19/2015 7:19:57 PM | Edited 7:20:09 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Okay then. First, you were the reason why the Master/Pet relationship I had with Zakk ended. I was already worried that Zakk was losing interest, so when you bragged about having him as a new pet, it crushed me. I was convinced that Zakk wanted to move on to another master, so I ended it with him, and nurtured a secret grudge against you for killing that relationship for the next half-a-year.
  183. [7/19/2015 7:20:27 PM] Scootie-sama: I remember you telling me this before
  184. [7/19/2015 7:20:36 PM] Scootie-sama: Zakk was hurt by that
  185. [7/19/2015 7:20:47 PM] Scootie-sama: But I shouldn't have bragged
  186. [7/19/2015 7:20:53 PM] Scootie-sama: I just really had fun with him
  187. [7/19/2015 7:22:35 PM] Scootie-sama: And you had made Servo your pet
  188. [7/19/2015 7:22:47 PM] Scootie-sama: I was oblivious to it at the time
  189. [7/19/2015 7:22:57 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I know it hurt Zakk. It hurt both of us pretty deeply. I was an emotional wreck for months following that incident. By then, me and Zakk had been chatting almost everyday, and the sudden loss of that affection and support was like being stripped of my happiness.
  190. [7/19/2015 7:23:02 PM] Scootie-sama: Cause I was more excited on the idea of shareing pets between us
  191. [7/19/2015 7:23:46 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And the truth about that. Servo was the one who asked to be my pet, and I originally didn't want to because I figured that I'd ask Zakk first.
  192. [7/19/2015 7:24:15 PM] Shrimp Noodle: But I agreed when he mentioned that you already had Zakk as your pet.
  193. [7/19/2015 7:24:53 PM] Shrimp Noodle: The weight of that didn't dawn on me until later on, when you bragged about your new pet in a journal.
  194. [7/19/2015 7:25:51 PM | Edited 7:26:03 PM] Scootie-sama: I'm sorry about that, they just really made me happy, both of them
  195. [7/19/2015 7:26:06 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Yeah, they made me very happy too.
  196. [7/19/2015 7:26:24 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I just wish that happiness lasted a bit longer.
  197. [7/19/2015 7:26:48 PM] Shrimp Noodle: But, I eventually recovered, though.
  198. [7/19/2015 7:27:17 PM] Scootie-sama: The events of that left me emotionally damaged during deployment
  199. [7/19/2015 7:29:18 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Same here. I can't even think about taking on a new pet now, because I'd be afraid of getting too attached to them like I did with Zakk. And then I might have to go through the agony of being ripped away from them all over again.
  200. [7/19/2015 7:30:00 PM] Shrimp Noodle: It was literally the most painful thing I ever had to do.
  201. [7/19/2015 7:30:38 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I guess I was still emotionally tender during that time, because I do remember the Mia incident happening around that time as well.
  202. [7/19/2015 7:32:04 PM] Shrimp Noodle: The sight of seeing a character looking much too similar to mine, with the same name and mannerisms...only she was created much earlier.
  203. [7/19/2015 7:33:56 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And done in a better style as well. Compared to Huffy's Mia, the art for mine was hilariously low quality, to the point of seeming like a pathetic rip-off to anyone who didn't know about Mia's lore or creation. So, basically everyone except my closest friends.
  204. [7/19/2015 7:35:49 PM] Shrimp Noodle: It made me paranoid, not just because of the similar character, but because I was terrified of what my followers or Huffy's followers must've thought of my Mia. A obvious rip-off...obviously. Even Dlrowdog faved the other version.
  205. [7/19/2015 7:35:55 PM] Scootie-sama: I was trying really hard to convince you at the time too
  206. [7/19/2015 7:36:06 PM] Scootie-sama: Because I saw how it effected you
  207. [7/19/2015 7:36:12 PM] Scootie-sama: But it's too late now
  208. [7/19/2015 7:36:16 PM | Edited 7:36:22 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You made my paranoia worse.
  209. [7/19/2015 7:37:26 PM] Shrimp Noodle: At the time, you treated it like I was just being childish or obsessive, and your words just pissed me off as well as made me feel more depressed.
  210. [7/19/2015 7:39:00 PM] Scootie-sama: Well, it was because the way you reacted towards it. Peter had went to talk to the artist about it too because he wanted to help like I did
  211. [7/19/2015 7:39:28 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You do realize that the artist probably thought the same thing I did, right?
  212. [7/19/2015 7:39:37 PM] Scootie-sama: No
  213. [7/19/2015 7:39:46 PM] Scootie-sama: Cause Peter told me what the artist said
  214. [7/19/2015 7:40:19 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Just because the artist says something, it doesn't mean that's what they actually believe.
  215. [7/19/2015 7:40:43 PM] Shrimp Noodle: He probably saw my Mia as a low quality joke, and didn't think much of it at the time.
  216. [7/19/2015 7:41:08 PM] Shrimp Noodle: The idea of Peter confronting the artist on a character he's never seen before is laughable at best.
  217. [7/19/2015 7:41:12 PM] Scootie-sama: Now your just overthinking it
  218. [7/19/2015 7:41:44 PM] Scootie-sama: Peter went to them because he had found the way you reacted to the situation a bit much
  219. [7/19/2015 7:42:01 PM] Scootie-sama: Yeah, I understand you had a big emotional strain at the time
  220. [7/19/2015 7:42:07 PM] Scootie-sama: But I was trying me best
  221. [7/19/2015 7:42:24 PM] Scootie-sama: I didn't really think of going to talk to the artist, but Peter was smart enough to do it
  222. [7/19/2015 7:43:23 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Every attempt you guys made just felt like you were trying to say, "Oh, you're just being childish. Let us show you how pointless and sad your concerns are." Both of you came off as deeply condenscending to me.
  223. [7/19/2015 7:44:07 PM] Scootie-sama: But that wasn't our message
  224. [7/19/2015 7:44:16 PM] Shrimp Noodle: But that's what I got out of it.
  225. [7/19/2015 7:44:36 PM] Scootie-sama: We were trying to show you that didn't need to worry too much about it after Peter had a talk with the artist
  226. [7/19/2015 7:44:46 PM] Scootie-sama: Because the artist, in fact didn't mind one bit
  227. [7/19/2015 7:44:54 PM] Scootie-sama: They were just as surprised as you were
  228. [7/19/2015 7:45:18 PM] Scootie-sama: Their character design they even said was irrelevant because work on them was discontinued
  229. [7/19/2015 7:45:54 PM] Scootie-sama: But you were so convinced by this, that Peter and I found it hopeless to help..
  230. [7/19/2015 7:46:00 PM] Shrimp Noodle: It doesn't matter what you were trying to do, Scoots. If your goal was to make me feel better, then you made a wrong decision.
  231. [7/19/2015 7:46:34 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I'm sorry, but that's how it is when you're trying to help someone.
  232. [7/19/2015 7:46:49 PM] Scootie-sama: ... Peter told me the same
  233. [7/19/2015 7:46:55 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I've made wrong decisions too, thinking that I was trying to help.
  234. [7/19/2015 7:46:59 PM] Scootie-sama: I sound more different talking than typing
  235. [7/19/2015 7:47:24 PM] Scootie-sama: He told me I sound more aggressive when I type the worlds, but more concerned when I speak them
  236. [7/19/2015 7:47:49 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I can't use the Skype phone, not while my dad is here.
  237. [7/19/2015 7:48:00 PM] Scootie-sama: I know
  238. [7/19/2015 7:48:34 PM] Scootie-sama: But understand, I'm not truly mad, my wording just comes off as aggressive and sharp edged
  239. [7/19/2015 7:49:10 PM | Edited 7:49:17 PM] Scootie-sama: Honestly, I'm more concerned and motherly if you want to put it that way when a friend has a problem
  240. [7/19/2015 7:49:35 PM] Scootie-sama: ... Was there anything else?
  241. [7/19/2015 7:50:29 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Plenty, unfortunately.
  242. [7/19/2015 7:50:59 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Do you remember then you were about to go on deployment, and you posted that journal asking for home addresses?
  243. [7/19/2015 7:52:00 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I was conflicted, because even though I was still mad at you, I wanted to keep in touch. Moreover, as much as I wanted to keep in touch, I was terrified of my online life invading my home life.
  244. [7/19/2015 7:52:28 PM] Shrimp Noodle: It was then that I came up with the fake name, right in that note I sent you.
  245. [7/19/2015 7:53:25 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And before I sent that note, I made you promise never to tell anyone about my address, and never visit unless I was comfortable with it.
  246. [7/19/2015 7:54:01 PM] Scootie-sama: Don't change your status to that
  247. [7/19/2015 7:54:04 PM] Scootie-sama: Plz
  248. [7/19/2015 7:55:06 PM] Scootie-sama: OKay, maybe NOT that song
  249. [7/19/2015 7:56:06 PM] Shrimp Noodle: But, even though I had your word on that, you still had my address. So, as a last resort, I made up that fake name so I could still give myself a chance if someone came looking for me. I did that because of my paranoia and justified concerns.
  250. [7/19/2015 7:57:42 PM | Edited 7:57:47 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Considering that I was still holding a grudge against you because of my Master/Pet relationship and the Mia incident, you can understand my lack of trust.
  251. [7/19/2015 7:59:10 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And, thanks to Durgon and apparently a whole bunch of other friends...that fake name was completely justified, if not completely ineffective.
  252. [7/19/2015 7:59:30 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I'm sorry...I did enjoy the visit.
  253. [7/19/2015 7:59:55 PM] Shrimp Noodle: It was the most pleasant time I'd had with another human being in a long time.
  254. [7/19/2015 8:00:27 PM] Shrimp Noodle: But the risks also made it dangerous for me.
  255. [7/19/2015 8:04:10 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And afterwards, I obsessed over the fact that you had not only disregarded my wishes completely, but then you get upset at me for lying about my name, when I only did that based on a hunch that you proved was justified.
  256. [7/19/2015 8:05:07 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I'm sorry about this. Should we stop now?
  257. [7/19/2015 8:05:16 PM] Scootie-sama: No no, it's fine
  258. [7/19/2015 8:05:20 PM] Scootie-sama: That was my fault
  259. [7/19/2015 8:05:41 PM] Scootie-sama: I just wanted to visit, cause you hadn't been on in a while and hoped I'd cheer you up
  260. [7/19/2015 8:06:23 PM] Scootie-sama: I was upset about the name because then I'd had wasted an entire Saturday driving 2 hours to and back as well as rental price, even if it was super cheap
  261. [7/19/2015 8:06:44 PM] Scootie-sama: Which is, a petty reason to be upset
  262. [7/19/2015 8:08:39 PM] Shrimp Noodle: That Saturday you showed up could've been a whole different day if my dad wasn't in a good mood.
  263. [7/19/2015 8:09:39 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Later, after you returned from deployment, then came the issues with Will and Durgon.
  264. [7/19/2015 8:10:19 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You supported Will against me several times, even though Will had horribly petty reasons for being mad at me.
  265. [7/19/2015 8:10:59 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You also harassed Kill the Sergal because of that sequence I did with him and me in it.
  266. [7/19/2015 8:11:36 PM] Scootie-sama: Actually I didn't do that
  267. [7/19/2015 8:11:39 PM] Scootie-sama: Will did that
  268. [7/19/2015 8:11:49 PM] Scootie-sama: Harassing Kill
  269. [7/19/2015 8:11:54 PM] Shrimp Noodle: No, I saw your comments on his profile page.
  270. [7/19/2015 8:12:07 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And he told me about it later.
  271. [7/19/2015 8:12:45 PM] Scootie-sama: I only told him I wanted to speak to him
  272. [7/19/2015 8:12:56 PM] Scootie-sama: I don't remember going at him in any aggressive manner
  273. [7/19/2015 8:13:09 PM] Scootie-sama: Just that I wanted to chat with him during the time
  274. [7/19/2015 8:13:11 PM] Shrimp Noodle: He told me that you two argued.
  275. [7/19/2015 8:13:20 PM] Scootie-sama: I didn't argue
  276. [7/19/2015 8:13:29 PM] Scootie-sama: Will was the one who was angry most of the way
  277. [7/19/2015 8:13:40 PM] Scootie-sama: I hardly spoke in most of that conversation
  278. [7/19/2015 8:17:11 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Well,, he never mentioned Will, just you. But anyways, Kill was always just a friend that enjoyed paw squishing as much as I did, and the comic was something I did because I wanted to see it. I gave him a big role in the comic because he helped me come up with the initial idea. You went after him because Will was being incredibly petty.
  279. [7/19/2015 8:18:01 PM] Shrimp Noodle: It actually hurt me that Will got mad at that sequence, because you had teamed up with him literally the day before this happened to talk about friendship.
  280. [7/19/2015 8:18:01 PM] Scootie-sama: Well, I don't trust much unless someone shows me a chatlog
  281. [7/19/2015 8:18:17 PM] Scootie-sama: And that, I'm deeply sorry for
  282. [7/19/2015 8:18:38 PM] Scootie-sama: Because Will kinda abused his feelings and made mines completely null
  283. [7/19/2015 8:18:44 PM] Scootie-sama: So I know just how you felt
  284. [7/19/2015 8:20:08 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You guys confronted me on Skype because you were upset that I wasn't talking with you enough, and I actually opened up to both of you and started talking about my past and emotions. Then the very next day, Will is furious because the Galactic Paw sequence looks better than the birthday gift I did for him of my own volition.
  285. [7/19/2015 8:20:39 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And worse, when I did the birthday gift for Will...I was already mad at him because of a previous argument we had.
  286. [7/19/2015 8:21:05 PM | Edited 8:22:02 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I didn't have to make him a gift, but I did it anyways, and it just sparks more drama.
  287. [7/19/2015 8:22:26 PM | Edited 8:22:36 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And proved that Will only cared about the art more then the actual friendship.
  288. [7/19/2015 8:24:25 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You supported him twice for that, and then you supported him a third time a few days later in another argument. There has never been an argument where you weren't trying to take me down a peg.
  289. [7/19/2015 8:24:52 PM | Edited 8:25:45 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Either you teamed up with Durgon, or with Will.
  290. [7/19/2015 8:26:06 PM] Scootie-sama: I'm very sorry for those, since my emotions where what allowed them to manipulate me into those things when I saw they were upset
  291. [7/19/2015 8:26:48 PM] Scootie-sama: And I shouldn't have do that at the time and instead told both of them to not make it a problem since neither issues were big concerns at the time
  292. [7/19/2015 8:27:16 PM] Shrimp Noodle: What's done is done, unfortunately.
  293. [7/19/2015 8:29:10 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Then you and Durgon worked me over trying to make me unfriend Will later on. Durgon basically harassed me into agreeing to his terms, even sending me a bunch of notes over the weekend until I removed Will.
  294. [7/19/2015 8:33:32 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And then it turns out that you and Will were never really had a serious issue...but I still had to suffer. Then, of course, you remember that talk we had before, about why I stopped playing TF2 with you guys, right?
  295. [7/19/2015 8:35:07 PM] Scootie-sama: I do
  296. [7/19/2015 8:35:53 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Good, so I don't have to restate that.
  297. [7/19/2015 8:36:41 PM] Scootie-sama: Is there anymore? And god I didn't know Durgon was hailing you with notes about Will like that
  298. [7/19/2015 8:36:57 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Yep, there's a bit more.
  299. [7/19/2015 8:41:34 PM | Edited 8:43:56 PM] Shrimp Noodle: The thing is, I did seriously consider the possibility of us trying a relationship. But the thing was, you always made it harder to accept that possibility. The issues with Durgon and Will were still fresh, and you basically wanted to ignore everything that you had done before like it never happened. Plus, you and Durgon both kept pressuring me with questions about the possibility of a relationship.
  300. [7/19/2015 8:42:55 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Slowly, all the pressure and pent-up bitterness made me start to hate being affectionate and loving, and before long, I had lost almost all interest in it and RPing.
  301. [7/19/2015 8:43:29 PM] Scootie-sama: Durgon was right...
  302. [7/19/2015 8:44:35 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You made him right, by not giving me a chance to be comfortable with myself.
  303. [7/19/2015 8:45:18 PM] Shrimp Noodle: You were just so eager...you couldn't wait any longer.
  304. [7/19/2015 8:45:39 PM] Scootie-sama: It had been 7 months though that I had gave the question
  305. [7/19/2015 8:45:54 PM] Scootie-sama: And I began to think you never thought about it
  306. [7/19/2015 8:46:09 PM] Scootie-sama: You would respond that it was too soon to answer
  307. [7/19/2015 8:46:18 PM] Scootie-sama: Even after I did give time
  308. [7/19/2015 8:47:14 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I did think about it, to be honest. But remember, the Will and Durgon incidents both happened during those 7 months. Every time you directly fought against me, you made me wonder if you even really cared about me.
  309. [7/19/2015 8:47:54 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I mean, you fought alongside Will over a bunch of drawings. What exactly could I think?
  310. [7/19/2015 8:49:21 PM] Scootie-sama: Then why couldn't you tell me this after a while of me asking you?
  311. [7/19/2015 8:51:46 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I didn't want to hurt you. You seemed so intent on this relationship, and me, being ever the people-pleaser, did as much as I could to stave off your disappointment.
  312. [7/19/2015 8:52:33 PM] Scootie-sama: But it wouldn't have disappointed me if you had told me
  313. [7/19/2015 8:52:49 PM] Scootie-sama: ... Everytime Will would lash at me for the things I did wrong
  314. [7/19/2015 8:52:56 PM] Scootie-sama: I tried to sit and listen to them
  315. [7/19/2015 8:53:10 PM] Scootie-sama: Find ways to adjust myself
  316. [7/19/2015 8:53:38 PM] Scootie-sama: Because I was getting tired of hurting him until he put my own feelings down
  317. [7/19/2015 8:53:59 PM] Scootie-sama: It wasn't in a need to please me
  318. [7/19/2015 8:54:17 PM] Scootie-sama: I was wanting to know, to try so I could support you was all I wanted
  319. [7/19/2015 8:54:23 PM] Scootie-sama: Not to be pleased..
  320. [7/19/2015 8:56:06 PM] Shrimp Noodle: But disappointing people is what I was afraid of back then, and it wasn't something that I could easily escape, even when I was upset with you.
  321. [7/19/2015 9:00:49 PM | Edited 9:01:26 PM] Shrimp Noodle: And the other thing was that you always listened to Durgon over me. Durgon had been bitter for a long time because I actively avoided him like poison (following the unfriend Will fiasco and the TF2 stress-out). He never knew why I suddenly stopped talking with him, so he had been telling you to distrust everything I say and do, and you listened to him.
  322. [7/19/2015 9:02:47 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Honestly, I feel like there's a few more things that I don't remember at the moment, but that's all I have to say right now. It's getting late, and I need to head to bed soon.
  323. [7/19/2015 9:03:16 PM] Scootie-sama: I'm so sorry...
  324. [7/19/2015 9:03:28 PM] Scootie-sama: Now people think Bastien looks like a fallout
  325. [7/19/2015 9:03:50 PM] Scootie-sama: You never disappointed me
  326. [7/19/2015 9:03:58 PM] Scootie-sama: In the end, I disappointed you...
  327. [7/19/2015 9:07:19 PM] Scootie-sama: If I had known...
  328. [7/19/2015 9:12:49 PM] Shrimp Noodle: What's done is done, Scoots.
  329. [7/19/2015 9:12:51 PM] Shrimp Noodle: It's like I said before, all this arguing just makes me so tired. I just want to drop all the bitterness and grudges and go back to being happy again.
  330. [7/19/2015 9:13:35 PM] Scootie-sama: ... I'm sorry
  331. [7/19/2015 9:17:39 PM] Shrimp Noodle: It's fine, don't worry about it.
  332. [7/19/2015 9:17:56 PM] Scootie-sama: No
  333. [7/19/2015 9:18:00 PM] Scootie-sama: I can't
  334. [7/19/2015 9:18:19 PM] Scootie-sama: I ruined something I think will never now
  335. [7/19/2015 9:18:34 PM] Scootie-sama: I'm so sorry....
  336. [7/19/2015 9:23:27 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I accept your apology, Scoots. I didn't want you to worry about this, which was why I was hesitant to tell you. But you know the truth now, so just try to learn from that, and don't make the same mistakes with BastienL.
  337. [7/19/2015 9:24:36 PM] Scootie-sama: ;_;
  338. [7/19/2015 9:28:51 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Hey, it's getting late, so I'm going to call it a night now. Are you going to be okay?
  339. [7/19/2015 9:29:44 PM] Scootie-sama: No. No I'm not, not for a good while...
  340. [7/19/2015 9:36:36 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Well, I'll understand if you want to take a break from our friendship and just start from scratch later on. And if you still want to be friends, that's perfectly fine with me as well.
  341. [7/19/2015 9:38:05 PM] Scootie-sama: No, it's not that...
  342. [7/19/2015 9:38:54 PM] Shrimp Noodle: I'm going to call it a night now, so I'll talk with you later then.
  343. [7/19/2015 9:41:52 PM] Shrimp Noodle: Good night, Scoots.
  344. [7/19/2015 9:42:05 PM] Scootie-sama: Good night..
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