NotActuallyRobin - Yesterday at 11:32 PM
yo familia
did you die?
you aint showing up in your server :eyes:
are you alright? I think we just got kicked from your server or something?
January 19, 2018
NotActuallyRobin - Today at 12:22 AM
I've lost an immense amount of respect for you in the way you handled this. I feel betrayed, backstabbed, wrongfully convicted, and just generally disrespected. I was taken completely out of the blue by this and dont think you could've handled this in a worse or less respectful way at all
After 3-4+ years I figured you'd at least respect me enough to give me the decency of an explanation or an acknowledgement or anything, you can't imagine how shit I feel right now
3LIXAR - Today at 12:30 AM
hope things r better for u soon
i cant collect any thoughts atm all i can say is sorry
NotActuallyRobin - Today at 12:30 AM
you aren't sorry
don't give me some bullshit apology, you did exactly what you wanted exactly how you wanted to do it
All I can say is how dissapointed I am
3LIXAR - Today at 12:34 AM
between venting to several people, conflicting with myself morally, and wanting to cut everyone out of my life, sure if thats what u think. spent hours thinking on end the right way to handle this and the emotional pressure was too much. i thought maybe say to u i dont feel comfortable with the distance thats being created between nathan and i, i thought maybe kick u outright myself. i thought several other things and literally no matter which way i did it, i knew itd be terrible. i could lie i could be 100% honest idk and at this point idk anything i cant fucking collect any thoughts on this. all i know is the emotional weight was too much to bear b/c kicking u felt fucked up b/c i didnt want to run the server where my comfort is the end all be all. u can take it how u want, u can accuse me how u want. idk what to say idk what im thinking idk what was best or worst but im sure this wasnt leaning best. whatevers happens idk im a fucking mess right now and sorry ure in the middle of it
NotActuallyRobin - Today at 12:35 AM
I have no sympathy for you, regardless of how you feel or anything the way you chose to do this speaks more than words ever can
also bringing meg into this after how much you reassured her was unfair and she feels like shit now
regardless of your intentions you've managed to deal with this in the worst way possible and hurt more people than you even know
3LIXAR - Today at 12:36 AM
thats fine, i aint asking for anything b/c i handled it bad. i couldnt handle it in anyway that wouldnt end bad for either u 2 or my own mental security
"more ppl than u even know"
meg and u?
NotActuallyRobin - Today at 12:36 AM
you've created a rift in our friend group because you have admin
it's you and nathan and your unwillingness to deal with problems and just running away that caused this
I reached out to him again today to no avail
it's immature and frankly toxic
sorry you all have such a bad image of me in your minds but at least I'm willing to admit fault and wanted to improve things
3LIXAR - Today at 12:38 AM
idk what to say except to the last msg, my image of u isnt spoiled which is why i didnt know what to do. if i truly felt the same way about u as nathan and nico, i woulda kicked u myself
NotActuallyRobin - Today at 12:39 AM
I hope you sleep well tonight
I never imaged you'd stoop this low
3LIXAR - Today at 12:41 AM
sorry
3LIXAR - Today at 1:03 AM
sorry for all this
also of everything that uve told me about meg ill keep private. idk how much she knows u told me so im not mentioning it to her in case s/t u said to me was s/t she wouldnt have wanted u to tell me so i dont wanna start more problems