Explanation

Hi

Recently I've been muting people I like on Twitter because of school tweets. It's actually not because I don't find them relevant. There is actually more to this story that I want to explain.

I had a really bad experience during my late years of high school. I suffer from anxiety and depression, and it was bad to the point where I had to drop out of university in the middle of my very first semester back in fall 2014. I wasn't the best student. I didn't really excell in any subject compared to other students. I finished high school with a 2.9 GPA and I didn't take any honors/AP classes (except for one AP comp sci class). I considered myself to be a mediocre student. At first I didnt let that get to me because I didn't take my education seriously in my freshman and sophomore year. Once junior year started, that's when I hit a downward spiral. That was when everyone started thinking about college, ACT/SAT, etc. At that point, I started to let the competition get to my head and I would get overwhelmed and start beating myself up because of it. A lot of people in my school were really good students and took honors/AP classes, so there was that. Whenever my group of friends would start comparing grades, I would just leave because I felt so ashamed of my academic performance. At that point, I just couldn't stand listening to people talking about their grades because it would make me feel more and more like a failure. I would alwas hear "my grade went down to a B! My grades are so bad!" And I just couldn't stand it. This feeling was even worse when I was in college because everyone there had a passion for something while I didn't have a passion for anything that'll get me places in life. It was bad to the point where I just stopped going to classes, stayed in my dorm room, and played OoT to escape.

If anyone is offended by the fact that I muted them, please don't be. It's not your fault. Anyway, I hope this clears things up.

-Apasher