WaxnellToday at 11:30 PM
I’m mental boom

PrismalToday at 11:30 PM
hwo come

WaxnellToday at 11:30 PM
Money and girls
And to a lesser extent. Body image and self esteem

PrismalToday at 11:31 PM
i think u have a lot of anxiety in general
that makes ur issues worse
and also causes ur issues to affect u a lot more

WaxnellToday at 11:31 PM
Yes

PrismalToday at 11:31 PM
even when i have a lot of things wrong

WaxnellToday at 11:31 PM
This is true

PrismalToday at 11:31 PM
how i handle it determines
how bad it is or becomes
in my brain
u just have to tackle that
and everything else becomes easier

WaxnellToday at 11:32 PM
I have had really bad anxiety lately

PrismalToday at 11:32 PM
u always do
everyone in our convo feels like ur like
a time bomb or something
in convo
like u get pissed off for no reason or u get really moody about something
or just angry in general
or

WaxnellToday at 11:32 PM
I’m sorry

PrismalToday at 11:32 PM
huh no i dont mind
ive known u for long enough

WaxnellToday at 11:32 PM
I’m a mess
:frowning:

PrismalToday at 11:32 PM
i mean i think the goal should be
conquering ur anxiety
with professional help
and if u dont have money or insurance for that then
thats the like
PRIMARY FOCUS
for u

WaxnellToday at 11:33 PM
Is your pfp
Tomioka

PrismalToday at 11:33 PM
because everything else is just a biproduct of ur anxiety
no its uh
giyu
from demon slayer

WaxnellToday at 11:33 PM
....

PrismalToday at 11:33 PM
im
not japanese
i dont refer to him by his surname

WaxnellToday at 11:33 PM
Lmao
You goob lol
Ok bright side
New job good
Not bright side. Won’t be working it long enough before rent comes
Gonna have to scramble for more moni

PrismalToday at 11:35 PM
i think ur brain is preventing u from finding
stability and inner peace
which carries over into ur life and affects it in a major way

WaxnellToday at 11:35 PM
My brain is retarded

PrismalToday at 11:35 PM
thats just my outside perspective though
i dont think so
i think u just have some chemical imbalances maybe or
some issues
that can be fixed
therapy is really op if ur therapist is good

WaxnellToday at 11:35 PM
Issues for sure

PrismalToday at 11:35 PM
but
ur like
crippling urself
by trying to
deal w it / ignore it on ur own
i dont think it something u can takcle
without help
for me my sports psychologist 1v9'd
but its hard to tackle mental stuff on ur own

WaxnellToday at 11:36 PM
I’d love one

PrismalToday at 11:36 PM
bc u cant
outbrain
ur own brain

WaxnellToday at 11:36 PM
It’s a money thing

PrismalToday at 11:36 PM
but now u have
something to work towards
and a goal
like
to get ur life together this is the first thing max must do

WaxnellToday at 11:37 PM
Money has been the problem for like
A while

PrismalToday at 11:37 PM
i dont think itll ever not be
unless ur like bill gates

WaxnellToday at 11:37 PM
Uh

PrismalToday at 11:37 PM
everyones strugglin financially in early 20s it seems

WaxnellToday at 11:37 PM
Not being paycheck to paycheck would be a good start

PrismalToday at 11:37 PM
yeah and that also causes lots of stress

WaxnellToday at 11:37 PM
I’m so like weh
I have
$63
I have
$800 in bills

PrismalToday at 11:38 PM
like this month?

WaxnellToday at 11:38 PM
Coming up in 10 days
Huh?

PrismalToday at 11:38 PM
bills as in like
due this month
but
u answered it
with ur next sentenc

WaxnellToday at 11:38 PM
Mhm
My last day of training is
Thursday

PrismalToday at 11:38 PM
u should talk to camron about ur situation

WaxnellToday at 11:38 PM
I make minimum wage untill then

PrismalToday at 11:38 PM
he wont help financially but hes in ur shoes
or been in them

WaxnellToday at 11:39 PM
And then I’ll make good money
I know what I have to do
Been here for the last 4 years lol

PrismalToday at 11:39 PM
its nice to have someone to talk to sometimes though
camrons a good lad

WaxnellToday at 11:39 PM
I mean I guess
I do like him

PrismalToday at 11:39 PM
one of my closer friends

WaxnellToday at 11:39 PM
Just don’t know him very well

PrismalToday at 11:39 PM
i just feel like ur too quick to write things off
or ur very like
opinionated

WaxnellToday at 11:39 PM
Yes

PrismalToday at 11:39 PM
that can be a turn off for people
i dont really mind it

WaxnellToday at 11:39 PM
I’ve always been like that. Is not intentional

PrismalToday at 11:40 PM
it just makes me anxious sometimes
when ur opinionated and angry

WaxnellToday at 11:40 PM
Yeah

PrismalToday at 11:40 PM
but other than that idm

WaxnellToday at 11:40 PM
I can understand that
Another thing which bothers me
Which isn’t helping with my self esteem
This gonna sound shitty
The logical part of me
Is super proud of you. And I’m really really happy you’re doing so well
It just feels like we swapped places
I used to be more in control I feel
And you used to be brain boom all the time
Now it’s swapped

PrismalToday at 11:41 PM
i think life is always like a rollercoaster and ur never totally in control
brain boom is always #1 priority
because even if ur life is 1v9
if ur mental bad it doesnt matter
so i put all my chips in the mental basket
and surrounded myself w positive people

WaxnellToday at 11:41 PM
Mhm

PrismalToday at 11:41 PM
its hard
i int myself
like
every other day still

WaxnellToday at 11:41 PM
It feels like

PrismalToday at 11:41 PM
but im happier with myself overall
bc i dont brain boom anymore
its just about understanding urself
and preventing urself from boomking

WaxnellToday at 11:42 PM
A huge portion of all the good stuff that could happen to me get yoinked away

PrismalToday at 11:42 PM
yeah i think thats just part of how ur life is rn
which u cant really control
i think it relates to league a little im ngl
its like

WaxnellToday at 11:42 PM
Super recently I had a jam session with two guys

PrismalToday at 11:42 PM
ur in silver and ur practicing good habits for when u get to diamond

WaxnellToday at 11:42 PM
Working on 2 of my songs
And we sounded awesome.
We talked about meeting up for another session and trying to record it