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- A high school full of delinquents, prone to judge.
- Fucked with every day of the week. Still hold a grudge.
- They said I had problems...like I was the only one.
- They said I'd shoot the school up. I didn't own a gun.
- My best friends were shooting heroin and smoking weed.
- Nodding off in class...At lunch, they'd go to sleep.
- Rolling deep, with drug addicts and goth kids
- with bad parents and hard lives. We took what we got, then.
- My mind was slipping. Spent the year crazy and not knowing.
- Broke down every month from no rest and fucked up serotonin.
- Got kicked out two times by two different people.
- One day, I'm my mom's world. The next day, I'm not her equal.
- Broke all the bottles left over from mom's drinking.
- My thoughts were killing me inside, so I stopped thinking.
- Shut down. Kept spacing out, without a heroin dose.
- I wanted out...but there was nowhere to go.
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- All moments, weak to me
- When nothing speaks to me. (One more)
- Surrounded by parasites
- And no friends to cherish life with
- No words are reaching me
- When nothing speaks to me anymore
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- At 18, I'd already dropped out and paid the price.
- Smartest in the class, but dumbest when it came to life.
- A life that fucked me raw without boots or a garter.
- Failed me like a lost cause, my mind was the martyr.
- I had tasted adulthood and wished it done.
- I was wasted. Not faded, but I wished I was.
- Tried to stay being a kid, when it was fun to be.
- I was done with childhood, but it wasn't done with me.
- I wasn't ready. Never recognized the world around me
- 'till I was shook for twenty minutes when my head was cloudy
- Saw life for what it was; a death trap
- filled with hatred and "White Men for Dead Blacks"
- The gears running, the machine headed to damnation,
- Run by slaves of old killers who damn nations
- for money, oil, commodities and profit.
- My revelation came, and I didn't stop to believe in the Prophet.
- Nobody's saving us. Only the Devil may care.
- Life's a Children's Hospital. Not a daycare.
- That was the night I realized I was on my own.
- Population of 7 million, but I'm all alone.
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- All moments, weak to me
- When nothing speaks to me. (One more)
- Surrounded by parasites
- And no friends to cherish life with
- No words are reaching me
- When nothing speaks to me anymore
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- At 22, I was broken and my mind was dented.
- Whenever I said "I love/hate life", I fucking meant it.
- Ripped apart by symptoms of manic-depression.
- Five girlfriends, then a boyfriend, all of them exes.
- I walked dead-eyed with dead dreams and a dead mind.
- Had no funds to pay for fun, so I spent time
- Getting mine. Didn't like money, but I needed it.
- No job. Had to donate plasma and bleed for it.
- When alcohol came knocking again, I opened wide.
- Had my first drink the same year Stan Lee died.
- Left the family to get away from the demons and lies.
- Got my granny, told the others "I'm leaving, goodbye."
- The hits kept coming. Homeless for seven months.
- A night in a doorway instead of a shelter bunk. I wasn't drunk.
- Saw an overdose while I was waiting on a city bus.
- The man survived in a miracle. The cops said it was shitty luck.
- The same cops got rough sleepers out of driveways.
- Said "You can't stay here", and looked at them sideways.
- I rolled up and smoked my first joint that same year.
- Sat back and said to the world "I don't want to be here."
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- Half my idols are dead, the other half crazy.
- People I looked up to are never going to save me.
- But lately? I've made peace with the fact that the world's out to rape me.
- That life's the bad joke, and I'm the dead baby.
- 2020 set my home state on fire.
- Pandemics and riots left my whole nation dire.
- This place is dying. I'm staying alive to see the heroes and villains fall.
- I said it on my first EP: Kill Them All
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