< [01:04] [Nolsonn#1219] Now my friend is getting super mad at me because i drank
< [01:04] [Nolsonn#1219] jesuschrist
< [01:04] [Nolsonn#1219] fuck this day
> [01:04] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] who
< [01:04] [Nolsonn#1219] Jimmymotanu
< [01:05] [Nolsonn#1219] Idk, look.
< [01:05] [Nolsonn#1219] I've been going through a lot lately.
< [01:05] [Nolsonn#1219] I've lost my best friends, my partner who I have a kid with
< [01:05] [Nolsonn#1219] Fabian/Noxygen did a suicide attempt
< [01:05] [Nolsonn#1219] I lost my discord with my messages with my DEAD friend
< [01:05] [Nolsonn#1219] I fucking had shit happen all in a row
< [01:05] [Nolsonn#1219] in the same money
< [01:06] [Nolsonn#1219] month*
< [01:06] [Nolsonn#1219] and then i started drinking again
> [01:06] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] sos top it
< [01:06] [Nolsonn#1219] because i got extremely depressed and i wanted to literally
< [01:06] [Nolsonn#1219] kill myself
> [01:06] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] your fucking kidding
< [01:06] [Nolsonn#1219] and well, Jimmymotanu has been starving himself
> [01:06] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I can understand that those things are incredibly hard to get
> [01:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] you are just following them and it isn't the way that you want
> [01:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] it isn't the way that you will be
< [01:07] [Nolsonn#1219] and since he was starving himself
< [01:07] [Nolsonn#1219] i said okay
< [01:07] [Nolsonn#1219] if you think thats good
< [01:07] [Nolsonn#1219] then my drinking is good too
< [01:07] [Nolsonn#1219] by that logic
< [01:07] [Nolsonn#1219] because starving yourself
< [01:07] [Nolsonn#1219] is terrible
> [01:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] okay
> [01:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] now
> [01:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] is it real ?
> [01:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] is alcohol makes you good ?
< [01:07] [Nolsonn#1219] and then he practically did this shit of
< [01:08] [Nolsonn#1219] YEAH IT DOES
> [01:08] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] no
> [01:08] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] it doesn't
< [01:08] [Nolsonn#1219] i literally cry every goddamn day dude
> [01:08] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] it does but all in your brain
< [01:08] [Nolsonn#1219] yes and thats at the moment enough for me
> [01:08] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] ok so
< [01:08] [Nolsonn#1219] i just made this deal with jimmymotanu
< [01:08] [Nolsonn#1219] that if he starves himself i will drink
< [01:09] [Nolsonn#1219] and well, i drank at the pub because my family wanted to celebrate
> [01:09] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] are you 24 years or 12 years ?
< [01:09] [Nolsonn#1219] ... im 21
> [01:09] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] ok
> [01:09] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] in your brain you are 7
< [01:09] [Nolsonn#1219] okay
< [01:09] [Nolsonn#1219] i appreciate it
> [01:09] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] you need this
> [01:09] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] because of you just make me upset
> [01:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] your just following a man who doesn't care about his life
> [01:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] and you ?
> [01:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] you are saying if you drink i drink
> [01:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] with alcohol
> [01:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] your just skipping it
> [01:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] and it isn't good for you
> [01:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] fight against it
> [01:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] with dignity
> [01:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] not with a thing that makes you ''good''
> [01:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] your just making your brain good
> [01:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] think about some guy and girl who tried to suicide themselvs
> [01:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Noxygen
> [01:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Ponz
> [01:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] you maybe
> [01:12] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] if imake that fucking speech
> [01:12] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] it's just to bring back the real stuckerrs
> [01:12] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] who is funny
> [01:12] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] not the one who is just drinking and drinking and drinking
> [01:12] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] and pissing off her problems
> [01:12] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] that's it.
> [01:13] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] if you don't care about my speech
> [01:13] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] so follow Jimmy
> [01:13] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] and have fun
> [01:13] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] and i'm pretty sure that you are understanding
> [01:13] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] and you know that i'm true
> [01:14] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] i'm maybe younger than you (19 for information)
> [01:14] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] but that's not a real problem when a REAL FRIEND of me is trying to be one of those guy and girls who is drinking drinking and drinking
> [01:14] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] thank ya.
< [01:15] [Nolsonn#1219] Look. I'm dealing with actual problems here.
< [01:15] [Nolsonn#1219] Not just my drinking habit.
< [01:15] [Nolsonn#1219] All I'm doing is using my drinking to get through the day.
< [01:16] [Nolsonn#1219] Because I genuinely cannot.
> [01:16] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I know
> [01:16] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And I bring it to the table
> [01:16] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] That is not a good idea to
> [01:16] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] All of your problems
< [01:16] [Nolsonn#1219] I lay in bed, I cry, I hate myself, I sleep more, I wake up, cry, have dinner, go back to bed x200
< [01:16] [Nolsonn#1219] I drink so I'm actually capable of something right now.
> [01:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Yeha
> [01:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Because of stupid things that you are doing with
> [01:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Alcohol
> [01:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay your doing better
> [01:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] But as long as the time is going
> [01:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You will be more bad
> [01:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] more bad
> [01:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] and more bad
> [01:18] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And who is gonna be bad
> [01:18] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Me
> [01:18] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] your friends
> [01:18] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] family
> [01:18] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm just helping you
> [01:18] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm not a demon I think
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I just want you to get better
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And better
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So now
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You will just stop it
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Drinking
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And go out with some friend
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] or alone
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If you want
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Drink some soda
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Water
> [01:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] NOT ALCOHOL
< [01:20] [Nolsonn#1219] I just celebrated with my parents I'm moving out.
< [01:20] [Nolsonn#1219] That's all I did today.
> [01:20] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I you do what I want you to do
> [01:20] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I will feel myself as good as possible because I helped a girl that I love
> [01:20] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Pass some time with
> [01:20] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Funny moment
> [01:21] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Or hangry moment
> [01:21] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If you won't just hear me
> [01:21] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Then do whatever you want
> [01:21] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] But you can't tell me after that
> [01:22] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] That I made anything for you
> [01:22] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If you need help
> [01:22] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Or just talk
> [01:22] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm there
> [01:22] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And if you don't care
> [01:22] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Then yeah do whatever you want with alcohol
> [01:24] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] See
> [01:24] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] What alcohol is bring to you
> [01:25] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] bringing*
> [01:25] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Thank ya.
< [01:25] [Nolsonn#1219] :/ Look, as much as you have a point and it's true
< [01:26] [Nolsonn#1219] I don't think you understand how much harder it is to do this than it is to just say that I'll stop.
> [01:29] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] SO
> [01:29] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] The best way to stop
> [01:29] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Is to go out
< [01:29] [Nolsonn#1219] I did.
> [01:29] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Have fun moment
< [01:29] [Nolsonn#1219] I went out.
< [01:29] [Nolsonn#1219] To the pub.
> [01:29] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Now ?
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] No.
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] It's 1:30 am
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] lol
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] i cant just go out right now
> [01:30] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So tomorro
> [01:30] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You will
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] My town has nothing fun.
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] I live in the middle of nowhere
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] at a place called Oudebildtdijk
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] where old people come
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] for silence
> [01:30] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And that's what you need
< [01:30] [Nolsonn#1219] i never had friends at this area
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Just walk up
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] WIth silence
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] In a forest
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If you have
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Or in the town
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] It is good
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Really
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] For a girl who is stoping to drink
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] It's perfect
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Even if you don't have fun
> [01:31] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Just do it
< [01:31] [Nolsonn#1219] I would literally come home and drink again though?
> [01:32] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I don't care
> [01:32] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If you do that
> [01:32] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] It's just that you are not listening me
< [01:32] [Nolsonn#1219] It's easier said than done
> [01:32] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay
> [01:32] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Proove me that you can
< [01:32] [Nolsonn#1219] I can't.
> [01:32] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay
> [01:32] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You can't
> [01:32] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Or you won't ?
< [01:32] [Nolsonn#1219] I literally can't.
> [01:32] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay
> [01:33] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Then do whatever you want
< [01:33] [Nolsonn#1219] I just can't.
> [01:33] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And have just fun
> [01:33] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] In your town
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> [01:33] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] With that shit who is named alcohol
< [01:33] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm sorry.
> [01:33] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] No you are not
> [01:33] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You really can do that
< [01:33] [Nolsonn#1219] I am. I'm just not strong enough at the moment.
> [01:33] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] With experience
> [01:34] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Of course you are
< [01:34] [Nolsonn#1219] I don't have that fight in me anymore.
> [01:34] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Alcohol is talking
< [01:34] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm a 2 times rehab visitor.
> [01:34] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Not Stuckerrs
< [01:34] [Nolsonn#1219] And I've been addicted to alcohol 4 times already.
< [01:34] [Nolsonn#1219] I constantly return to it.
> [01:34] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Yeah
< [01:34] [Nolsonn#1219] And always have.
> [01:34] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You have experience
> [01:34] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And you does it 3 times
> [01:35] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So you know you can
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> [01:35] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Your just saying that you can't because of it
> [01:35] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] 1 time you did
> [01:35] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] 2 times you did
> [01:35] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] 3 times you did
> [01:35] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] why not 4
< [01:35] [Nolsonn#1219] ... This is the 5th time.
> [01:35] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Proove to yourself that you are fighting for
> [01:35] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] don't care about how many ties
> [01:35] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So now
> [01:36] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Last time
> [01:36] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You can't or you won't ?
> [01:36] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Tell me
< [01:36] [Nolsonn#1219] Nolsonn. If you knew the whole picture of me you'd understand how much harder this all is.
< [01:36] [Nolsonn#1219] There's so much shit you're missing about me.
< [01:36] [Nolsonn#1219] That you dont know.
> [01:36] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] That's why i'm there for you
> [01:37] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Because I don't know a thing about you IRL
> [01:37] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] But
> [01:37] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You are a good person
> [01:37] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And I know it
> [01:37] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And YOU know
> [01:37] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] That you can fight
< [01:37] [Nolsonn#1219] I've fought since I was a little kid against this shit already.
< [01:37] [Nolsonn#1219] I genuinely at the moment
> [01:37] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You alright with the thing that I don't know a big part of you
< [01:37] [Nolsonn#1219] am just a bit tired of fighting and want to have a moment of rest.
< [01:37] [Nolsonn#1219] I want to just relax it out
< [01:37] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm genuinely really exhausted.
< [01:38] [Nolsonn#1219] I just need a break.
< [01:38] [Nolsonn#1219] I need a break from fighting man.
> [01:38] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] It isn't a break
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> [01:38] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You are just openning a door who is named ''Hell''
> [01:38] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] SO now
> [01:38] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I said last time
> [01:38] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You can't or you won't ?
< [01:39] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm sorry.
< [01:39] [Nolsonn#1219] :/
> [01:39] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay
> [01:39] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] There's no problem Stu
< [01:39] [Nolsonn#1219] I really am sorry.
< [01:39] [Nolsonn#1219] I said it a thousand times to Jimmy too.
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Is Jimmy you ?
< [01:40] [Nolsonn#1219] No.
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Is Jimmy deciding in your place
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Actually
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Tell me
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Who has the control
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Jimmy or you
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Not Jimmy
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Not you
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] alcohol
> [01:40] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Here
< [01:40] [Nolsonn#1219] Ugh, Jimmy and me just had the deal that as long as Jimmy doesnt starve himself
< [01:40] [Nolsonn#1219] then i wont drink
< [01:40] [Nolsonn#1219] and I broke that deal.
< [01:41] [Nolsonn#1219] Because I have no control over my alcoholic issues at all
> [01:41] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] SO
> [01:41] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] WHAT HAPPENNED HERE
> [01:41] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Why is it a ''deal''
> [01:41] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] To drink if he is drinking
< [01:41] [Nolsonn#1219] He tried to make me stop as well.
< [01:41] [Nolsonn#1219] no, he's not drinking
< [01:41] [Nolsonn#1219] he was starving himself
< [01:41] [Nolsonn#1219] he didnt eat at all
< [01:41] [Nolsonn#1219] he didnt take care of himself at all
< [01:41] [Nolsonn#1219] and i wanted him to stop that
> [01:42] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Where you here for him ?
< [01:42] [Nolsonn#1219] and he would stop
> [01:42] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay
< [01:42] [Nolsonn#1219] as long as i didnt drink
< [01:42] [Nolsonn#1219] and now hes mad at me
> [01:42] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And now
> [01:42] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You are actually in the same spot
> [01:42] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Just you are in the place of Jimmy
> [01:42] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And i'm in your place
> [01:42] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm trying to tell you that it is not a good idea
> [01:42] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] To drink
> [01:42] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Just i don't know you IRL
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] That's what you can bring in the table
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And that's true
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] But if there's a girl or a man who isn't good
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And she or he is my friend
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Then i'm here for them
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Anyhow
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Anyway
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I can help
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm there
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Last last last time
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You can't
> [01:43] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Or you won't ?
< [01:45] [Nolsonn#1219] ... nolsonn.
< [01:45] [Nolsonn#1219] I really appreciate it.
< [01:45] [Nolsonn#1219] But I really can't do it.
> [01:45] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay.
> [01:46] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You know what
> [01:46] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I think that's it beetwen us
< [01:46] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm seriously sorry.
< [01:46] [Nolsonn#1219] :/
> [01:47] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I had fun when a person named Stuckerrs connected and play with me
> [01:47] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] At this game
< [01:47] [Nolsonn#1219] Man... I've been drinking now for a month.
< [01:47] [Nolsonn#1219] And you just now noticed.
< [01:47] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm still the same person.
< [01:47] [Nolsonn#1219] I never changed.
> [01:48] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] See
> [01:48] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] With that shitty thing
> [01:48] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Named alcohol
> [01:48] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] That you just left another friend
> [01:48] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And no it isn't the real Stuckerrs who is talking to me
> [01:48] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] The one who was funny
> [01:49] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] The one with who I can say whatever I want
< [01:49] [Nolsonn#1219] This isn't helping me get sober Nolsonn.
> [01:50] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I just want you to know
< [01:50] [Nolsonn#1219] I can't just stop drinking when I have nobody left anymore.
< [01:50] [Nolsonn#1219] When everyone left me.
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So
< [01:51] [Nolsonn#1219] When everyone is disappointed at all my failures.
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Why everyone left you
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Tell me why
< [01:51] [Nolsonn#1219] It's not related to my drinking at all.
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] They are just doing that just for you
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] ALL FOR YOU
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] They want you to get better
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And have fun
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Is that a life
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] To drink ?
> [01:51] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] No it isn't
< [01:52] [Nolsonn#1219] So they make me depressed by making me lose all my friends?
< [01:52] [Nolsonn#1219] I don't think that's a way to quit drinking
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Of course it is
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Because you ''can't'' do anything
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If you won't
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If could be really good
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Because you can
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] But you won't
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] With future
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> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You will want
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] But if you say
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] That you can't
> [01:52] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Anything can happen
> [01:53] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Anything
> [01:53] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And you know that the problem is drinking
> [01:53] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I asked you 3 times
> [01:53] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If you can't
> [01:53] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Or you won't
> [01:53] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You answered 3 times the same
> [01:53] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So
> [01:53] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] What can I do now for you
> [01:54] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If I do that
> [01:54] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] It's for you
> [01:54] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Because you are one of the best person in the world
> [01:54] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Making everyone happy
> [01:54] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And funny
< [01:54] [Nolsonn#1219] And you're leaving that person.
> [01:54] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I am not
< [01:54] [Nolsonn#1219] When she's struggling.
< [01:54] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay.
> [01:54] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Look at how many messages
> [01:54] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] From me
> [01:55] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Do you really think I am leaving ,
> [01:55] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] ?
< [01:55] [Nolsonn#1219] Yes.
> [01:55] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay
> [01:55] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Nevermind
< [01:55] [Nolsonn#1219] > [01:46] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You know what> [01:46] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I think that's it beetwen us
> [01:55] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Yup
< [01:55] [Nolsonn#1219] > [01:48] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] With that shitty thing> [01:48] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Named alcohol> [01:48] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] That you just left another friend
< [01:55] [Nolsonn#1219] Yeah, I did lose you.
> [01:56] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Yeah you did
> [01:56] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Now
> [01:56] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Look at how many moment that I tried to convince
< [01:56] [Nolsonn#1219] ... I know.
> [01:57] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And what is the answer for ?
> [01:57] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I can't
> [01:57] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] No, you can
> [01:57] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Your meaning you can
> [01:57] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I know
> [01:57] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Because you already leave alcohol
> [01:57] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] 4 times
> [01:57] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And 5th times will happen
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm just giving you my energy
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And same if you lose me
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I know that you will stop it
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] But then
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You lose me yeah
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] All because of one word
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And it's actually destroying you
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So now
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] It's on me to say
> [01:58] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm sorry.
< [01:59] [Nolsonn#1219] That's it? You just leave me just like that?
< [01:59] [Nolsonn#1219] Because I open up and tell you that I have a drinking problem?
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< [01:59] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay.
> [02:02] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You are kidding
> [02:02] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I hope you are kidding
< [02:03] [Nolsonn#1219] You tell me I can go to you for my problems, my issues
< [02:03] [Nolsonn#1219] And I do.
< [02:03] [Nolsonn#1219] And then this happens.
> [02:03] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Yeah
> [02:03] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I did help you
> [02:03] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I wanted
> [02:03] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I did
> [02:03] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And what happens
> [02:03] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] If I help you
> [02:03] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I can't
> [02:03] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Want's more ?
> [02:03] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm sorry
< [02:04] [Nolsonn#1219] Some people just need some support, since they're getting barely.
< [02:04] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm leaving.
> [02:04] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Leaving what
< [02:04] [Nolsonn#1219] Be my friend, or not.
< [02:05] [Nolsonn#1219] I don't know.
< [02:05] [Nolsonn#1219] I didn't mean to cause any harm.
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> [02:05] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I will
> [02:05] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I am
> [02:05] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And I were
> [02:05] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I am friend with Stuckerrs
> [02:05] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Not alcohol
> [02:06] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Not with a person who is telling for sure that she can't change
> [02:06] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] She can't go out of her problems
> [02:06] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Go out and walk is like leaving your firsts problems
> [02:06] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Because they are in your house
> [02:06] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Your new appartement is a real benefice
> [02:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And now
> [02:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Look at how many times that I helped Stuckerrs
> [02:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Can I ask a question ?
> [02:07] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You can't or you won't ?
> [02:08] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Oh no
> [02:08] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I have better
> [02:08] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Are you listening to me and wants to leave alcohol and problems
> [02:09] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Or do you prefer to be like that
< [02:09] [Nolsonn#1219] You wouldn't want to be my friend, if I'd tell you that right now I'd prefer drinking and dying.
> [02:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Okay
> [02:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So i'll follow you
> [02:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You'r not alone
> [02:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Let's drink
> [02:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Have fun
> [02:10] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm with you x)
> [02:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] In fact
> [02:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] You alright
> [02:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Alcohol is pretty good
> [02:11] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] To drink
> [02:16] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Ok nevermind
> [02:16] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] So
> [02:16] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm here
> [02:16] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] What is bringing alcohol to you ?
> [02:16] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] Tell me
< [02:16] [Nolsonn#1219] Nolsonn. I really need a little break.
< [02:16] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm going to just lay down.
< [02:16] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm sorry. I'm just dealing with a lot at the moment.
> [02:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I understand
> [02:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I just want you to know that i'm here
> [02:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] But if you want to drink
> [02:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] DOn't drink a lot
> [02:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] PLEASE
> [02:17] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I'm asking that for you
< [02:17] [Nolsonn#1219] I try.
> [02:18] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I love that
> [02:18] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] I try
> [02:18] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] It seems that you can
> [02:19] [it] [Nolsonn#1219] And i love that

@Jimmymotanu#0000
> [01:20] [e2] [Jimmymotanu#0000] are you actually telling him
> [01:22] [e2] [Jimmymotanu#0000] oi
> [01:23] [e2] [Jimmymotanu#0000] you're actually taking the absolute piss now
> [01:23] [e2] [Jimmymotanu#0000] if you're telling him all these
> [01:24] [e2] [Jimmymotanu#0000] how about i expose all these shits about you to someone completely irrelevant
> [02:11] [e2] [Jimmymotanu#0000] unlock pls