My powers back up

   So you want to know what my powers are and when I first got them? Well buckle up buckaroos because you are about to get my whole fucking life's story. My first power that in retrospect I would now call a power had to be when I was five or six...possibly three or four; hard to remember. Now I have to make this perfectly clear, back then I wouldn't have thought it a power, It was just something I could do. I didn't think it was anything different than say being able to climb up the book case or hold my breath and swim under water. So what I can remember is when I was that little I played a game called who can stay in the air the longest. I played it by myself at first, then with my sister. Now you ask her and she remembers it very differently; as in she remembers it being who could jump the highest; but she clearly suppressed anything weird. I didn't realize it was weird and stopped doing it around others till I was in school. So here's what it was, I would jump in the air and kind of grab or hook...kinda felt like wedging myself into the air somehow and staying there for a few seconds. And no there was no propulsion, no floating, not even any spinning back then. I can't describe how I did it, anymore than I could have explained without being taught how I could ride a bike or hold my breath; I could just do it. I also learned very quickly that jumping off high things didn't help. On that note, not sure why people think that, I mean when a super hero flies they just jump off the ground; they don't have to climb up someplace high and jump...except those with wings or gliders and stuff; but people don't have those. Besides I fell, and I mean, while I could grab onto the air for a few seconds...the descent...was at full speed. So yeah even if I jump off the couch and held into the air...I'd still come down at full speed, and could regrab the air easily; but I was just a kid.

   So let's get to power number 2; now this one I can't really say WHEN it started, but I can say unlike any other ability I have I actually worked to suppress this one. I call it Automatic Telepathy. As in zero control, I would just be standing there and a word, image, phrase would randomly pop in my head and I'd blurt it out; and it would relate to what someone nearby was thinking about. This creeped people out, and I had enough social development problems as a child, so among my issues was controlling that. I can still do it, but I have some mental exercises to keep it turned off...only slipping if I am too tired, over caffinated, or get too comfortable while talking to people; otherwise I can *raise the antenna* so to speak. But its never active, I can't like mind dive a person or control their thoughts or anything...I have some empathy but that may not be related. But then again like I said I never practiced using it so much as suppressing it.

   So this brings us to the third ability, which was really fun when I was a kid. I call it "Air Skimming" I could get a run going and then leap and putting my feet together hook what felt like a rail of air under my feet and skate on it. And no this wasn't just jumping, I have gone over a hundred feet before doing this. I can also do it up the side of surfaces, but don't really do that as it requires one a very smooth surface, I can adjust my feet and body better over terrain somehow, but up a wall is trickier; and two...this ability requires me to be just above a surface to keep going...I have never managed to clear a wall with enough of my body to actually get onto the roof or not do this pulsed backwards and falling off the surface thing...so yeah...bad idea.
   So by this point I am not even ten yet, and at this time several more freaky things started to pop up, I tended to alternate between calling them my "defense system" and "weapons system", I'll get to that more later on. So I could with focus...which can sometimes take a stupidly long amount of time, use a static electric field to shock things and even move some stuff (I became convinced most telekinesis I'd hear about was really this), as well as being able to mildly control water...but only warm water...as well as some limited control over fire...but the way that feels when I get it going is...disturbing like a sense of chaotic destruction rising from within that just wants everything to burn...so for the longest time I actually avoided any flame bigger than a candle flame. But like the electricity thing it too takes concentration to get going. The final one of these was wind, like I could by feeling happy and carefree control the direction of wind...even aiming it at things with little wind burst...but like the water only warm air...and only outside...for some reason it never really works inside, like I have to tap into the larger weather system somehow. I have felt with enough focus I can get the wind outside to act up while inside but it feels like what I imagine a radio with interference feels like.
   So at this time I think I need to bring something else up, so bare with me here. Like any child I was taught to believe in three things I was expected to stop believing in later on; The Easter Bunny, Tooth Fairy, and Santa Clause. However I also believed in the X-men; as in based on real people; I was convinced because of what I could do and the fact no one else I knew could do them, and using them freaked people out enough they'd deny seeing or acknowleding it a second later...or made them think I was evil...that I was a mutant and mutants were actually a thing and shows and comics like X-men were meant to make people acknowledge them and accept them...I kinda missed the actual metaphor...due to resembling the exageration.
   First thing I stopped believing in was the Easter Bunny, because I loved nature documentaries and the idea of a rabbit delivering eggs and candy was kinda dumb...also my mother dragging us to church kinda contradicted it a bit. Second was Santa Clause, its a lie that falls apart pretty quick when the majority of your gifts are under the tree before christmas, you find them by accident, or every other christmas specials includes either a fake mall Santa, older kids not believing in Santa, or vastly contradicting mythos and origin stories. The tooth fairy came last of the big three, as I was also a fan of traditional fairy lore stuff, and knew fae could be human sized; see one night I woke up from my pillow being moved and saw a female shadowy figure walking out of my room into the light. This was in reality my mother and the contrast of the hall light to my dark room made her look like a shadow person; but known fae lore I accepted THAT shadow person as the true form of the tooth fairy...and boy did the school teachers not like that when I told other kids I saw the tooth fairy and that it was a tall shadow person. Which brings us to the X-men; I knew the cartoon and comics weren't real; but as stated before I had reason to believe that all this superhero stuff was based on real people...imagine how confusing and heart breaking it was to be told by your own mother and father that super humans don't exist, super heroes don't exist, that it is all fiction...I never felt more alone in the world than I did in that moment.
   So years going by hiding this stuff with very little practice at the abilities and isolating myself from others should they discover by a slip up that I have powers...of which there is one I hadn't listed yet...whenever I'd be picked on, or be in danger, something would (click) inside me and boost all those powers significantly but worked on a sort of auto-pilot, and auto-pilot that as I grew up felt more and more like the real me as most of my social issues as a child faded into me...this took till my mid-twenties so not exactly a smooth or timely transition for socializing with others. But that said, over the years I'd see two things, one was programs about people with special abilities; but these tended to be the usual grab bag of (oh isn't that neat) like contortionists, photographic memories, with the occasional strong man, with the more "out there" abilities being scrutinized heavily or seen as hoaxes...in some cases in these really weird ways like people expect someone to have every psychic power at once and have god like levels of power at that... Any who; the other thing was a sort of hidden threat I picked up on, in X-men comics, video games, tv shows like X-files, movies about super powers, ect... That unless you were some bullet proof, insanely powerful individual, you were at risk if you let the world know you could do these things the government would abduct you and lock you away for study, conscript you into secret military service, or kill you. So yeah, threat recieved.
   But this brings us back around to that boost I mentioned earlier, I could sap the strength from others, see time seconds ahead, even alter the flow of time around me to move a little faster and so many of those rules were broken; like once when I was being pulled out by an under tow in the ocean; while struggling and single mindedly trying to get back to shore the water around me was pushed back into a bubble so I could breath, even passed a diver; bet he had a story to tell...or tell no one. Still a struggle to get to shore though. As well as actual flight. I have tried to practic this one a bit more, but there is like no more to practic it; I seem to only have three modes of flight, hook in air, air skimmer, and rocketing *this one is weird as I choose a direction and jet in that direction, but it is extremly poorly practiced as I never felt safe trying to practice it anywhere. Even the most isolated places I could think to find to practice outside *trust me some of this stuff should not be attempted indoors* always ended up having another hiker, biker, a house nearby, cars nearby, ect...like the world is just littered with people.