this game is the worst fucking thing

Holy shit. This game is the worst fucking thing. There comes a point when everything just goes fucking wrong: you never reach tenpai, your haipai is shit--fuck, even if you're fucking iishanten on draw, you'll find some fucking whale just goes riichi before you, and the next fucking this you draw is the motherfucking dora of all things.

Then you'll hear some retard spout: you get used to it, the more you play faster you get used to the despair. But thats a fucking lie. You don't get used to it. It's impossible to get used to it. Every time someone haneman tsumos in your dealer turn, you might go "ah fuck, well that's mahjong!" and smile like a smug piece of shit, but deep inside you know. The feeling is as fresh as the first day your carefully crafted hand gets obliterated by some whale's retarded wait riichi. It's Hell. And it just snowballs when you're fucking last at south 4, and you you need a big hand to win, and suddenly leading dealer pons a fucking yakuhai. You know you're not gonna win but you try. And there; that little smudge of hope; that's the worse part. You're never gonna get used to this despair, no matter how much you try to hide it.

Yes, I'm fucking coming back tomorrow. And you know why? Because this shit-ass game is like fucking drugs; it's bad for you, but the addiction is too strong to fight. fuck this game. Fuck the chinks who made it, and fuck fuck FUUUCK you all for introducing me to this. I'd be a much healthier individual if I didn't find this game at all.

Fuck the dealer--fuck the fucking tsumos on my dealer turn, and fuck the fucking dealer riichis I always have to face. Fuck the shitty haipai that never goes baibai--fuck kanchans, fuck penchans; and FUCK traitorous ryanmens that never fucking fills up. F U C K the good haipais that never fucking go tenpai until the last fucking row of discards, and everyone is in fucking tenpai to the tile you're about to drop. Fuck dorabomb yakuhais, holy shit who the fuck thought that was a good idea. It's always someone FUCKING ELSE that gets them--and even if I do get them, i don't fucking draw any useful tile for the rest of this fucking piece of shit game. Fuck the shimocha, fuck the toimen, and fuck the kamicha. Hell, fuck ME as well for being so retarded for playing this game. Fuck people who say mahjong is a game of skill. It's not skill when someone gets 7 REPEAT DEALER TURNS because of a good fucking haipai streak. Fuck the wall, rigged piece of shit that only gives good draws to fucking whales. Oh wait nevermind, because SURPRISE EVEN CATS AND HAGS GET GOOD DRAWS; basically everyone that isn't me.

Fuck riichi book 1, at least if I didn't read that piece of shit I could blame something else but luck. Fuck riichi mahjong strat, unreadable outdated piece of shit that contradicts the fucking rb1. Fuck every fucking guide, shit that out because it doesn't matter when someone else just luckshits their way into winning.

Fuck this anon >>287624208 in particular, "muh skill ceiling" is a joke when THIS IS A FUCKING GAME OF LUCK ANYWAYS.

Fuck this game. See you tomorrow, but I won't be happy about it.