Sorry

Sorry if i am talking too much i thought i should make a pastebin like dream or something so i would have more room.
I dont expect you to forgive me for what i have said to you. i am sorry. what i did was wrong and i should have thought better its just i thought it was okay to say some things because of my race or sexuailty, it just makes me feel unwelcome into the commuinty. i dont think people know i am black or pansexual omnisexual aromatic asexual. it hurts, it really does knowing the people around you will disapear one day and the ones who stay around dont like you, the death of 80% of my family stuck with me these past years, I take 2mg of Xanax pills every meal. It is a painful thing for me to remember, sometimes i wake up with cold sweats screaming because i had a nightmare of when one of the north sudan soldiers took my grandfather and started beheading him infront of me. i know how patheitici this sounds to you but this server is the only thing that keeps me happy and makes me forget about the things that happend its like bliss everytime i open up the server and the bubble sound effect play when i spawn in, i think 2 monthes we're too harsh on me, now you know my side of the story.