Dr mr brosiris,
Im writing this letter because I am concerned about you and your relationship with morgan. Im not exactly sure what to say here but I feel strongly enough about telling you some things that I feel like I just need to lay out and say my piece so I can move on. I am really worried about you being hurt the same way I ended up hurting and the way others have hurt. Since ive known her she has done this about 3 times, you being the 4th person she has done this with where she develops a really hard crush on someone after a couple months and then her brain will overtake her and convince herself that the relationship is shit and move on. Not to say this is going to happen to you but the track record is there and unless she deals with her problems I don’t see this ever changing. Three of these relationships, including mine with her, were when she was in a public relationship with her boyfriend jeff and I don’t even think that story is concluded yet, even though I feel like she is actively trying to separate herself from him. She crushed on me about 5 months ago about as hard as she is crushing on you and it was fine until she took a dive that was driven by very little, instead of dealing with the problems in the relationship that might come up she will just alienate herself until she thinks the other person doesn’t like her and then the relationship will turn into fucking garbage and then she’ll have actual justification for breaking the relationship off. I told her to talk to her psychologist about the way she deals with relationships because I am of the opinion that it will forever make it impossible for her to have a relationship on a deep level with someone for more than just a few months because she cant control the way she acts. i don’t know if shes going to do that but I really hope she does, as strongly as I feel about her I cant change the way she has internalized her feelings about me, she feels alien around me and it sucks because I feel like I didn’t really do anything to deserve that, the reasons she explained to me she felt like that were basically her own fault in my opinion and something that rightfully should have been addressed a long time ago and she let it turn into a disaster. Im not a perfect human by any means but her issues with me are basically “I thought you felt like x” which was just bogus in my opinion. Im stating all of this because I feel like you are close enough to me that I’d consider you a friend and I just don’t want to see you get hurt, I want you to be aware of what you might possibly be getting into yourself so that you don’t get caught offguard by it. I developed my relationship with her knowing all of this and I feel like its going to help me a lot in the coming weeks while im trying to get over her and I just want you to be prepared the same way if she doesn’t deal with it. Im more than rooting for you guys, you seem pretty good together but in my opinion it just feels like… here we go again type scenario where as good as she feels about you now she has felt about other people this way in the past. Im definitely jealous of you a bit but that doesn’t mean I still don’t think youre a cool person and im still looking to punch stuff, so hopefully I don’t come off as an alien man and id like to join in on the speed runs still if the timing allows, otherwise ill still be looking to stratCRAFT and look over what you guys are doing to provide a different opinion!
If you got this far thanks for reading, morgans well being means a lot to me but so does yours and I feel very compelled to write this message and I needed to do it for myself aswell. See you around chief
Aaron