[12:04:23 AM] Stripes: Did I do something wrong?
[12:04:39 AM] User:Friendly: I dunno, did you?
[12:04:46 AM] Stripes: I feel like I did
[12:04:58 AM] Stripes: It doesn't matter though since Butter has the spacebeans now
[12:05:03 AM] Stripes: My conscience is clean :3
[12:05:06 AM] User:Friendly: Seems like you're doing like usual and City keeps going on about how he doesn't care, so I assume something stupid happened, so no idea.
[12:05:22 AM] User:Friendly: Maybe it's paranoia
[12:05:24 AM] Stripes: For someone who doesn't care about anything
[12:05:28 AM] User:Friendly: Probably just imagining things
[12:05:29 AM] Stripes: He likes to bring that up a lot
[12:05:33 AM] User:Friendly: YES HE DOES
[12:05:47 AM] Stripes: I hope I wasn't, because now I'm down 1100$L
[12:05:52 AM] Stripes: So I hope I was actually being a dick
[12:05:55 AM] Stripes: that would suck otherwise LOL
[12:06:05 AM] Stripes: Since uh
[12:06:11 AM] User:Friendly: You were trying to be a dick?
[12:06:13 AM] Stripes: No
[12:06:15 AM] User:Friendly: I dun get it
[12:06:17 AM] Stripes: I was trying to be nice
[12:06:33 AM] Stripes: But idk Berko and I joined the call and people were kinda mean and then the whole thing with the contest
[12:06:42 AM] Stripes: feel like everyone had a plan
[12:06:47 AM] Stripes: And I just kinda barged in with my own thing
[12:06:51 AM] User:Friendly: So based on what I'm hearing, you were nice, it's just these niggers being weird
[12:06:58 AM] Stripes: fuck
[12:07:00 AM] Stripes: welp
[12:07:11 AM] Stripes: It'll be a while before I see that much $L again lol
[12:07:27 AM] User:Friendly: Nah, I'll just remember if I manage to snag it
[12:07:32 AM] Stripes: Please dont
[12:07:45 AM] User:Friendly: Why not?
[12:07:49 AM] Stripes: since I'm probably going to be kinda distancing myself from everyone in that group besides you probably
[12:07:54 AM] Stripes: in the next lil bit
[12:07:55 AM] User:Friendly: Not like I'm going to do much with it otherwise
[12:08:24 AM] User:Friendly: And this changes what I said or intend how?
[12:08:43 AM] Stripes: Well
[12:08:45 AM] Stripes: ugh nvm
[12:08:50 AM] Stripes: MAN I was so stoked about the contest
[12:08:56 AM] Stripes: And now I'm in such an awful mood
[12:09:10 AM] User:Friendly: Sorry about that, I'll be dealing with it
[12:09:20 AM] Stripes: https://i.gyazo.com/503e2483a2c4a78678ec5ffdd92e6557.png
Why I can't be getting Spacebeans any time soon
[12:09:48 AM] Stripes: Nah you dealing with it will only make it worse
[12:09:53 AM] User:Friendly: All the more reason, 1k is just 4 USD
[12:10:01 AM] Stripes: 4USD is a lot for me
[12:10:11 AM] Stripes: That's double my net worth
[12:10:15 AM] User:Friendly: No worries
[12:10:37 AM] Stripes: But seriously
[12:10:40 AM] Stripes: Please don't deal with it
[12:10:46 AM] Stripes: If they think I made a mistake they'll give it back
[12:10:59 AM] Stripes: If they don't, then they should keep it
[12:11:02 AM] Stripes: makes sense.
[12:11:17 AM] Stripes: I'm done with furries for the night anyways LOL
[12:11:24 AM] User:Friendly: Or I'm going to call them niggers and advise you not to give them nice things until they start acting in a way that deserves it
[12:11:39 AM] Stripes: They're nice to me all the time
[12:11:41 AM] Stripes: I'm the douchebag
[12:11:58 AM] User:Friendly: I would argue but they keep fucking with my medication and I'm in no state to do so
[12:12:38 AM] Stripes: There's not much to argue
[12:12:43 AM] User:Friendly: Regardless, no, they're not nice, and I'm not expecting them to kiss your ass or be overly understanding, but they aren't being kind outside civility
[12:12:43 AM] Stripes: I made a big scene about getting votes
[12:12:51 AM] Stripes: like I made and handed out signs
[12:12:51 AM] User:Friendly: Yeah, and did it better
[12:12:54 AM] Stripes: and like made an avatar
[12:12:57 AM] Stripes: who cares
[12:12:58 AM] User:Friendly: DID
[12:12:59 AM] User:Friendly: IT
[12:13:00 AM] User:Friendly: BETTER
[12:13:05 AM] Stripes: yeah it doesn't matter
[12:13:11 AM] User:Friendly: I care because it sounds like you won fair
[12:13:13 AM] Stripes: Butter is my friend and I should of respected their plans
[12:13:17 AM] Stripes: I didn't try and win fair, Santa
[12:13:23 AM] Stripes: I want friends not money
[12:13:23 AM] User:Friendly: And let these niggers guilt money out of you
[12:13:31 AM] User:Friendly: I know
[12:13:33 AM] User:Friendly: Same here
[12:13:34 AM] Stripes: But I cant kick the feeling that I got like
[12:13:35 AM] Stripes: played
[12:13:42 AM] Stripes: or that I was a fucking idiot
[12:13:45 AM] User:Friendly: I dunno, I wasn't here for it
[12:13:50 AM] Stripes: because I'm always either a fucking idiot or a douchebag
[12:14:01 AM] Stripes: when I try and do something nice I'm being "paranoid"
[12:14:07 AM] Stripes: and when I try and make plans I come off like a douche
[12:14:11 AM] Stripes: Not with anyone else
[12:14:16 AM] Stripes: Sin really likes me
[12:14:18 AM] Stripes: Berko really likes me
[12:14:20 AM] Stripes: but for some reason
[12:14:26 AM] Stripes: whenever I'm in there I just feel attacked
[12:14:37 AM] User:Friendly: Because that's how they are
[12:14:39 AM] Stripes: I DONT KNOW WHAT I DID.
[12:14:45 AM] User:Friendly: You probably didn't do anything
[12:14:59 AM] User:Friendly: They probably overheard me and you not getting along and decided you were a target
[12:15:04 AM] Stripes: Okay well
[12:15:06 AM] Stripes: I guess you win
[12:15:16 AM] Stripes: Ironically somewhat
[12:15:18 AM] User:Friendly: No, no I don't
[12:15:21 AM] Stripes: You're the only person who's still nice to me
[12:15:22 AM] User:Friendly: I never win
[12:15:33 AM] User:Friendly: I just try and fix everything I fuck up
[12:15:38 AM] Stripes: I guess
[12:15:41 AM] Stripes: In any case
[12:15:56 AM] Stripes: I'm obviously not welcome with those guys so I'll just leave them be
[12:16:08 AM] Stripes: Can you make up some excuse for me leaving the group so it doesn't cause more drama
[12:16:48 AM] User:Friendly: I got a better idea
[12:17:04 AM] User:Friendly: I make them feel like the niggers they are and you enjoy the show
[12:17:10 AM] Stripes: I don't want that
[12:17:14 AM] Stripes: I don't want anyone to be unhappy
[12:17:20 AM] User:Friendly: Pfft
[12:17:22 AM] Stripes: If I'm unhappy whatever I can deal with that I've done it a lot
[12:17:24 AM] User:Friendly: They're not depressed
[12:17:29 AM] Stripes: I get nothing from them being sad
[12:17:32 AM] Stripes: or angry
[12:17:34 AM] Stripes: or pitiful
[12:17:38 AM] Stripes: I just want them to be happy
[12:17:46 AM] Stripes: and that's all I tried to do
[12:17:51 AM] Stripes: and now I feel like an idiot
[12:18:00 AM] User:Friendly: Same, but that happiness will not come from being ignorant or lenient with them
[12:18:03 AM] User:Friendly: No
[12:18:06 AM] User:Friendly: Well
[12:18:11 AM] User:Friendly: No more an idiot than I am
[12:18:14 AM] Stripes: I don't care about being lenient or ignorant
[12:18:19 AM] User:Friendly: It's just you actually managed to do it right
[12:18:22 AM] Stripes: I don't care about being smarter than anybody
[12:18:26 AM] Stripes: I don't want to be right
[12:18:33 AM] Stripes: None of that is important to me
[12:18:49 AM] User:Friendly: It's quality of life rather than some stupid little ego-based thrill
[12:18:53 AM] Stripes: I guess
[12:19:04 AM] Stripes: In any case I'm freaking out Berko by just typing and being quiet
[12:19:08 AM] User:Friendly: Living above yourself so you can make the World a better place.
[12:19:13 AM] User:Friendly: Ah
[12:19:16 AM] Stripes: imma go cry for a bit thanks for the advice but imma leave the group anyways
[12:19:17 AM] User:Friendly: No need t worry him
[12:19:43 AM] User:Friendly: I really wish you wouldn't cry over something so minor as them being rude, but at least you got Berko and Sin.
[12:19:55 AM] Stripes: I'm fragile, Santa.
[12:19:57 AM] Stripes: I'm sorry.
[12:20:09 AM] Stripes: I know it's a flaw but I'm friends with people that respect that
[12:20:15 AM] User:Friendly: No reason to be sorry about that
[12:20:27 AM] Stripes: "Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit."
[12:20:59 AM] User:Friendly: Unless of course one lacks the capacity to be vexed, no?
[12:21:09 AM] Stripes: That's why you can be good friends with all those people
[12:21:12 AM] Stripes: You're like a robit
[12:21:14 AM] Stripes: I'm not
[12:21:25 AM] Stripes: I can't be friends with people like that as much as I want to be
[12:21:28 AM] Stripes: it hurts my soul
[12:21:33 AM] Stripes: to have angry yelling
[12:21:35 AM] Stripes: and angry people
[12:21:37 AM] Stripes: around me all the time
[12:21:39 AM] Stripes: It confuses me
[12:21:45 AM] Stripes: because I think they're mad at me
[12:21:56 AM] Stripes: And them I'm sad because I'm ridiculed for doing something nice.
[12:23:01 AM | Edited 12:23:08 AM] User:Friendly: I liked to think it was just values or the social dance, but maybe I just don't like to believe that someone would truly care so much about the words of those that have no weight or value in their existence that isn't given.
[12:23:17 AM] Stripes: This whole thing is bumming me out.
[12:23:33 AM] Stripes: Moping about it isn't going to do anything, thanks for the advice again.
[12:23:49 AM] Stripes: Please don't try and defend me to them, I'm indefensible to that kinda person.
[12:23:57 AM] User:Friendly: True, but that's no reason to invalidate how you feel or how they made you feel
[12:24:08 AM] Stripes: I don't care how they made me feel
[12:24:14 AM] User:Friendly: And no, you're not, especially with a sadistic machine like me. :D
[12:24:15 AM] Stripes: I'll get over it
[12:24:17 AM] User:Friendly: And I do
[12:24:22 AM] Stripes: I'm sad to lose friends
[12:24:28 AM] User:Friendly: It's not right and allowing it to just fly is how we got here
[12:24:38 AM] Stripes: I seriously need to go
[12:24:46 AM] Stripes: We can pick up the conversation later.
[12:25:01 AM] User:Friendly: Consequence is what stupid people understand because anything else they can just ignore... And yeah, probably better