Spaghetti and Bayside

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[21:09]  * arthurianNoblesse has begun espering venatrixInvicta
[21:10] <arthurianNoblesse> BEllona, if I Might, do you have a moment to speak?
[21:10] <venatrixInvicta> Oh, you too, huh?
[21:11] <arthurianNoblesse> I"m sorry, I Don't believe I Understand what you mean.
[21:11] <venatrixInvicta> You're here to tell me off for fucking Ratosk, right?
[21:12] <venatrixInvicta> Well you can forget it; everyone else beat you to the punch. I've got hundreds of messages I haven't even read yet.
[21:12] <arthurianNoblesse> OH, I"m sorry to hear that, but you may be sure that is not my intention.
[21:13] <venatrixInvicta> Aww! Senpai isn't here to tell me off c:
[21:14] <arthurianNoblesse> I"m by no means pleased by what occurred between you and him, but I Am more angry at ROland for putting you in that position despite knowing your history with him, than I Am at you for acting upon your feelings.
[21:15] <venatrixInvicta> Oh. Well, uh... sorry, I think? I'm not totally sure what to say, obviously '^^
[21:17] <arthurianNoblesse> OH, my apologies then, I Did not mean to confuse you, I"m only here to inquire after your well being in the wake of all that occurred.
[21:18] <venatrixInvicta> ;-; I'm so touched... You're like the only person that cares!
[21:18] <venatrixInvicta> Things are gonna get tougher if they don't get better, Levi. That's my philosophy.
[21:18] <venatrixInvicta> (("You're alright Levi. Don't come to Sburb tomorrow."))
[21:20] <arthurianNoblesse> I"m sure the others care, BEllona, they're just preoccupied and stressed by the war, so they find themselves unable to show such feelings easily.
[21:21] <venatrixInvicta_> I still feel like a massive fuckup, though.
[21:22] <arthurianNoblesse> AS little as I Would wish for you to feel such, that may not be a wholly unwarranted emotion, given the circumstances.
[21:22] <venatrixInvicta_> True.
[21:23] <venatrixInvicta_> Levi, have you ever fucked up and it's just stuck with you? Like you can't take it off your mind?
[21:23] <venatrixInvicta_> I feel that way all the time, Y'know? It's hard to escape the past.
[21:24] <arthurianNoblesse> BEllona, at the risk of injecting levity into a serious topic, I Find I Must ask if you are experiencing any amnesia of the sessions in which you and I Both took part.
[21:25] <arthurianNoblesse> I Think examination of those memories would more than provide you an answer to your question.
[21:25] <venatrixInvicta_> Yeah. I guess you constantly cringe at some of the stuff you got up to too, huh?
[21:26] <venatrixInvicta_> I know what it's like to be a weenie.
[21:26] <venatrixInvicta_> Except I feel like I have to start dating someone, immediately break up with him, then beat his ass before I can act like a weenie.
[21:27] <arthurianNoblesse> IT is not always easy to accept that one wishes to act like a weenie, BEllona.
[21:27] <venatrixInvicta_> And every time, Y'know, it didn't take much to make me that mad about something, and I'd just push that away.
[21:29] <arthurianNoblesse> I Know what you mean, I"ve spent a great deal of time pushing things away I Did not wish to grapple with.
[21:29] <venatrixInvicta_> Lmao, do you remember all the times I asked you out?
[21:30] <arthurianNoblesse> I Can recall a number of them, I Assure you, I Simply have very little ability to respond coherently in such situations, and it was nothing personal.
[21:32] <venatrixInvicta_> Right, and I don't get it. I mean, yeah, you're a little short, but you've got everything else a boy could want.
[21:32] <venatrixInvicta_> (Besides: I'm 4'11" anyway. Like I give a fuck about your height.)
[21:33] <venatrixInvicta_> You got muscles, good looks, a kind heart...
[21:33] <venatrixInvicta_> ... dat butt.
[21:33] <venatrixInvicta_> God I'm salivating rn
[21:34] <arthurianNoblesse> REALLY< I APPRECIATE THE COMPLIMENTS< BUT I THINK PERHAPS YOU"RE GIVING ME TOO MUCH CREDIT>
[21:34] <venatrixInvicta_> Okay okay, you're right; gotta focus. We're having a moment here right?
[21:34] <venatrixInvicta_> I mean, we probably are.
[21:35] <arthurianNoblesse> I Believe we may be, but I Am also generally quite a mess in most sessions, regardless of how good my intentions might be at the time.
[21:36] <venatrixInvicta_> Yeah, I definitely feel that, kinda.
[21:36] <venatrixInvicta_> It's like something happens and whatever you're focusing on goes out the window.
[21:37] <venatrixInvicta_> You completely forget about it as your knee jerks straight into the stimulus' balls.
[21:38] <arthurianNoblesse> I Don't know if that is quite how I Would describe it, but yeah, all too frequently it is easy to allow one's emotions to take control when something happens to arouse them.
[21:38] <arthurianNoblesse> I Don't believe I Have ever related to you when I Died attempting to destroy a piece of pumice, have I?
[21:39] <venatrixInvicta_> N-no, I don't think I've heard any such story.
[21:40] <arthurianNoblesse> IT was absolutely horrible, and involved a great deal of angst and repression, as most things seem to.
[21:41] <venatrixInvicta_> For us, anyway.
[21:42] <arthurianNoblesse> STill, there are those moments which involve neither of those, and those are likely all the more pleasant for the freedom they bring.
[21:44] <venatrixInvicta> True dat. It's the small things, like crying at your wedding as Roland handed you off to that tentacle monster. You looked so pretty!
[21:45] <arthurianNoblesse> OH, goodness, please do not remind me of that, RAtosk related the entirety of our honeymoon aloud when we met a creature that bore a resemblance to her.
[21:46] <venatrixInvicta> She turned out to be a lot nicer than any of us expected though, honestly.
[21:46] <venatrixInvicta> It was a Ragnell story.
[21:46] <venatrixInvicta> Cause she turned out to be really pretty, remember?
[21:47] <arthurianNoblesse> YEah, I Must admit, it has been quite strange, this new form of existence which we have attained.
[21:47] <arthurianNoblesse> I Can recall all sorts of bonds from my past lives which no longer exist within this one.
[21:47] <venatrixInvicta> Listen, though, what if this happens again? What happens when we end up watching them fail and have to come back around to do it once more?
[21:48] <venatrixInvicta> Don't you think that the number of beings we actually are will multiply exponentially as a result?
[21:48] <venatrixInvicta> As a gestalt consciousness, how much pain will I have to bear in the next "round?"
[21:49] <venatrixInvicta> How many more deaths and betrayals will we have to endure?
[21:49] <arthurianNoblesse> IN all frankness, BEllona, I Do not have an answer, beyond my belief in these players, and ourselves.
[21:50] <arthurianNoblesse> I Believe we will succeed this time.
[21:50] <venatrixInvicta> Listen, that Harken guy; what if he's done this before?
[21:51] <arthurianNoblesse> WHat do you mean?
[21:51] <venatrixInvicta> I mean, what if he's destroyed other sessions before ours?
[21:53] <arthurianNoblesse> I Don't know, BEllona, it would not change what we had to do, it would merely make him an even more formidable adversary.
[21:53] <venatrixInvicta> It just makes me wonder what hope we have against him.
[21:53] <venatrixInvicta> It also makes me wonder where he got his powers.
[21:54] <venatrixInvicta> And I'm kinda curious how he is in a fight. Reportedly, he's "died" twice now; there was Roland and then Cerxes got him, too.
[21:54] <venatrixInvicta> Not in that order, of course.
[21:55] <arthurianNoblesse> RIght, I"ve heard ROland speak of him, and apparently he is quite the fighter, though I Have made certain to avoid fighting in proximity to him as much as I Could lest I Risk being taken.
[21:56] <venatrixInvicta> Yeah, definitely true. If we're vulnerable, what if the bodies of his friends are vulnerable? What's to stop him from populating them with his weird mumbo jumbo?
[21:58] <arthurianNoblesse> PErhaps he would not wish to do so, he is doing all of this in order to save them, he may not wish to enslave them to do so.
[21:58] <venatrixInvicta> Yeah, but we can't deny the possibility that the people who gave him this power might not think the same way.
[21:59] <venatrixInvicta> They gave him what he has and they musta demanded some kinda remuneration from him.
[21:59] <arthurianNoblesse> LIsten, BEllona, as strange as the question is to ask, do you trust me?
[22:00] <venatrixInvicta> Huh? Why do you ask?
[22:03] <arthurianNoblesse> BEcause I"m going to promise you that we will win against him, and whatever forces he has behind him, if you trust me, then I Will have assuaged your fears, hopefully, and if you do not, then I Shall have to prove to you that you ought to have.
[22:03] <venatrixInvicta> Aw shit Levi, you're making me cry a bunch.
[22:04] <venatrixInvicta> It's weird going from intensely aroused to sobbing in like ten minutes.
[22:04] <arthurianNoblesse> OH, I"m sorry.
[22:04] <venatrixInvicta> Listen
[22:04] <venatrixInvicta> I'm about to have to go.
[22:04] <venatrixInvicta> I want this on the record, because, y'know, it's a war and stuff.
[22:05] <venatrixInvicta> I want to say "goodbye." And sorta mean it, in case the next battle is curtains for me.
[22:06] <arthurianNoblesse> I"m not sure I Understand what you mean, even were you to fall, you would only go to the deep fields.
[22:07] <venatrixInvicta> I know, but I always come back to all the times I couldn't say goodbye to people before we parted ways like that.
[22:07] <venatrixInvicta> I don't want that to be the case here, even if it is just a token gesture.
[22:07] <arthurianNoblesse> AH, I Understand.
[22:08] <venatrixInvicta> So, goodbye, Levi.
[22:08] <venatrixInvicta> Aniki.
[22:08] <venatrixInvicta> Chief.
[22:08] <venatrixInvicta> Little Lamb.
[22:09] <arthurianNoblesse> AU revoir, BEllona.
[22:09] <arthurianNoblesse> IMouto>
[22:09]  * venatrixInvicta has ceased espering arthurianNoblesse!
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