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- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- gimme a sec, yeah?
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- Take as long as you need, dude.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- sorry, had to kill a boss
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- it's cool. I had to get a pizza out of the oven anyway, so it works out.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- aight. so what do you wanna know?
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- how'd it start between you two? it seems like we have some similarities with how this stuff all happened.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- she got invited to our server, found me interesting and the next thing we knew she fell in love and we started being together
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- huh. so it was all pretty sudden then, eh?
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- very yeah
- things were pretty well for a bit
- then, she started having problems with balancing her irl friends and me
- and she would come home and just kinda sit for an hour or more by herself
- she wouldnt want to do anything with me and we slowly stopped doing things together
- rarely talked, etc
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- this sounds really familiar to me. she's always really stubborn about trying anything new, especially if you suggest it, right?
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yep yep
- thats just how she is
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- she really hasn't changed one bit.
- well, if it helps you any, I can really sympathize with what you're going through right now
- she broke up with me back in january, right after I got back from a funeral.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- it got pretty bad to where I had to call a hotline the other night and I felt like walking away to get from it all and just move on
- but she kept pushing me away and pulling me back in saying shes sorry its all her fault etc
- which it wasnt
- it was both of our faults
- and so I just had enough and said goodbye last night/this morning and told her I need time away from her to move on
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- mhm. don't blame yourself too much, and don't be hard on yourself. you wanted to make it work, right? she never would've put the effort into any relationship to try and make it work.
- also, one bit of advice, if she starts crying and asking to be your friend again, tell her off.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- hey now
- I dont hate her or anything
- nor do I want to make things worse
- if she wants to be friends, I'll listen to her and tell her what I think, but I wont tell her off
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- Sorry If I came off like a prick with that statement, I just got burned by her when she did that to me back in april.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yeah, I understand. But I think that's the difference between our situations
- she broke up with you and I broke up with her
- and I have no negative feelings towards other
- *her
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- ah.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- dont get me wrong
- i u nderstand how you feel and dont blame you for being upset about all of this
- or rather, all of what happened
- she would always talk about how, in some ways, we're similar too
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- when looks was telling me about what had happened I had bet you were going through something pretty similar. Still though, sorry for what you're going through right now.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- eh, its alright. long distance relationships never work out too well
- especially when youre hella pessimistic
- about everything
- but I feel more
- uh
- indifferent I guess?
- I'm used to being hurt like this so
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- still though, it's tough to lose someone.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yeah tell me about it
- I broke down that night
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- when did the breakup happen?
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- uhhhhh
- halloween
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- ah. not very long ago. sorry that happened.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I get that you're sympathising
- but you dont need to apologise
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- yeah. just hard to think of something to say when it comes to this.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- its alright
- I'm doing a lot better than I was
- plus the one thing I said more than "I love you" was "I'm sorry"
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- damn.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yep yep
- but its whatever dude
- people come and go like seasons
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- that's true. sad it's that way, though.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yeah
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- damn, though. I'm just not really sure what to say.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- do me a solid
- dont say anything yeah?
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- sure.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- its just easier that way
- I didnt mean to be rude
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- nah, I get it.
- just need someone to listen a little, yeah?
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yeah man
- had I known she didnt change since you...
- maybe things wouldve ended differently had I known the signs to look out for
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- i know the feeling. sad as it may be to say this, but she was the first person I had ever really “dated”. i had no idea what was a red flag or just a flag, the rose tinted glasses worked the same as blinders.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- might as well have yeah
- I knew there were some things that threw me off but I disregarded it because I thought it would just get better
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- yep. the stubbornness she showed was definitely one of them.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I tried to help her to better herself and she said it was too much work
- and I'm like wtf how
- you either want to be a better person or you dont
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- wow. she really hasn’t changed a single god damn iota then.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I thought it was just bewcause she was still young but
- it just got annoying after a while
- and I started having doubts about the relationship and wanting to break up long before this
- like maybe 2 months ago
- keep in mind we were "dating" for 4 months
- I at least wanted to get to her birthday
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- did you ever try to have an intervention about all of it only to have her flip out, say she was a bad girlfriend, and then later blame you for it being bad?
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- no
- she never blamed me
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- huh.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- mostly because I was always the one to blame myself
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- it wasn't much different with me. up until the bitter end I was still trying to fix whatever I thought was wrong with me, left me in a weird state of denial after we broke up.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- hm
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- especially because we broke up and got back together once. made things a bit strange. "she never really changes, i've seen that first hand. maybe this hasn't changed either?" which is why I made sure to state that if she tries to come back, just don't.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I get it
- initally after we broke up I thought we could get back together and make it work but after a day or so I realised it would just end up the same if we did
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- mhm.
- took me a bit longer to realize that. said some stupid shit which only made things worse.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yep
- I felt like everytime I typed it made things worse
- so i just stopped
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- it got to a point back in febuary where i'd dread ever getting a message from her.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yeah but you can't think like that
- cant despise someone or think ill of someone because of what happened
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- you're right with that.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- cause if you think like that, it'll lead to hatred
- and when you hate someone, you say and think things that you'd regret
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- yep. for a while I fell into that mindset, something which I really regret. never said anything to her directly, thank god.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- you never know how someone will react to what you say, yknow?
- speaking of which, how old are you btw?
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- 17. I'll be 18 in march.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- hmm
- were you her first boyfriend?
- I can't remember
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- I'm not sure. Don't think so. She was the first girlfriend I've ever had, though.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I see
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- you?
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I'll be 20 next year
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- damn. quite a bit older.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- which is funny to think about because we always talked about the age difference
- she said it was fine but deep down it bothered me because if anything happened, and I mean anything, I co uld go to jail lol
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- yeah. that'd worry me too. in arkansas we have romeo and juliet laws, so I wasn't really ever worried about that.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- the legal age here, in georgia, is 16, and at the time she was 15
- so I was very cautious
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- understandable.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- it's crazy to think that people just don't ch ange
- situations do
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- I just wonder how many times she's "started anew" with groups of people.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I dunno
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- she left the group I was a part of a while ago, think she's done it a few times before that too.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- funny enough she's left the server I'm in tonight too
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- hah.
- it'll be a miracle if she ever changes, honestly.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I just hope she'll be okay
- I dont wish her any ill-intent
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- knowing her, she'll be fine.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- and now I'm more concerned for the next guy
- I told her to make sure the next guy is better than me and you trreat him well
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- I remember back in may one of my friends told me she had a crush on you, and honest to god, I thought to myself: "shit, I should probably warn the guy"
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- haha
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- really though, I wasn't ever supposed to know, so I never acted on it
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yeah
- wait
- i think someone told me about that
- was it dinges ?
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- yeah, it was dinges.
- admittedly, I flipped out on him, it hurt to hear that kinda stuff.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- that she'd moved on?
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- I guess. It was stupid and selfish of me, but yeah.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- its alright man
- thats just how emotions are
- thats just how humans are
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- It wasn't really long after she came back in april saying "let's be best friends again, yaaay"
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- interesting
- I like to give people the benefit of the doubt so I'll just say that it's cause she's young and doesn't know what she wants or how to feel
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- that's what I thought too.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- innocent until proven guilty, brother
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- mhm.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- also, just a word of advice, dont bash older people when they give you words of wisdom
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- I certainly don't try to do that.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- trust me, those words they tell you go a long way
- shit I feel like I'm in my 30's from all the things I've been told
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- ha.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- you alright?
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- yeah, i'm fine. i've got a whole host of new issues to deal with. my current girlfriend has a crazy clingy ex.
- which she's dealing with currently.
- as in exactly right now.
- hopefully I don't seem like a jerk right now
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- nah man it's alright
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- funny enough, the crazy ex is also the same guy who gave me your discord contact, so.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- spotted?
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- nah, looks. i'm dating spotted.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yeah tahts what I meant
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- oh.
- then yeah.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- how's that coming
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- going pretty well so far. just seems like whenever me and her have a good day looks comes around to ruin it.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- have you talked to him directly?
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- not really. wouldn't do him much good. he won't listen to anyone but spotted at this point.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- geez
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- it's not fun.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I can imagine
- just block him
- both of you
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- I've tried to get her to do that, and everyone else has told her to just block him too. she just can't bring herself to do that because "I can't just do that to him" and it doesn't help that he's threatened suicide a few times.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- I have low tolerance for shit like this
- I'm very crude and say what's on my mind
- and I usually act on impulse unless I know better
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- oohhh believe me. It's not that I haven't said anything to him either. I full on snapped at him one day after I had to comfort spotted because he made her cry.
- I have a temper, and I'm somewhat impulsive, I had no compunctions about yelling at him.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- hmm
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- anyway. I feel like I derailed the conversation with looks, didn't really mean to do that.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- nah dude it's fine
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- it's funny though, spotted also never had any good experiences with clover.
- back in the day, clover actually used to bully her a little.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- Yeah she told me about that
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- I really never understood why clover hated spotted so much back then.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- neither do/did I
- I dont really want to talk about clover anymore so if there's anything else you wanna know/say, tell me
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- Nah, it's cool. I've not got anything to say that I haven't already.
- It's been good to finally talk to you.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yeah man, you too
- she kinda gave you shit when we were together
- and now I see both sides
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- thought so.
- I made plenty of mistakes back then, still wish I could apologize some days.
- Bit late for that now, though.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- mhmm
- but oh well
- cant live life regretting everything
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- mhm. all you can really do is learn from your mistakes.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yep yep
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- and i've learned from every mistake I've made with her.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- that's good
- surprised she didnt unfriend me though
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- she didn't unfriend me either.
- I had to remove her a long time after.
- I think she does it to keep her options open in case she wants to come back later
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- yeah
- we'll see
- well, more like I'll see b ut
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- just take my advice, if she does come back, don't give her what she wants.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- We'll see
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- mhm.
- well, there's not much to say at this point. so I guess i'll seeya some other time.
- Chris | Sfynx - 11/02/2017
- sounds good man, take care of spotted as well as yourself
- Clef - 11/02/2017
- thanks.
- you too, though.
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