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- I'll admit it, I've been an asshole lately, and I've caused a lot of unnecessary trouble for the community. Going all the way back to the KH Community Marathon where I bitched out people saying the layouts were bad, getting unnecessary attention on SRG, to Twitter fights with X-Keepers, to shit I've even said today, and probably a lot more stuff in between that I haven't even touched on. I don't like being an asshole or super arrogant. When people call me out on it, I feel like shit, because that's not the person I want to be. I want to be a likeable person, but I make it hard on myself when I say or do unnecessarily douchey things sometimes. A lot of the time I wish I could just say fuck it and not care about what everyone thinks of me, but unfortunately I do. I spend every day in constant fear that everyone in the community secretly hates me, for whatever reason. I need to work on just stepping back, being the better person, and just not saying anything in these situations. I need to work on a lot of things, tbh. It sucks because at this point, being 21 years old, I still don't feel like an adult. I still can't act like a mature person, avoid unnecessary fights, avoid unnecessary attention drawn to myself (I say this but I have a Twitch account w/ 10k+ followers, so maybe I am somewhat of an attention whore :3). I want to feel like I've earned what I have, that I've actually earned 10k followers and however many subs because these people genuinely care about me and want me to succeed. It's a shitty feeling to say the least, and I'm sorry you have to put up with it.
- If you want to talk to me about shit I've done, how you feel about me, whatever, just talk to me. I'm an open book, I generally like talking to people, so don't be shy, I guess.
- Thanks everyone for being extremely cool and nice to me, when sometimes I feel like I don't deserve it.
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