please die

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fz3-TdYOOA8

the memories hurt
im not gonna lie
im going insane
the dirt is my rain

deep underground
sleep with no sound
wishing and hoping that i wont be found

i need help to be honest
not help to keep me from death
no i need help to kill myself
give me a gun then give me some rest

the memories hurt to be honest
please help me forget
all the pain they caused
my rest still yet paused

the memories hurt so fucking much
don't eat all day i sleep trough lunch
fucking everything reminds me of her
such punches
blur
my vision
cloud
my thought
stir
my decision
doubt
i'm naught

get me a gun so i have some rest

what the fuck am i supposed to do now then?
last the week of mine left till i jump?
who am i supposed to talk to again?
loose body on the ground lame little lump

blood and meat and shit is all we are
we value life like its a miracle arghh
im sick of the voices
got 4 in my head and all of them talking
got a million choices
left to make and all i can think of is running
who am i to say
my life isn't worth it?

who am i to think
i'll just jump and shit


the four voices in order
the conscious
the fake conscious
the psychopath
the kind that laugh

number one will kill me
he's the one that can see
me for what i am
knows i ain't worth a damn

number two drove me insane
i lost her and my brain
told me lies as much as it could
to hide the psychopath it was giving food

number 3 is the psychopath
feels nothing but hate and wrath
he killed her entire memory
corrupted her rather cleverly

number 4 fights the hate
he's the one people can rate
they see and think hes nice
but for this charade my sanity is the price
and all of these thoughts weigh on my head like lice
can barely feel them but their effect is huge
their spread is bigger it affects the people i don't judge

i talk to them all day
help them out in their time of need
but im too late i make them do the deed
their morals were doubting now dormant they lay
and all i can do is fear what i may
have caused for them a hell unleashed
but the conscious tells me i barely did anything
im less manipulative than i think
i need to learn that im no king
between me and them there is no link


please help me

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i wont tell no lie

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out of tears to cry

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