so i've thought about it a lot, and literally everyone i talked to (not just talking about the goons, family, etc) told me not to reply because it just seems like an endless cycle where something happens and then we aren't friends anymore, so what's the point, but i'm tired of letting other people's opinions inject with my own, and its been getting hard to divert what other people tell me i *should* do from what i want to do. not important.

regardless, the evidence was there, and its not me that got you banned from apa, that was panther's decision for you lying to him. i said id rather you not be banned, but its up to him, and he decided to take action. so dont think im some dick that goes behind your back without saying anything please, because im not (not saying you thought that, just wanted to clear the air in case you did)

im more hurt than anything - i understand we will never be friends again, or at least never as close as we once were, which fucking sucks because i feel like i just woke up one day and it changed, but idk. i thought we were at least cool this second time, regardless of whether you disliked one video or spam disliked, you still lied to panther about it, which is just like..why ig idk. doesn't make any sense. idc about the dislikes

and the screenshot wasn't a screenshot idk who told you that, it was someone who DM'd me 15 minutes after panther banned you from apa, and tl;dr he basically said he was disliking my videos because he didn't wanna see me succeed, and when i asked him why and was trying to have a conversation w/him, he said "one sec gotta pour my sister a bowl of cereal" and then blocked me, which is just super coincidental that it happened so soon after you got banned, so it just seems like you were trying to cover yourself because we found out he was friends w/you.

i didnt block you because i hope one day we can be friends again. idk what you are going through, and i dont hate you, and idk why we stopped being friends, but it sucks. and i hope one day it changes. u aint gotta reply to any of this, a lot of this was just clearing the air. and u aint gotta defend urself either, theres no point, panther is as stubborn as me and wont change his mind until prolly at least swsh to lift the ban. i just felt like, man to man, you deserved a response. i still dont know why we aren't friends anymore, or what ur life is like now or what u r up to at all, but one day i hope we can be friends again. have a good night man