Horrible start to September 2017

Remember the job I have?  I found out earlier that I'm going to be losing it next month.  Either one of two things will happen.  I will be let go from this job due to a possible government shutdown at the beginning of the month.  Or I will be let go at the end of the month when the 11% budget cuts take effect more or less.

Now I'm a temporary employee that can work up to 6 months.  So of course I could be let go at any given time, though I was expecting to last for longer.  I was also told that I could be re-hired at a later time once they let me go whenever.

But this feels much worse.  I found out that a lot of the permanent employees are coming back around this time.  So this feels like the nail in the coffin, the ashes thrown into the river.

It's frustrating because I worked so damn hard to get to where I am, and for this to happen.

I have trouble sleeping.  And to be honest, I don't know how I will keep myself together for the next month.

I don't know exactly when I'm being let go.