[Droki]: also, maybe don't pressure alyria into giving you secondhand accounts of me venting frustrated
[Droki]: and just ask me why i'm so angry
[Droki]: i've been angry all expansion cus i've felt like you were a jerk to me
To [Droki]: eventually if I dont agree with you, which is gonna be most of the fucking time
To [Droki]: you gotta learn to let it go
[Droki]: i've been frustrated because key showed up, and I never ever ever wanted him, and i feel like he completely disregards us.
[Droki]: and i have made an active effort to get along with him
[Droki]: stop
[Droki]: before you type
To [Droki]: no
[Droki]: you're about to
[Droki]: one sec
[Droki]: please
To [Droki]: you dont know
To [Droki]: ok
To [Droki]: t ype
[Droki]: last night
[Droki]: i said something about to key okay
[Droki]: i was like, can we not call wipes there, we're 380, we can push through stuff
[Droki]: okay
[Droki]: just bear with me for a sec
[Droki]: before you respond pls
To [Droki]: ok
To [Droki]: you have the floor
To [Droki]: (also gul's PC should arrive tuesday)
[Droki]: and key was like
To [Droki]: you should know that
[Droki]: we're going to wipe, i had no mana, it drops us to 20%
[Droki]: and i really really really made it an point (please not done, bear with me) to not say anything else until after the next pull about it
[Droki]: and he totally took my feedback, he tried it
[Droki]: which made me feel better, even tho we wiped and it WAS because of the adds
[Droki]: but
[Droki]: when i said "okay, well, we pushed through one add, but we definitely can't do two, that wrecked us" or something along those lines
[Droki]: instead of key saying something like
[Droki]: "yeah maybe sometimes we can push through one add" or anything or even acknowledging that he had tried to run with my feedback or anything like that
[Droki]: he said "i was oom after first add, and the tanks died to it"
To [Droki]: lemme know when I can talk on this one
[Droki]: and i was so internally angry, cus i knew that was such a stupid fucking copout, like, dude, can you not admit you're wrong even when it's something inconsequential that no one cares about? like my idea was wrong and we DID wipe to adds
[Droki]: but no, tanks did not die to that first add, and they did live, for 9% more, and then an add popped and we wiped so so sos os so hard, and we were CLEARLY behind because of the first add, and he was right, and maybe we can push through one in an emergency
[Droki]: but it's definitely not a good idea
To [Droki]: so you're mad at him for being right but with the wrong reasons
To [Droki]: ?
[Droki]: and i pointed out mana %s cus i knew they weren't oom and checked this time. okay but alriught NONE OF THAT MATTERS, he was right in the big pictures, adds bad idea
[Droki]: yes i wish he would just not be arrogant about it. he was right in the big picture but either misspoke or lied because he can't be wrong about even things that don't matter. i promise i'm almost done and then the floor is yours
To [Droki]: droki if you didnt make mountains out of molehills
To [Droki]: so goddamned often
[Droki]: and i decided i wasn't gonna say anything else about it
[Droki]: listen i promise
To [Droki]: dude you been promisng
[Droki]: i decided i wasn't gonna say anything else about it
To [Droki]: since fucking imonar
[Droki]: listen to this not that
To [Droki]: what the fuck does that
To [Droki]: even mean
[Droki]: not the other promise i mean i promie the floor wiull be yours
[Droki]: i'm so close to done
[Droki]: i just wanna explain this one thing ok
To [Droki]: oh ok
To [Droki]: yah
To [Droki]: sorry
[Droki]: i decided i didn't wanna say anything else about it and escalate it
[Droki]: i was just gonna back off and let it be cus i was annoyed but it wasn't a big deal, right
[Droki]: and then
[Droki]: you came in
[Droki]: and were like
[Droki]: are you still bitching jesus fuck?!
[Droki]: and i felt so fucking bad
[Droki]: and then key said something like "let me make calls plz" and i felt like everyone was suddenly ganging up on me when i had genuinely just been trying to help and not been trying to be combative at all
[Droki]: and had tried to avoid letting it escalate in any way
[Droki]: and i got frustrated and lashed out and said some bullshit about how he couldn't accept feedback and i wouldn't talk anymore
[Droki]: and then heav said something and i just refused to respond to it in /o. i whispered about it to her, but tried not to be combative there either but i felt like everyone was making out to be some crazy asshole who is trying to blow things up when i really
[Droki]: truly was just trying to say, hey key, can we try to push through stuff sometimes and not call every wipe so often, and see if we can survive some of the mistakes?
[Droki]: and it just blew up in my face and i felt so fucking bad
[Droki]: and that is what happened last night
[Droki]: ok the floor is yours tell me what you will
To [Droki]: you kinda beat up on me
To [Droki]: i need notes
[Droki]: tldr
[Droki]: i was trying to say hey key can we not wipe so fast sometimes and see if we can survive
[Droki]: it started escalating between me and key
[Droki]: i tried to de-escalate
[Droki]: you showed up, not knowing that, and escalated
[Droki]: i lashed out, immaturely, in response
[Droki]: then retreated and stewed in rage the rest of the night.
[Droki]: cliffnotes version. i genuinely just wanted to help
To [Droki]: you're not in a fucking vaccuum droki
[Droki]: i'm not blaming you
[Droki]: i'm just telling you how i felt
To [Droki]: neither am I
[Droki]: I need your help to fix this. Because as of last night, this was going to be permanently fine. I was going to try to talk to Key, and explain to him that I'm trying to offer suggestions or ask questions, not attack him, outside of raid time, which is why
[Droki]: I went out of my way last night to explain to him last night that I wasn't stepping on his toes on that last attempt.
To [Droki]: you realized that for the 2nd time in six months we held a vote to demote you right?
To [Droki]: you LOST the first one
To [Droki]: I fucking pulled a veto
To [Droki]: you WON last night
To [Droki]: but ffs
To [Droki]: then aly was being iffy and I bullied her
[Droki]: But I logged in banned from my own discord and gkicked.
To [Droki]: and goddamned dude
To [Droki]: I was 11 minutes laste
To [Droki]: late
To [Droki]: 11
To [Droki]: I wanted
To [Droki]: I desperately wanted
To [Droki]: to have this talk with you while I did it
To [Droki]: it's why I didnt block you
[Droki]: Bobble, fix it.
To [Droki]: that's not my style
To [Droki]: me?
To [Droki]: droki
To [Droki]: you have a year
To [Droki]: of being a pendulum swinging sack of dickhead
[Droki]: Bobble. The officers voted not to demote me for a reason.
To [Droki]: yah
To [Droki]: then you wanted to kick my ass
To [Droki]: dude
To [Droki]: wtf do I say
To [Droki]: how do I let that shit slide?
To [Droki]: if you say that to atris
To [Droki]: what do I have to do?
To [Droki]: instantly
To [Droki]: ?
To [Droki]: you fucked me dude
[Droki]: You stop bullying Aly and forcing her to give up confidentiality if I vent to her that i'm so frustrated with how mean you've been to me in BFA.
[Droki]: Nobody fucked you. Stop that.
[Droki]: Stop being mean to me. I'll talk to you, and we'll avoid this communication breakdown nonsense.
To [Droki]: I'm also not fucking mean to you droki
[Droki]: Well I feel like you're mean to me. So next time you are, I'll tell you, and let you be the judge.
To [Droki]: yeah but see
To [Droki]: I'm already the judge
[Droki]: Stop it.
To [Droki]: You have had
To [Droki]: an EXCEPTIONAL
To [Droki]: amount of latitude
To [Droki]: like
To [Droki]: ffs
To [Droki]: nobody would have gotten away with this
To [Droki]: I should have kicked you the night you got stupid with aly and told her her words didnt mean anything
[Droki]: Bobble, just put me back in and promote me and fix it. You want everything to be right? You want us to succeed? I'll put in the work.
To [Droki]: You'll not be an officer
[Droki]: You KNOW that was a total misunderstanding
To [Droki]: that's not happening
To [Droki]: maybe it was
[Droki]: You KNOW that I was telling her that I didn't know what her words meant.
To [Droki]: but it was emotionally charged
To [Droki]: wihich is the problem
To [Droki]: with every comment you make
[Droki]: Bobble, the officers voted not to demote me.
[Droki]: Make me an officer and fix it.
To [Droki]: no they voted not to kick you cause i typed it wrong
To [Droki]: key wanted to demote, not kick
[Droki]: Now you're backpedalling
[Droki]: And I 100% don't believe you.
To [Droki]: ok wait
To [Droki]: i'll shwo you
[Droki]: I was here long before Key.
To [Droki]: the only wishy washy shit
To [Droki]: was key
To [Droki]: here
[Droki]: And have done far more than him.
[Droki]: For this guild.
To [Droki]: [http://prntscr.com/lv6kuo]
To [Droki]: not a back pedal
To [Droki]: just trying to be transparent
To [Droki]: there was a miscommunication in voting
[Droki]: Bobble I've done more for this guild than Key ever has.
To [Droki]: I
To [Droki]: dont
To [Droki]: care
To [Droki]: you get that right?
[Droki]: How can you not? I literally just spent $400 on the computer for one of our raiders.
To [Droki]: nobody has had me woken up while away at work
[Droki]: I put in  my time and hours.
To [Droki]: because they were being a dick
To [Droki]: nobody
To [Droki]: has bullied
To [Droki]: fucking zemo
To [Droki]: FUCKING ZEMO DROKI
[Droki]: I donate, I farm, I have made feasts for a year, I show and contribute.
To [Droki]: to the point of being aggressive
[Droki]: I work with people on their DPS.
To [Droki]: ever
To [Droki]: but you
[Droki]: Key bullied Zemo
[Droki]: and I stood up to him over it.
To [Droki]: what? when
To [Droki]: I remember you
[Droki]: The first week of BFA>
To [Droki]: calling zemo a fucking idiot
To [Droki]: because he preferred fury
[Droki]: The first week.
To [Droki]: a
To [Droki]: FUCKING IDIOT
[Droki]: Zemo and I get along.
To [Droki]: now
To [Droki]: you pretend you didnt bully that kid before he spiked you parse
To [Droki]: and i swear to fucking god
To [Droki]: im done with you
To [Droki]: you were an absolute ass to him that day
[Droki]: I go out of my way not to bully anyone. I said something in discord the other night and I was 100% joking and you told me I was being an asshole and I immediately apologized to Kirah because I didn't realize what I said would be taken as like yelling and
[Droki]: not joking
To [Droki]: I dont even know what kirah sounds like
To [Droki]: idk man
To [Droki]: im angry with you
[Droki]: No Zemo 100% got me back on that parse. I was totally mean about fury and he got me and i was steaming made about coven for like a week over it, and now I don't care about it and we're friends
To [Droki]: let it be
To [Droki]: you're not gonna convince me i'm wrong
To [Droki]: I just need to think
[Droki]: I don't need to convince you I'm wrong, I need my fucking guild back.
To [Droki]: then stop
To [Droki]: fucking
To [Droki]: poisoning it
To [Droki]: you're a leader droki
To [Droki]: people look up to you
[Droki]: Then stop making everything I say feel like I'm in a fight
To [Droki]: goddamn it listen to me
[Droki]: You took my leadership away.
[Droki]: You jsut said you did
To [Droki]: give me the respect I showed you
[Droki]: Give it back and I'll fix everything.
To [Droki]: and let me finish
To [Droki]: You're a strong personality
To [Droki]: you're gifted
To [Droki]: you're a great but selfish player
To [Droki]: you're hungry and competitive
To [Droki]: none are exactly bad things
To [Droki]: but dont think when you get mad because of some dumb shit
To [Droki]: it doesnt ripple through the guild
To [Droki]: because of the same reasons you're strong
[Droki]: So I won't. I made a decision last night and I told you what I would do, and you threw a panic instead and I logged in gkicked with not a word to me
To [Droki]: but ffs
To [Droki]: it's a year
To [Droki]: it's been
To [Droki]: a long time
To [Droki]: cuase you'd logged off
To [Droki]: i wanted you on for it
To [Droki]: I missed it by 11 mins
[Droki]: I got so fucking frustrated last night, and realized a lot of what I say has been taken into some kind of combative context, and I can make things better but I need to speak less often and slowly and work to improve things
[Droki]: And decided to do something about it
To [Droki]: you need to realize when people are in the middle
[Droki]: And I logged in to this fucking mess
To [Droki]: of fucking leading 20 people
To [Droki]: they may not have the facilities to respond
To [Droki]: to an ansinine response about an early wipe
[Droki]: What did I just say tho?
To [Droki]: much less entertain a 20 minute wipe
To [Droki]: I dont care
To [Droki]: what you JUST said
To [Droki]: dude
To [Droki]: this is a LONG time coming
To [Droki]: just
To [Droki]: just let it be
To [Droki]: for now
To [Droki]: please
[Droki]: That I would speak less oftena nd slowly and work to improve things was what I decided last night. That's the decision I made, 100%, not to bring shit up in the middle of a 20man raid about asinine things
[Droki]: Like we're saying the same shit
To [Droki]: yeah
To [Droki]: just let it sit
To [Droki]: k?
[Droki]: No.
To [Droki]: well fine then
To [Droki]: no
[Droki]: I'm not letting you just take away my friends and my guild like that
[Droki]: Please fix it.
To [Droki]: you fucking broke it droki
[Droki]: I didn't break anything.
[Droki]: You and me failing to communicate as a team broke some shit.
[Droki]: The guild is fine.
To [Droki]: and they are still
To [Droki]: your friends
To [Droki]: fuck IM still your friend
To [Droki]: just goddamn it I dont want to be your guildie for a while
[Droki]: No you're not. You removed me from btag
[Droki]: I don't care if you don't want to be my guildie, I want to be with the rest of my guild
[Droki]: And it's about a lot more than you.
[Droki]: And if you can't realize that, you're not fit to be GM
To [Droki]: then you should have acted right LAST time we talked about it
To [Droki]: then find a new guild i guess
To [Droki]: I just told you to let it sit a bit and I'm unfit
To [Droki]: gg I guess
To [Droki]: now threaten to beat me up IRL /yawn
[Droki]: If you think it's exclusively about you
[Droki]: And not anyone else
To [Droki]: droki
To [Droki]: I've rebuilt this
[Droki]: I don't see how you can a good leader
To [Droki]: enough times
To [Droki]: I dont care
To [Droki]: we'll be fine
To [Droki]: honestly I dont want you to fail
To [Droki]: I just want you away from me for a while at least