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- Welp, it's June and I haven't done one of these in a while... and I feel like maybe I should.
- My health has been kind of poor lately... There's some things I don't want to get in to because I don't know the extent of the issues yet, but I've been essentially in limbo because of health insurance. I cannot afford to get in to the specialists I need to see for a few different issues out of my own pocket, but I was finally approved for MediCal at no cost, so HOPEFULLY in the next week or so I can start chipping away at these issues, get a proper diagnoses, stop speculating about what my issues are and get some actual treatment.
- What I do know is that I've been in a very very bad autoimmune flare up that has caused a ton of pain, gastrointestinal issues and general fatigue... when pain in one joint clears up, it fires up in another so it's just been an endless cycle of pain/discomfort. I also had a really bad tooth infection that spread and was causing me some other issues. The tooth infection is cleared up thanks to some antibiotics, but I do have to get a root canal at some point to keep that from coming back, but I can't get the root canal done until I get my blood pressure down. An anti-inflammatory would help a ton with the autoimmune issues I'm having but, my already elevated blood pressure is made worse by the anti-inflammatory.
- My plan of action as soon as I get the OK to go and be seen is to get to a clinic, get back on my blood pressure meds and get another issue "checked out"... that approval should come anyyyyyyyyy day now. Again, I don't want to speculate anymore about what it is, because all that does is stress me out, which flares everything else up, but it's been a big source of anxiety and quite honestly fear for me lately.
- I've completely cut energy drinks, soda and pretty much everything sugary out of my life... I feel much better in the mornings but I'm still getting fatigued later in the day which, on top of arthritis pain in my back/wrists/hands being completely uncontrolled because of not being able to take an anti-inflammatory it has made streaming fairly difficult. I've been trying to eat a lot better and go outside on daily walks which has been helping a bit with the pain as well.
- Every day I am feeling a little bit better and able to stream a little bit longer. I'd like to get back to the point where I can at least dedicate 5 hours a day to streaming and a few hours a day to hanging out with other streamers and being that pillar of support that I once was to a lot of communities.
- I stream first and foremost because I enjoy sharing my life long passion for video games with each and every person who swings by my channel, even if only in passing. For a while it was looking like a pretty viable option for me to continue being a full-time streamer, but with my inconsistencies I've lately been doubting whether or not I can continue to do this... but, I am going to do my best to quash those thoughts and continue the grind... not only because I know in my heart that it's the only thing that's going to make me happy but because I know that a lot of you depend on me for a little brightness in your day. The support I've had through the past 2 months both on and off twitch have blown me away and I am endlessly grateful for it.
- My plans for the stream as of the immediate future are:
- 1) Stream a little bit more - even if that means breaking up the stream in to a 3-4 hour morning session and a 3-4 hour evening session.
- 2) Speedrun more Puggsy - I've been having a ton of fun with Quickie World, but I know everyone wants to see me reclaim the Puggsy Any% WR... even the WR holder. Additionally, I really wanna submit 100% to AGDQ... so I need to get a run that is fairly optimized and not just what I did for the free WR.
- 3) Expand my horizons - I had a ton of fun with SMRPG this past Saturday so, RPG Saturday is going to be a thing... I'd like to have a good balance though of retro speedrun content and retro casual content... this means I will probably NOT be doing Apex Legends on stream very often anymore outside of Friday Evenings if my squad is available to play.
- 4) More birds on stream - I know everyone enjoys getting to see them and since I'm not streaming super late night anymore, expect to see them more often.
- I appreciate everyone's support... I hope that my channel can continue to be a chill place for people of all walks of life to come and hang out without the fear of being themselves.
- Hope to see you soon and thank you so much for taking the time to read this!
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