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- Laggish_ - Today at 10:59 PM
- i have stayed up til 12 the last three nights
- Luna - Today at 10:59 PM
- go on then what time is it
- oh wow what a trooper
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:00 PM
- ill just
- fucking
- go to bed
- Luna - Today at 11:00 PM
- truly marvelous effort
- ive stayed up till 8am just to be with people i loved or cared about
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:00 PM
- luna
- im going to sleep
- Luna - Today at 11:01 PM
- maybe im retarded for thinking anyone would do the same.
- enjoy your sleep and good luck finding a new whore even though knowing you youd find one immediately
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:02 PM
- im not going to enjoy my sleep
- i dont even know what the fuck im so mad about
- did you ever love me?
- did you want me around?
- do you enjoy talking to me?
- Luna - Today at 11:02 PM
- course i did.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:02 PM
- ive felt like nothing more than a bother everytime we've gotten emotional
- Luna - Today at 11:02 PM
- but what i feel never fucking matters in the end
- to anyone
- so im presented with two choices
- one, i rid myself
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:03 PM
- if what you felt didnt fucking matter to me then i wouldn't have asked
- if you meant nothing to me, i would have just closed the door in your face and let you leave
- you mean
- so fuckign much to me
- Luna - Today at 11:03 PM
- two, i turn into a cold emotionless husk of a human being.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:04 PM
- and you refuse to allow me to make that more clear
- im not romantic, im barely a flirt and im a horrible boyfriend
- Luna - Today at 11:04 PM
- which option do you think is more viable
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:04 PM
- i wanted nothing more than to make you feel royal and wanted
- Luna - Today at 11:04 PM
- one or two
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:04 PM
- im not picking either answer
- those arent the only possible solutions
- Luna - Today at 11:05 PM
- they are though.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:05 PM
- you have a warped sense of life and you only stare at the negative things in the eye and dont let the positive things into you
- Luna - Today at 11:05 PM
- ive ran through this multiple times.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:05 PM
- you choose to not make friends that want to help you, you don't let me try and raise your spirits
- you only insult yourself, you can't take compliments
- Luna - Today at 11:06 PM
- i take compliments when there's valid proof to them
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:06 PM
- there doesn't have to be valid proof
- if someone says im good at a game i dont need them to
- record me
- and analyze it
- Luna - Today at 11:06 PM
- to me there does
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:06 PM
- i just say, hey thanks
- even if it doesnt mean much to me
- think about how that reflects you to the person complimenting you
- literally 0 people on earth like saying someone is nice or sweet
- and hearing
- 'nah im shitty'
- Luna - Today at 11:07 PM
- i don't care. either prove that i am or don't try complimenting me.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:07 PM
- ok
- Luna - Today at 11:07 PM
- simple as that.
- because i have plenty of proof of being shitty
- none of being nice or sweet or caring or cute or fucking anything.
- eitherway surprise surprise you didn't choose either answer even though one involved me not dying
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:09 PM
- you dying or you being a completely cold husk with no emotions
- Luna - Today at 11:09 PM
- wonderful life i live.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:09 PM
- both of those are the worst possible outcomes
- every way i try helping people hasn't even scratched your surface tonight
- Luna - Today at 11:10 PM
- they are the only fucking outcomes
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:10 PM
- do you want me to keep trying
- do you even want me to just fuel your anger and hatred for yourself
- Luna - Today at 11:10 PM
- because these feelings
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:10 PM
- do you want me to just leave
- Luna - Today at 11:10 PM
- of depression i get
- i get them because i had positive ones in the first place
- i can never feel alone if i never felt coddled
- i can never be sad if i never felt happy
- i can never want to die if i never felt like being alive.
- i get hurt because i put feelings into people.
- constantly.
- and constantly, those same feelings come back to bite my ass.
- so what if i never put those feelings in people in the first place.
- its the only way i can guarantee i wont hurt again .
- either this or death.
- if you truly are unable to make a decision then
- just...never mind.
- enjoy your sleep, wouldn't want to keep you up further because God knows you're already pushing your limit being up at midnight.
- i gave you a chance to make a choice
- and just like everyone else. you dont use that chance.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:16 PM
- what the fuck ever luna
- god im so
- infuriated that you talk to me like this
- as if i never was your friend
- as if anything i've done has meant nothing to you
- i dont care if you think staying up til midnight is weak
- i have school, i have family and i have friends and i have responsibilities
- staying up this late just to try and help someone who refuses to let me help them
- and who wont even answer a simple question: what am i to you
- is fucking bat shit insane
- i dont know why im doing this
- you mean so much to me but god help me if you just sit here like a god damn brick wall and don't let you help me, do NOT expect me to help you. because it is draining my energy, my happiness, and makes me feel like a fucking awful friend
- i dont want you to end it
- i dont want you to be a walking corpse with no life
- you are a great fucking human being in my eyes and the only reason you refuse to accept that is because youre so clouded with negativity that you wont let me show you anything positive
- your ex boyfriend fucked you up, i get that
- but you
- you just
- sit on his ideals, his thoughts about you and his opinions about you
- you can't even think for a second
- this guy is a piece of fucking shit
- he abused me and made me feel horrible
- maybe
- his thoughts on me arent really true
- maybe
- im better than how he percieved me
- maybe
- people enjoy talking to me and want the best out of me because im a good person with a close knit circle of friends who just want to see me happy
- you have to open your eyes and let people who want to help you help you
- it is impossible to be happy on your own
- you cannot do shit like that alone
- Luna - Today at 11:20 PM
- except unlike you. and everyone else who tries pointing out something positive about me and has no evidence. he had evidence for everything negative.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:20 PM
- he made shit up and made you think everything was true
- its so easy to believe youre a worthless individual when you have tiny residual ideas of that in the back of your head
- Luna - Today at 11:21 PM
- he didnt make shit up.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:21 PM
- you've let it bog your mind up to the point where you cant even begin to fathom a good quality about yourself
- im
- not
- doing this
- Luna - Today at 11:21 PM
- id go into every minute detail
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:21 PM
- im getting water and going to bed
- im turning my phone off
- Luna - Today at 11:21 PM
- haha.
- giving up on me
- just like he did.
- go ahead then.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:22 PM
- I'll also teach you something else
- Apologies or not
- You don't compare your partner or whatever the fuck we are
- To someone else
- reminder of what you said
- dont fucking compare me to him
- Luna - Today at 11:22 PM
- dont be surprised when im not here tomorrow.
- feel free to turn your phone off now.
- im sure you'll feel great about doing so.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:23 PM
- youre sucha negative fucking woman no wonder i feel like a pile of garbage after all of this
- youve drained every ounce of energy out of me tonight
- im so
- stressed
- im pulling my hair out
- im sweaty
- i cant believe im making the same fucking mistakes i made before
- Luna - Today at 11:24 PM
- then don't.
- Laggish_ - Today at 11:24 PM
- im putting all of my attention love and care into a girl who doesnt want to take it
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