10:11 AM] JesterJerry: Hey there Adam
[10:11 AM] JesterJerry: sigh
[10:11 AM] JesterJerry: I cannot believe my dad right now
[10:12 AM] JesterJerry: Fucking drove me to the point of completely orienting towards medicine
[10:12 AM] JesterJerry: And now he's like "So we should check out about the computer engineering thing"
[10:13 AM] JesterJerry: Mom's just butthurt about her job and wants me to succeed what she failed in, the dream she has of seeing me become a doctor
[10:14 AM] JesterJerry: Dad has a less skewed perception and is actually open to my choices when he's not being a mad blockhead, which is like 0.1% of the time
[10:14 AM] JesterJerry: I hate my life right now
[7:15 PM] Satori: The thing is really simple Adnan, you're not exactly the most go getter for things, at the end of the day they just want to see you truly entangled with something you're interested in. You don't show that ability at all, and that's probably one of the most concerning things for them as a parent
[7:16 PM] Satori: Which is why they're willing to push, your dad still has faith in you though
[7:18 PM] Satori: For example, if someone wants to learn something, they don't ask to stop. They will take every inch they can to get towards that goal
[7:18 PM] Satori: The idea is find something to mind compelling you can suffer through it at first
[7:21 PM] Satori: When I first started learning python I use to easily spend 4 or 5 hours a day on coding alone. Eventually that become 8 to 12 hours a day, to the point I could speak it in English, but that's because there was something offered that I wanted
[7:22 PM] Satori: I wanted to automate things, that's why I did it. 3 years later I don't regret it all. The problem is simple for you adnan
[7:23 PM] Satori: You just haven't found that one thing you want. If you're lucky it'll be hidden under your nose, if not so lucky- you might never find it.
[7:25 PM] Satori: I wanted to write software, that's why I got so good at it
[7:26 PM] Satori: I wanted to play guitar, that's how I got good at it
[7:26 PM] Satori: I wanted to play minecraft, that's how I got good at it
[7:26 PM] Satori: You see, it all starts with an idea, then a want, then a goal
[7:27 PM] Satori: I had the idea that there's gonna more devices on the internet than there will be humans, I wanted to be able to control them, so I had the goal of learning a language
[7:28 PM] Satori: I heard someone play guitar and it was really nice, and I thought to myself, I would want to do that, and then I set a goal and did
[7:28 PM] Satori: You find something you like, want, and then do
[7:32 PM] Satori: Though if you don't choose, someone else will for ya
[7:37 PM] Satori: basically, find something that pays well that you'd want to drop 6 to 8 hours of your time into a day
[7:38 PM] Satori: bc if you dont someone else will find that for ya
[7:41 PM] Satori: your right around the age where things heat up, its time to grow up!
[7:41 PM] Satori: you'll be pushed out of the nest one way or another
[7:41 PM] Satori: might wanna start thinking about what would help you when you do
[7:43 PM] Satori: people expect you to be able to stand on your feet at this point adnan, might that mean getting a job, going to school or becoming an intern
[7:43 PM] Satori: if you cant help yourself, no one will bother with you
[7:44 PM] Satori: find which direction you would like to go, (or be pushed towards)
[7:44 PM] Satori: find a reason
[7:45 PM] Satori: justify your pain, or maybe in the attempt of making the world better, the reason doesnt matter as much - but its important to have one
[7:46 PM] Satori: generally stem jobs are good picks, thats science technology engineerin and mathematics,
[7:46 PM] Satori: another question to ask yourself is what do you want
[7:47 PM] Satori: its all what you want
[7:47 PM] Satori: you've been given the oppurtunity to fly, yet you drag your feet, dont get pushed, but rather fly to where you want
[7:48 PM] Satori: you can never aim too high, just remember the higher the mark, the harder it is
[7:48 PM] Satori: but if you want it, things in the way dont seem half as bad, and you usually wrestle them fairly easily
[7:49 PM] Satori: learning a language like python, java etc etc
[7:49 PM] Satori: is a hard a goal, and a ton of people fall off
[7:49 PM] Satori: but if you want to the ablility to control peoples devices, with or without permission(edited)
[7:50 PM] Satori: is what grinded me pretty far
[7:50 PM] Satori: basically dont throw your life away
[7:51 PM] Satori: because thats the path you're on, me and you play the same game, the only difference is that you dont try your best
[7:51 PM] Satori: its not that its impossible, its just a hell of a mountain to climb
[7:52 PM] Satori: but the more you want something, if you want it as much as your next breath, it feels like nothing(edited)
[7:53 PM] Satori: at the end of the day - it doesnt matter what you choose; everyones interested in something. it can be teaching, prosituting, or being a religious figure
[7:55 PM] Satori: and once you turn into a legal adult adnan, you've yet to realize its you vs the world buddy
[7:55 PM] Satori: everyone and their pops wants a job, and if you know the same things as them - good luck competing
[7:56 PM] Satori: because that old man has 20 years experience, and that young man has a resume that says he can lift 100kg every day without a break
[7:56 PM] Satori: its you vs everyone
[7:57 PM] Satori: that means if you go into programming, im someone you're competing with too
[7:57 PM] Satori: and if you imagine that, holding a porgramming job with someone like me coming up - is a scary thought
[7:58 PM] Satori: reason being is that i might not have the same resume, but im armed to the teeth to take your position
[8:05 PM] Satori: and depending how much someone wants that, the more they're willing to undermine you, they're willing to eat more shit than you.
[9:07 PM] Satori: if you set a boat out to sea without a captain or a driver, where do you think it'll end up? we'll be lucky if it makes it out of the ship bay, your mind is the same thing
[9:08 PM] Satori: i wish you the best of luck, but i aint gonna lie to you like "yeah its all set up, just jump through these hoops"
[9:08 PM] Satori: its a little more complicated than that