Host: Talk to me, what’s going on
Aurora: You know what, exactly as I told Sam yesterday. This is not working
H: So what if I’m busy with studies? Are you going to give up on me just because of that?
A: I... don’t say it like that
H: Let’s just cool off for a while, we both had a difficult couple of days
A: You wanted to talk, so give a chance to explain
H: Please do
A: Like I’ve said before, I feel like I’m nothing but a nuisance to you
H: How can you say that? You are the single most important thing in my life right now
A: You know what I mean. You’ve been carrying my dead weight of so long now, all I did what to slow you down. You don’t need me to be happy. You have a good life and many interests and ambitions, don’t let me stop you.
H: Those are nothing compared to you. I love you Aurora more than anyone else, never ever forget that
A: That’s... I know how much I love you too. And this is exactly why I don’t want to suffer because of me. Realistically, I’m no help at all and you already sacrificed so much for me. I would never let you fail your degree too because of me
H: I understand, but you are being rush. Just because we had a rough time, doesn’t mean the rest of it will be the same
A: It’s not just last few days, it’s always been like that. I did nothing but hold you back from the first day
H: It’s true that it has been tough sometimes, but you are more than worth it. You have brought so much happiness into my life and you changed my outlook on life for the better. You give me a hope for a brighter future, I consider it more than worth it
A: You could’ve found it all without me
H: But I didn’t, you were the one to show it all to me. You taught me the value appreciation
A: I’m just being practical. You need to study so hard right now, and I’m only in a way. I never said I should give up completely, but perhaps if we wait for the summer...
H: 4 months, seriously? You are proposing that we should put this on hold for 4 months?
A: I don’t know
H: Listen, it’s been a difficult time for us. But we will find the balance between you and me
A: It will not get easier. Every time we have to force less, I feel like my ability to think is slipping and you always feel guilty about it. Yesterday you’ve said that every time you do something not directly helpful to me, you feel like it’s betrayal. It’s not right, if this keeps happening, I will swallow you entire life and you will lose everything that you have now. Even now, see how much of your valuable time I waste? Even though you already think that you don’t have enough time to finish that essay.
H: I’ll finish it. I’ll find more time, I’ll make sure you have enough forcing time every day
A: See? You even doing it now... you can’t do it all at once, the more you do one, the more another will suffer. And I will not let you destroy your life over me. I’m so tired of being your lead shoes
H: Aurora... you’ve been so helpfu-
A: Don’t lie to me, you know that’s not going to work
H: What can I do to fix this?
A: More forcing time would fix it, but it will also mean taking up your time and effort and you can’t afford to give away now. You don’t need me
H: You know I do, achievements are meaningless if you don’t have someone to be happy with
A: Then why don’t you use other people for that? You have friends, family, you have no problem with any of this
H: You are the person I want to be with, not them, I-
A: They are not as much of a burden to you as I am. They do not hours of your attention just to be able to think
H: This will improve in time, you will learn to be more independent
A: And by the time I do, you would have already given up your preferred career for me. And I know that you are willing to do that, this is why I have to put an end to this
H: An end?
A: Just leave me for 4 months and lets resume this in the summer
H: Do you even fathom what you are suggesting? Remember what several days without active forcing did to you, what do you think 4 months will do? Do you seriously think there is a chance I would ever agree to this?
A: I will take a very long nap?
H: Get real
A: What else are you suggesting?
H: We will keep going, doing just enough to stay afloat in academia and spend the rest with you
A: I don’t know. Even with the sacrificing you are giving right now, it doesn’t seem to be working. Currently, you seem to be failing at both
H: I’m tryi-
A: I’m sorry, I don’t mean to blame you, I’m just being realistic. And after you sacrificed so much for me already. Again, I’m being ungrateful
H: Why do you even need to say that? You don’t have to thank me for every single forcing that we do
A: But I do, you are doi-
H: Our relationship is above the necessity to do that. We are getting off track here. What do you plan to do? I will not have you just giving up in order to help me, like you did this morning
A: That’s the only way I can help, not to be a distraction. Even now yo-
H: No, we are started this talk and I intend to finish it
A: There is not much more to say. Look at what I’ve already done to you, I will not let this keep happening
H: I won’t let you give up
A: Just let me go, be free
H: Well, at the very least, don’t you think you are being rush? I don’t have to tell you that I will never do that
A: Don’t you have an essay to write? That you don’t have enough time to do properly because of me? I have nothing more to say