Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:09 PM
that was too much

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:09 PM
yeah theyre getting hype

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:09 PM
I was doing good without the music that just set me off bad
Im sorry i had to just dip like that

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:10 PM
idk  its nbd
you dont have to come and stuff
i just want you to feel included
they enjoyed the song anyway.. it was co-produced by ya girl :\

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:12 PM
And I really appreciate that it means a lot to me
The song was great
Thag wasnt the issue
It was the volume
It's just the room was getting crowded so it was already really hard for me to be there the loud unexpected music just was overwhelming

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:14 PM
i figured exposure would help

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:16 PM
The song is amazing btw

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:18 PM
its really not tho its just goofing off

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:18 PM
Well i liked it

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:19 PM
https://soundcloud.com/cruxmuzik/undefined-you-know
SoundCloud
CRUX MUZIK
Undefined - You Know

thats worth liking
ive got like 30% of that song
its from my dads life experiences

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:20 PM
Thats awesome

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:22 PM
If you got dough yeah you know im gon take it
if you got dope yeah u know im gon take it
if you aint dope yeah u know im gon hate it
if you aint gon do it then why the fuck did yall say it

also
I got them hardcore burn thatll never fade mossberg in my trechcoat ill make u levitate
https://soundcloud.com/cruxmuzik/undefined-the-robbery
SoundCloud
CRUX MUZIK
Undefined - The Robbery

thats also 100% a story my dad told us once
was gonna be memoirs from a fuckin cell but we went with the robbery instead
i wish i could have been a boombap rapper
but i aint got the flow
https://soundcloud.com/cruxmuzik/xxxtentacion-type-beat-malory-not-for-sale
SoundCloud
CRUX MUZIK
XXXtentacion Type Beat  - MALORY {NOT FOR SALE}

thats my beat
i can use it whenever im ready
but idk i got nothin
i feel like i should pay homage to his legit work
and i cant do nothin that good
or just like.. hmu when younfeel like it ig

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:36 PM
Im in the bathroom omg

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:36 PM
dont even omg me

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:37 PM
What did i do
Im literally using the bathroom so i didnt respond
Im sorry

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:38 PM
dont come at me with "i was busy omg" when im clearly upset that youre upset and trying to fix it

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:39 PM
I just need a little bit to calm down and breathe, that zoom really got me fucked up
I dont wanna say something stupid in this mindset

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:40 PM
i just wanted to spend time with you and not feel cut off from the world like before
i hate those excuses

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:40 PM
What excuses

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:41 PM
"i dont wanna say something stupid in this mindset"
just say what you wanna say dont fuckin censor yourself

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:42 PM
I meant like the omg comment i made

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:42 PM
because one day you wont want to or yyou just will not bother and its gonan fucking suck because id never been told how you really dfeel

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:42 PM
...what did i do

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:42 PM
i literally just told you

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:43 PM
But youre misunderstanding me

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:44 PM
you know i have anxiety too right

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:44 PM
Theres not some awful thing im avoiding saying im just afraid ill upset you right now so i wanted a few minutes to calm down without making you upset
I just wanted to step away so i could calm down and you made me feel guilty for everything ive said and done

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:47 PM
okay so everythings my fault
my b for trying to help you through anxiety

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:48 PM
No i didn't say that pleasse stop puttingwords in my mouth

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:48 PM
stop imposing fault
"I feel guilty becauise you made me feel guilty about everything"
it was not my intention at all, so dont act like it was on pourpose

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:49 PM
Why is everything i say wrong :(
I dont understand

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:50 PM
did you know the last 3 massive panic attacks ive had you essentially ignored or reminded me that yours ios worse
FUCKING STOP THAT
ITS NOT THAT EVERYHTUING IS WRONG
ITS ONE SIMNGLUAR TJHING
jfc its all or nothing and i HATE that

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:51 PM
I have never ignored you, i literally sat with you for 8 hours yesterday to make sure you were okay and i asked what i could do to help

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:51 PM
I have a rare ability to tell you EXACTLY why im upset
and you wont acknowledge what i say, you just default to "everything i say/do is wrong"
you should have wanted to be there for Lo

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:52 PM
Im talking about during the day nefore the lo shit

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:52 PM
and if you were there for me, why did I have to ease your anxiety after

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:52 PM
Im talking about in the afternoon before all of that

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:52 PM
when?
because I always have to chill you

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:53 PM
When you seized/fell asleep
I sat with you ge entire time
To make sure you were ok

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:53 PM
I can literally rip a chunk of hair out during an attack and you make me feel bad and i end up focusing on you
okay but you know what

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:53 PM
What am i supposed to do when you have a panic attack
How can i help

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:54 PM
i had done that all night while you slept and if you feel that sitting with your girlfriend during the normal time you normally sit with her was work because i wasnt 100%
that sucks\

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:54 PM
I never said ot was work
I did it because i wanted to be there with you

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:54 PM
and literally all i wanted was you to plan ahead
When my anxiety disorder peaked, you know what I had to do?
figure it out myself for years
because nobody catered to me or put effort in like i do for you
now, i dont even leave my house
my problems have always always been put on the back burner for others and rarely have i had someone do the same for me
and i guess that combined with the fact that after you leave a zoom you want me to back off too
just sucks

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:58 PM
I just wanted to calm down

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:58 PM
because it feels like youre saying that i make it worse or i dont help
or i dont calm you

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 10:58 PM
No thats not at all what im saying

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 10:59 PM
also im pretty sure there was a good portion of a moment where you had us muted during the lo thing
because i had called your name several times and then messaged you

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:00 PM
Im saying i got overwhelmed by the loud music and people talking, and the only way to calm myself down when i get like that is just to take ten or fifteen minutes to breathe and relax so its not so much
I did not

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:00 PM
but you didnt hear/notice

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:00 PM
I was watching the final cutscene on my game
And ii was focused
Im sorry i didnt hear you

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:00 PM
okay but when you dropped the "omg im busy" youd been out of the zoom for over a half hour

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:01 PM
But i wasnt intendtiomally ignoring you
I didnt realize it had been that long

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:03 PM
at some point you have to face it
the only CURE for anxiety is exposure
people dont die from ancxiety and its literally impossible for it to last forever
ifm you just face it and ride it out
it exhausts itself
avoidance amplifies

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:12 PM
I can only take so much at one time though before it becomes overwhelming, doesnt that make sense

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:12 PM
are you not hearing me

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:12 PM
I dont understand

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:12 PM
IT NEEDS TO BE OVERWHELMING TO FACE IT
IF YOU RUN WHEN IT GETS OVERWHELMING IT GAINS GROUND
STAND YOUR GROUND

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:15 PM
But that just doesnt make sense to me

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:15 PM
okay but its literally a proven fact
its literally a practiced technique in the feild of mental health recovery

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:16 PM
I guess starting tomorrow i will start working on that

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:16 PM
why even put it off
i dont understand how you dont understand

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:17 PM
I think i need sleep a lot of stuff isnt really making sense

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:17 PM
anxiety symptoms cannot physically continue forever
if you stand your ground, the cycle will fufill
and suddently YOURE STILL THERE AND THE ANXIETY ISNT

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:18 PM
I promise starting as soon as i wake up i will stand my ground, okay
I think i just need a few hours sleep
This is why I cant stay up for days like this

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:19 PM
YOU SLEPT FOR 30 HOURS
What is already known about exposure therapy for anxiety disorder?
? Exposure therapy is defined as any treatment that encourages the systematic confrontation of feared stimuli, with the aim of reducing a fearful reaction. Over a quarter of the people in the US population will have an anxiety disorder sometime during their lifetime, and available research literature suggests that exposure-based therapies should be considered the first-line treatment for these disorders. Although it is well established that exposure-based therapies are effective treatments for these disorders, however, only a small percentage of patients are actually treated with this approach.

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:20 PM
Ive been awake since yesterday morning

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:20 PM
i can literally cite resources if you need

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:20 PM
I stayed up all night last night remember
No sleep and then all day today

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:20 PM
or just ignore what im saying

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:21 PM
No i m not

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:22 PM
Several studies have demonstrated the efficacy of exposure-based therapies for anxiety disorders, a finding that is summarized in several published meta-analyses.20,21 st22 examined the effects of single-session in vivo exposure (that lasts 1 to 3 hours) for patients with specific phobias. At posttreatment follow-up (after an average of 4 years), 90% of these patients still had significant reduction in fear, avoidance, and overall level of impairment and 65% no longer had a specific phobia.
ONE SESSION can be 90% effective even after 4 years without sessions
youre typing a lot and saying very little so youre either not saying what you want to say or youre overthinking

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:25 PM
Overthinking

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:25 PM
so stop
first line of thinking
go with that

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:26 PM
I need to lie down
And take a nap
Not 30 hours just a little while

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:26 PM
k i guess ill talk to you in a day

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:26 PM
Thats not fair

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:26 PM
no this isnt fair

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:27 PM
I literally just said not 30 hours just a few hours
So things will make sense

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:27 PM
you get upset anmd I bend to your needs i get upset and you make me feel like an asshole

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:27 PM
Thats not what im doing at all

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:27 PM
its actually literally
what youre doing
maybe not your intention
but the fact is that is exactly what is happening as a result

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:28 PM
Thats what i meant when i said yohre misunderstanding me

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:28 PM
NO
you know what\
fine
go to sleep
ill deal with my shit alone

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:29 PM
Im sorry. I know im not perfect but just remember that i love you.
None of this was my intention

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:29 PM
stop saying it and start showing it
sorry is only a word

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:30 PM
Why is it such a bad thing for me to sleep

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:30 PM
here we go
why is it such a bad thing to handle things in the moment

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:30 PM
Im just trying to understand why youre upset

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:31 PM
i literally have been telling you

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:32 PM
But im sayign i dont understand
Iim asking you to clarify things for me

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:32 PM
So try
dont avpid
thats exacrtly why btw\avoidance

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:34 PM
Why do you think im avoiding you
Thats not what im doing

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:34 PM
omfg

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:34 PM
Help me understand
Please

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:34 PM
YOU
AVOID
DISCOMFORT
FACING
DISCOMFORT
FAMILARIZES
i cannot lay it out more simply

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:36 PM
And i said i would start in the morning i just need a nap
I swear i will

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:36 PM
a nap... in the morning...
THATS CALLED SLEEP
again, just go ill deal with my own shit

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:37 PM
Why is that bad
Why is sleep bad

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:37 PM
call it whast it is
a nap = 1-2 hrs

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:37 PM
thats all im asking for
A nap
Not all night

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:37 PM
a nap would not taske til morning
thats called sleep
if you mean sleep say sleep

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:38 PM
I just want enough time to get my head in the right place
A couple hours at most
And you wont tell me why sleep is bad

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:39 PM
jesus christ when did i say that
I JUST WANT YOU TO SAY WHAT YOU MEAN AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:40 PM
I mean a nap a couple hours not all night

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:40 PM
so say that, not "ill talk to you in the morning"
once again, just go ill deal with my own shit

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:40 PM
I never said that
Not once

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:41 PM


Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:41 PM
Morning as in when i wake up

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:41 PM
Ive told you to go do what you weant 3x

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:41 PM
I literally said nap in that quote

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:41 PM
at this pint youre staying to argue

im not feeding this anymore

Puff The Magic DraginToday at 11:42 PM
I love you. Ill message you as soon as i wake up

Sketti | ꝖʉƹƸᵰ ₵ᵿꞥ₮Today at 11:42 PM
go to sleep