NuvoeYesterday at 5:01 PM
Can i vent and you wont get mad at me

MobianYesterday at 5:01 PM
Why exactly would I get mad

NuvoeYesterday at 5:02 PM
I like
Developed a fucking crush

MobianYesterday at 5:02 PM
oh ok

NuvoeYesterday at 5:02 PM
I tried so fuckig hard
To convince myself
No
I dont fucking ljfjd NO
And just fucking died inside
Hey guess what
Hes straight!

MobianYesterday at 5:03 PM
I feel like I've seen this before

NuvoeYesterday at 5:03 PM
Honestly i deserve this
He was really really nice about it and still down to hang out
I just need time to like get over it

MobianYesterday at 5:03 PM
Well that's okay?
Why would I get mad

NuvoeYesterday at 5:04 PM
I literally sat and picked my brain about all the things i didnt like to try and crush the feeling mercilessly

MobianYesterday at 5:04 PM
At least you developed it when you weren't with me

NuvoeYesterday at 5:04 PM
I feel hypocritical
All my advice

MobianYesterday at 5:04 PM
Well at least you know how I feel now.

NuvoeYesterday at 5:04 PM
That i doled out that seemed sagely
Nothing worked
I literally tried so hard to go no this is stupid
Ive only known him 4 fucking days we definetly dont line up well politically and im pretty politically minded
Hes straight like 90%
He literally smokes like 20 a day and and is super anti social
And my goofy ass is just sitting there like :heart_eyes:
I just got it out of the way asap and told him
Now i get to sulk and get over it
Im sorry for being snooty about this
Before cuz god
I literally am so faded
Sorry im like just rambling me me me
But yea wow i am soulcrushed
Picks up
Sniffles into

MobianYesterday at 5:10 PM
I'm not sure what to say.

NuvoeYesterday at 5:10 PM
Its literally just some part of me being stupid
And taking over
And i hate it

MobianYesterday at 5:10 PM
But who cares?

NuvoeYesterday at 5:10 PM
Meeeee

MobianYesterday at 5:10 PM
Why?
It's not wrong for you to like other people

NuvoeYesterday at 5:10 PM
I honestly just wish i was asexual
It feels awful
Its like my wig has been dragged
Across the london bridge

MobianYesterday at 5:11 PM
I mean it
happens.
Sorry.

NuvoeYesterday at 5:11 PM
I think thats the worst bit
I just feel really ashamedn

MobianYesterday at 5:11 PM
I couldn't possibly understand how that feels

NuvoeYesterday at 5:12 PM
Huffs
Mayb i should just stay up
And get 14

MobianYesterday at 5:12 PM
I need a little time to think
Or something

NuvoeYesterday at 5:13 PM
Sorry
I didnt wanna upset you
I just couldnt keep my mouth shut as usual

MobianYesterday at 5:16 PM
I mean
Whatever I guess
It's not detrimental
We aren't together so why would it matter to me personally
There's not really a possibility of that being a thing again anyway
It's not wrong to like other people
As I said at least it was after we were done.
At least you know how much effort it takes to not go for something like that.
It was never my intention to hurt you when it happened to me you know..
Either of you, for that matter
But at least you didn't fucking destroy everything going for something impossible

NuvoeYesterday at 5:18 PM
;;
Dont blame it on that

MobianYesterday at 5:18 PM
I'm sorry.

NuvoeYesterday at 5:18 PM
I was mad about it for sure
But
I just think it wasnt working for me
I was putting unrealistic expectations on you and then getting mad when you werent doing what i want
It just wasnt good for either of us
That just kind of added at the point
I need to just
Go singleminded again and just think work honestly social stuff is so cursed
The inside of my head is like just static atm

NuvoeYesterday at 5:44 PM
Sorry for being a huge bummer on my first night back
I had a lot of fun just that kinda came back to kick me in the pants