Fuck proving anything to anyone fuck wasting more of my time

they were hoping that I would be trying to prove I’m a good person to this girl that’s been hypnotized and tricked into thinking I’m evil, but I showed them the different types of darkness that I am instead of the common dark drug dealer so now they want me to be scary when there’s no fear associated with the type of darkness that I have because it’s information-based that’s why I said do you really think I’m going to spend my life showing somebody I’m a good person by myself when I can just work towards proving revenge in the best way yeah let me go to school do all of these things by myself, knowing that if the stupid b*tch had been honest about the things in the beginning, I would’ve been here in a relationship already instead of dredging along through some fuc*ing b*tch hoops designed for people who have already been in relationships, but need to be reconditioned. The stupidest thing is, I didn’t have any relationship history. You were just supposed to date me and act as if it was my first relationship because it would have been now I get to have the trauma that you give me from trying to make sure you turn me into a good boyfriend. I hope it fu*ks me up and makes me a bad boyfriend, because fundamentally speaking the confusion of trying to figure out what to do without a reference point means it’s more detrimental than helpful because usually they’ve had boyfriend experience so they’ve already known what they’ve done in the past. I have something different to try this time but I don’t have any reference points so it’s just me sitting here trying to figure out what’s the best thing to do while people judge me for not being responsive so allow me to get rid of myself when I have the time until then people can eat a fat cock and choke on it.