Shinko01/12/2018
Am sorry for lying to you Nika
Christina... Was my ex girlfriend
I..
Hmm
Nikachilla01/12/2018
(I’ll let you talk) and talk after
Shinko01/12/2018
I can't
Best Girl01/12/2018
you can do it
Nikachilla01/12/2018
just take it slowly
Shinko01/12/2018
It's just
Stupid
It's so stupid
I LIED TO YOU DAMMIT
Nikachilla01/12/2018
Moe it’s ok
Shinko01/12/2018
It's not
Nikachilla01/12/2018
look, yes lying is bad, but do you see me getting mad?
Shinko01/12/2018
For what purpose
Huh
NOTHING
Why did I lie to begin with
Because of some dumb shit between me and her
Moezilla is the name from katzilla her name and my username Moega
She joined cfa
In the summer of 2014 I think
Joined Team Cat Circus
Because KATzilla
Really liked cats
Wow such a revelation
And she was harassed
Dance naked or jai being jai
Weird shit these people would say
And me being me
Would want to go up and kick their ass
She'd vent about things bla bla
Told me it's not easy to be a female on the internet
So I told her ill take her place and fix all of this and prove her wrong
3 months later after moezilla left
She returned
That was me
Where I started to be in her shoes and see the struggles and fix things my way
It was hard lying
I think I'm good at it say what you want
I managed this
But uh
First guy I met was CFJust
Or as you know Jerry
He was super depressive and what not etc
I helped him out immensely and we got into great friends in a month
I turned his life around or so he says
Made me really happy
I wanted to get him a birthday gift on the second month
He said he only likes the trust and friendship
That's when the guilt start to hit me
And I'm like...
What do I do here
So I told him everything
I had no responsibilities and I changed someone's life so why not
He got me into CSGO and still talks to me to this day
I was really happy I did that
Then I told kat or well, her real name is Christina
That, hey, this this
And she was happy. Envious I always manage to one up and do things for the better
But ultimately really happy
And she told me all about cfa community
And I made it my duty to help fix or cure things here
I'd be disgusted and annoyed by harassment of moderators
They do it for free, yet you give them shit
That's when I met cherry
The most active outgoing moderator who apparently liked me
And Jerry told me all about her
I spent time and everything then she asked if I wanted to be a moderator
At this time my goals changed
My number 1 priority shifted to helping her then changing community
I didn't tolerate and harassment towards her
So before i was gonna accept it I told her my thing
Again not really famous and nobody cares
I asked for help and advice all the time you know
She said it's ok to go with this lie. It's not a big deal
To this day she says the same thing Everytime I get guilty or feel like destroyed from lying about this one thing
That even if I told everyone it wouldn't matter
They like me for who I am apparently
So I went with the lie thinking it was harmless
I didn't plan on being in cfa for so long mind you
Then within 4 months of being a mod
I turned into some goddess apparently
That's where I got stuck with obligations and people after people to look after
I doubt this was Christina's point
This amount of popularity or attention is what I'd say
The most extreme
But here I was day by day more and more people
I'd tell you so many times I wanna quit cfa
Just because I was always one TINY STEP AWAY
From liking this place
And it was my own fault
And you
You
Treat me like some saint
I taught you so much
Yet I lied to you
You wanna meet me? Of course I would want to meet one of the coolest chicks I've met
Annoying stupid
Yet
How CAN I
I just
Ugh
Nikachilla01/12/2018
well I would still love to meet you
Shinko01/12/2018
I'm sorry
Nikachilla01/12/2018
it’s ok
I’m not mad
I’m happy you told me
Shinko01/12/2018
I always tried to
So many times
Nikachilla01/12/2018
Happy that you finally got the courage
yeah I can tell
Shinko01/12/2018
I kept trying to hint you
Nikachilla01/12/2018
can I ask a weird question tho
Shinko01/12/2018
Yeah anything...
Nikachilla01/12/2018
ok this might be really sudden and really bad timing but I can’t tell
Best Girl01/12/2018
the 40000 questions begin :eyes:
Nikachilla01/12/2018
are you a guy or a girl lol...
Best Girl01/12/2018
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