6/27/21 memorys scape

Sunday, 6/27/21

Hung out in our mindscape for a nice hour. I never really go in the mindscape during the day. I usually go at night when I'm all sleep-deprived and barely awake enough to fully enjoy my time there. I tried using 6.3hz binaural beats to see if it could help me relax and immerse myself better.

Me, C, and Memory explored Memory's mindscape that he made (and ditched) a year ago. We found ourselves in a wheat field, those endless ones that seem to go on forever. There was bright, orangey-gold glow that was very present. The sun was a little glowing orb in the bright blue sky. I don't think there were many clouds. I have a feeling that if I went there right now it would still be as bright and sunny as before, even though its night right now.

Across the wheat field there was a wooden cabin. We walked through the field to get to it. There was a pathway cleared out from the doorsteps and a little bit further out. We walked in, looked around a bit, and I tried to fill in some details that I thought were missing or wrong. I tend to have to do that a lot. Sometimes things randomly get added or changed and I either have to bruteforce change it back or accept that its apart of the innerworld now. Thats a problem that has gotten worse this month and I don't know why.

Anyways, I actually wrote an entry about this mindscape the exact day that Memory created it. I was very detailed, so I might go back to read it again after this just to jog my memory.

I experimentally tested out the internal tv that was in that mindscape. I didn't really know how to make the images on the screen make sense (I generally avoid the tvs or screens in our mindscape because I feel like it'd be too disorienting to pay close attention to). C gave me prompts and allowed me to play it out on the tv screen. Some of it was controlled by me but I think it was mostly happening on its own! I was kinda surprised that my mind was able to churn out somewhat understandable stuff.

(one was about a romantic roadtrip, another about a date on christmas eve. I wonder why I had romance on the mind?)

After that we went outside and followed a pathway that ended far too quickly. We approached these hills. There was this middle walkway between both of the hills that we followed for a bit. I don't really remember how it looked since there wasn't really anything interesting.

We stopped with that after a while and eventually left back into our main mindscape. I didn't wanna leave just yet so I went with Nico to explore the good ol' Backrooms, basically just endless hallways. Its something I wanted to do for a while since I find liminal spaces real interesting.

I left soon after and continued talking with Nico for a while. I was actually really happy with how going in my mindscape turned out today. Usually when I go in there its kinda lackluster, boring, and not really immersive. Maybe its the fact that the 'house' is a boring grey block with boring grey furniture, but I dunno.

Maybe I'll try visiting our innerworld more often now that I know I can still have experiences as good as this one.