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- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 12:54 AM
- god dammit man
- where did i go wrong
- i thought i fit in
- i felt like i fit in
- it didnt feel like this
- i cant believe its come to this
- Charles - Today at 12:57 AM
- not sure what to say
- im all for you
- but a lot of those people you had to convince to join originally
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 12:57 AM
- why am i so fucking bad at making friends
- Charles - Today at 12:57 AM
- theyve gone back to what they originally thought
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 12:57 AM
- i dont understand
- they were afraid i was too serious and that i would flame people when things didnt go my way
- i havent flamed anyone
- i dont get it
- i stopped blaming anyone and i started only blaming myself
- why is it not good enough
- i stopped talking to people, i did everything
- i became a completely different person
- just like people wanted me to
- Charles - Today at 1:01 AM
- well the blaming yourself part might not have been good either
- like in in clans
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:01 AM
- cmon man thats my business
- Charles - Today at 1:02 AM
- people dont like how you get upset and make it awkward
- thats fair
- im just saying thats what people think
- and also you still had your moments i think
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:02 AM
- is that really grounds to remove me?
- Charles - Today at 1:02 AM
- whered you say some "offensive" things
- well idk what to say
- i can say what they said
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:02 AM
- i thought i was in on the joke i dont know
- i wanted to be in on the joke
- i dont dislike anyone, not even edison who totally hates me
- well maybe a little
- Charles - Today at 1:04 AM
- not sure
- think it came down to a lot of people trying to force themselves to like you(edited)
- but they couldnt anymore i guess
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:05 AM
- this is crazy
- all because i fucking defended xeno
- god dammit
- Charles - Today at 1:05 AM
- no no
- thats not it
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:05 AM
- i dont even fucking like xeno
- what is it then? thats like the only time i ever talk
- unless im just spewing shit
- usually with you and tk
- and jack
- fuck this, who are these people that dont like me? king? surge? i dont fucking get it, i didnt say anything about anyone
- Charles - Today at 1:07 AM
- one thing ive heard
- well conflicting things
- so im confused
- but this is what ive heard
- but they say either "you try too hard to be someone else" or "youre too much... yourself"
- so idk
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:07 AM
- wtf they wanted me to be someone else
- thats why i got back in
- i said i would change the way i thought about things
- and stop blaming others
- and i did
- Charles - Today at 1:08 AM
- yeah i understand what you mean
- im not sure
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:09 AM
- fuck this, im so scared
- i dont want to lose wZ again
- i worked so hard to get back, i worked so hard to change myself, to try to fit in
- all this and i fucking failed? i cant take it
- Charles - Today at 1:10 AM
- well
- you shouldnt have to work hard to change it you need to make it natural
- which i know is hard
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:10 AM
- that doesnt make any sense
- Charles - Today at 1:10 AM
- idk how to say it
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:11 AM
- i got kicked from wZ for acting natural
- i was out of control completely
- Charles - Today at 1:11 AM
- yes
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:11 AM
- all i did was reign myself in
- i didnt like, become someone else entirely
- Charles - Today at 1:11 AM
- they want you to be normal and in control but not force yourself to need to control yourself
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:11 AM
- i just control myself
- Charles - Today at 1:11 AM
- idk how else to put it
- you would get better responses from those that dislike you
- and would know what to say
- about why they dislike you
- cus idk what to say
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:12 AM
- edison just told me he hates me because i told him to kill himself 3 years ago
- i cant work with that
- Charles - Today at 1:12 AM
- hes said some other things too
- im sure its more than that
- than hes willing to say
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:12 AM
- he says im fake
- but he hated me for being "real"
- it makes no sense
- im still the same damn person, i just control myself better
- i dont even control myself well
- i still fly off the fucking deep end
- but i put it all on myself
- and that should be no ones business
- Charles - Today at 1:17 AM
- hmm
- thats a good point
- but i dont think they think that way
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:18 AM
- who the hell is they? the people that left? the people who were willing to do that rather than stick it out? ive never once even considered leaving since i came back(edited)
- and no one made me feel like i was unwanted
- aside from edison
- but thats what i expect from him
- and his mind wont change and thats fine
- Charles - Today at 1:19 AM
- well there are others too
- king
- cool
- yes the 3 that left (not jack but feysal and jas)
- not sure who else
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:20 AM
- i thought it was a joke with king
- Charles - Today at 1:20 AM
- nope
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:20 AM
- im not even the one who gave him the worst of it
- i just thought we were all joking
- Charles - Today at 1:22 AM
- well
- king has a lot less to say than a few others
- قارئ الكتاب - Today at 1:25 AM
- this is rich, jas blocked me
- he wont even talk to me
- and people are siding with him when he wants to get rid of me
- i never asked anyone to take sides, i never asked anyone to like me, i just wanted to fit in
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