So, let's just start. When you see this line know I'mma be gone for a month, you'll know why.
I have honestly been feeling alienated in the server for a long time now. I've been alienated from a lot in life so far to the point that, I prob have paranoia of alienation.
I grew up in the Deep South, forced to be raised Baptist for 12 years by an over stressed single mother and then doubly so by my father's new family after we abandoned him due to life concerns.
I'm pan, agender and prob closer to Christ-like than these fuckers down here, but couldn't be further from their teachings.
Now, here's the thing, I wanna go into what all my problems are as frankly, I've never been honest with y'all, keeping it in knowing no one's gonna care or get the full picture. And feeling too alienated to mention.
I am austic, shouldn't be a surprise really and some of y'all were told at one point or the other.
Now, growing up disabled down here is a brand new circle of Hell. Cause truly the disabled were discriminated. I could not get a basic education without organizations in the government and school system harassing me and my siblings to try and create dirt on my mother to get us taken away from her.
Alienated from growing better social skills by the use of ISD, In School Dentention. Inside a small, locked box over the lunch room forced to eat alone and enough window to watch the other kids play and make friends.
Alienated by this stunted social skills to the point where I never could make friends as how the Hell do I do that, I'm annoying largely in part to the autism and this stunted growth.
Alienated by gender and sex cause I mean, let's be real. I sound fucking crazy, especially down here all my life, but anywhere ever. Especially cause I've tried to tell people before, just to have what I say spread around and bullied about.
Alienated by so many things and yet you guys as well, because none of y'all understand this and think I'm a pretty normal white guy and part of the problem. It's how I've seen it when y'all disagree with me, it's partly why I don't talk here some days.
I feel no love, no care and constantly like I shouldn't talk.

If I'm not already banned from the group I'll be back in a month. I'm just done hiding shit when it makes me feel alienated.