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- I'm Alexander and I'm 23, living in Lake Worth for the past 22 years. My story is your average story about the same as everyone else with some differences. When I was little, my father went to jail for drugs and theft so my mom had to divorce him . Pretty much as a kid, I had no real father figure besides my Dad who eventually came back into my life by visiting once a month. I never had the chance or like ability to do like sports or anything like that because of my mom not being able to take me since she was single for a long time. I was always kind of a big kid and I was a reoccuring victim to bullying until my late teens. I was always made fun of for my appearance, my hobbies, and just my family background. I struggled with weight problems for years where I stavrved myself to think I would look better or just got bigger after giving up. Eventually my family stabled out with my mom remarrying and my dad remarrying, I decided to live with my mom during the school years and live with my dad during the summer time.
- When I was younger, I was a really bad person in my eyes; I stole, lied to people constantly, and did whatever I could to make it by easy. Eventually my actions caught up to me and I was forced to be an adult at the age of 13 having to repay my mom and stepdad about $1400 while having to work in my dad's sport bars for free and giving all my tips back home to pay back my parents. I told you before about me catfishing people online when I was a kid because I thought it was funny despite it was pretty fucked for what it was. I never really changed until some very rocky parts in my life where I was forced to changed or I would of succumbed to myself and probably be dead.
- It took until my grandfather's passing to change me as a human being and being honest with myself to actually be me. I went on a journey to Israel andlived homeless for a month trying to survive in the heat and sand to rid myself of my evils. It took until a near death experience on my final days there to finally cleanse myself spiritually where I was held at gun point until someone saved me out of sheer humanity. I knew that I had to change from that moment onward. I left behind my selfish ways, my greed, my lies, and most importantly my inner demons back in Israel and they were never going to come back.
- Now I live my life being thankful and honest as I can be while being good spirited to everyone and everything around me in my life. I'm always super appreciative of my chance to change and I am always thankful for my experiences and things that I find meaningful to myself hence my obnoxious level of saying thank you to to you. I try to live healthy and try to improve my body image for myself and myself only to be comfortable in my own skin while knowing well enough I will not be the definition of perfect to some people.
- A truly dark point in my life and caused my rut was the outcome of a very poor decision I made in my life involving someone. I dated someone who was essentially the opposite of me. Our relationship was truly and vilely abusive on my end while for her it was a easy way out of her troubles. I dealt with lies, dishonesty, selfish gluttony, and the most toxic person I could of have probably have met. I was cheated on, stolen from, manipulated, and lost a lot because of her.
- Despite how shitty things were when she decided to end it all, it devastated me. Even after the breakup, she would toy with me and fuck with my emotions. I am very emotional and very personal with people I choose so she took advtange of it. It landed me in a even worse spot where I was questioned my life and fell into a rut where I binged drank for a month to escape my feelings and my thoughts.
- The songs you sent were basically my path out of the rut knowing there was going to be someone better out there and I can love someone without the hurt. That someone would accept me for me despite my past and what I've been through.
- Now I'm in a point of my life where I'm pretty happy where I am. I have a good job, I have nice things, I have good friends around me who support me and love me, and I am in control of my life and my own path in it.
- That is the story of me and my rut
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