anthropophobia lyrics

I can’t find any words why?

they run away from me

Choking a barely heard “why can’t I breathe?”

Piercing with gazes,

“please don’t look” I cry,

How many times

Do I need to hear rejections and goodbyes?



I’ll hide away, a hide and seek

Still recycling

A heart kept under lock and key,

another wall too tall for me

I’ll never reach your goals, too high

Back to starting line

Please leave me be

Listen to me just this time



I’m scared, I know,

but I worry what they’ll  think of me

as tears will flow

See me trembling, a tragedy,

I see!

Maybe I’m not like the others surrounding me,

I finally see!

Run away, I’ll flee from all the kindness,

burn it in the flames

I’ll cast it all away in pain,

But why?

Did it have to all end up still destroyed by time? I wanna cry


“Slip and fall, all I do is make mistakes”

“People laugh but I deserve the laughing and the hate”


And again in fear, I’m waiting for the sun to rise

If it didn’t though,

I guess I really wouldn’t mind


Always uncertain and looking out for enemies

Believing deeply that someone didn’t like me

A demon whispering and laughing deep inside my head

“How does it feel to know

they’d rather you dead?” (lol)


Fear and loathing, it’ll loop into a lone breath

Hurting terribly, annoying kind of nonsense?

Smug snobbery, emotionally thoughtless-

Always gonna be the same and sigh, it’s complex


Is it this at all? Maybe even that? Doesn’t matter in the end

We’ll lie once again

But tell me, who can we blame? We’re really all the same


Forget me please,

you may as well, if I continue breaking things

I’ll break until I’m pieces that can fade

Why couldn’t I just get that

Very normal right to live my life?

The hands that reached,

I let go of them far too many times I think

I count them, every single one, Aah

Why do all of these words

hemorrhage out of me every time?

Tell me why?



“Since the beginning, I had just one option to take”

“But I never found the answer or way to be saved”

All the obligations, crushing me, a cruel fate

Yeah I wish I’d never been born in the first place


The pain inside, the agony and misery I can’t deny

Is keeping me from ever moving on

So I again in my deep anxiety,

scream and scream


A fake, a lie, I’m always watching painfully, a fatal cry

I’m begging that my feet will move, Aah

But no, you see I don’t really

wanna end my life today

Don’t wanna die today



“This life is all about

finding the right things”


“Every sign is saying listen

To your heart that sings”


Break of dawn again,

I whisper something unafraid


Then I realized

I wanna see another day