悟る to attain enlightenment​; to understand
怖 frightening; terrifying
慌てる  to become confused (disconcerted, disorganized, disorganised)
双方 two way; both parties< mutual
あまっさえ besides; moreover
低劣 low grade; inferiority
空前絶後  (so marvelous or horrible that it may be) the first and probably the last​
仄か faint; dim​
強要 coercion; extortion
愛憎 love and hate
渦巻く to be all jumbled together (feelings, thoughts, etc.)