i think the overlap between the goons.jpg thread and SASS is round about 50%, if there were ever a place to draw a list for first against the wall i think that would be it - making fun of SA thread / post place / 7_5_13

My depression and anxiety are flaring up. It's not logical. I have these feelings that are demonstrably false but it still causes me to gain no enjoyment from things i like. My living situation, spending nights at friends houses, makes following a routine confusing and impossible. I feel like a burden, dragging down everyone around. When i express this, I'm moping our being emo. I also wish i had more chances to dress up. Got told by a friend me intermittently wearing girl clothes and boy clothes was confusing for her two year old who calls me boy boy girl. (And that's a bad thing rather than an adorable thing kids do. ) - mental health thread / post place / 7_13_2014

Posted 16 July 2014 - 10:26 PM
Some day, I hope israelis live with the shame that Germans currently feel

on the bottom of the ocean, after Arabs unify and take their shit back

Death to Israel
(Fire. General news thread)

Posted 17 July 2014 - 10:21 PM
Some Zionist apologist on twitter told me check my white privilege because I'm telling Jewish people how to live.

Pretty sure the one with white privilege is the one with the billions of dollars in military aid who is currently murdering Arabs.
(Fire. Gen news thread)

Posted Yesterday, 02:40 AM
bill maher with a nice witty one liner about what's going on in gaza.

tw: misogyny, islamophobia and bill maher
(Sen. Joseph McCartridge)

Posted Today, 03:48 PM
I had a talk about it with Dad last night. He was fairly reasonable about it. He said that its honestly not the path he would have chosen for me but if that is how I feel thats how I feel. Only thing is that with my brother having a lot of problems, he says he is not going to be able to support me financially but he is fine with it otherwise
(Fire, transition troubles)

Vetters
3,348 posts
Posted Today, 02:55 AM
I'm in rough shape tonight. My friends mean well but I am terrified of them giving me advice. Even when or if they are right, I have this creeping fear of this veiled threat that if I don't agree with them, that I'm going to be out of my home. I don't mean to forget things they tell me to do, like turn the light off in the bathroom but they tell me that if I really cared about them I would remember things like that. There are so many things to remember living with them and I can't keep track of it all. They say my attention deficit is a choice. They get home and I get read the riot act, then criticized for a bunch of other shit, like not having a consistent look in my girl clothes, not going to weight watchers, or playing on the computer instead of going hiking and fishing and other outdoor things. That's not me, that's not what I like. I have free time, I like playing on the internet, its how I prefer to socialize. I am terrified of losing them as friends and I've told them this, they respond that if that is my fear that I would listen. I do listen, its just hard to remember or I don't agree with them on everything.
(Fire, trannytroubles)

Posted Today, 03:14 PM
and I got reamed out this morning. I was already stressed out. They asked me to leave for the day, so I went to my Dad's house and I'm going to spend the night here.

The other issue they have, and  they are probably right but it just hurts is that the neighbors have an issue with me being openly trans. This camper is in a rural area and the neighbors are homophobic and racist. This morning, I got out of bed and walked to the storage tent, I didn't think anything of it, I was getting clothes before I took a shower, its the morning, I didn't put my wig on, I wasn't thinking. They read me the riot act. They say going outside in a dress is rubbing it in the neighbor's faces. I'm of the position that we shouldn't censor ourselves to accommodate other people's bigotry. Their prejudice is their problem and that we should have a rights under the civil rights act. Being trans isn't illegal and if these neighbors have such a problem with it, let me talk to them. But that's just a piece of paper, and they do fear the neighbors becoming violent. They think I am trying to get attention or pick a fight. I just didn't want to put a hot wig on to walk 20 yard, just to go grab something to put on after a shower. But if the neighbors are as aggressive as they say, then they are right and I have ruined one more thing for them.

I'm such a fuck up. I don't deserve to live. I can't relate to people, its hard to remember things and perform 100% of the time. I'm a pest that needs to be stepped on to spare the rest of the species from me.
(Fire, trannytroubles)

Posted Today, 04:49 PM
it would be cool if you didnt call all trans people pests by association
(Crazy batshit FtM)

Posted Today, 04:52 PM
I'm not a pest because I am trans, I am a pest because I am a loser.
(Fire lol)

Posted 7/27, 12:37 AM
My mom is coming around, or she was, I mentioned yesterday on the phone that I was back on the horse, looking at okcupid, a dating site for guys or girls. She was like "wait, you like guys?" and I was like yeah "I'm bisexual, I've been out since college. I thought I told you that?" and she started crying "I would remember something like that, why are you putting me through this?"

Y'know, because its all about her. I don't see what her problem is. Being bi is nothing next to being trans. Anyway, I guess I had forgot to tell her about that, it was always a moot point because I've never actually been with a guy, except once and it didn't go very far. It was always easier to meet and date women since I had more experience. I asked if it was still okay, and while weeping she said yes. I'm not sure if she was sincere. She was cool with gay people and LGBT issues and then her daughter comes out and suddenly she's acting like a wounded animal.
(fire, loool)

Posted 8/6, 04:26 PM
 I had a really awesome date yesterday with someone I met a few weeks ago on OKCupid. She is really cool with the tg thing, I got to meet her new boyfriend and the three of us all had a great time together. I spent two days with her.

Mom is back home. We had a talk. She's coming around but her biggest concern is that she and Dad are not going to live much longer and that I could lose my job. She is also highly concerned about me becoming the victim of a hate crime or a rape or getting in trouble with the law for using the wrong bathroom. She is worried, whether this is a phase or something that is dawning on her is very real, that I won't be able to support myself. When she left I was happy, on the verge of getting engaged and then married and then from her perspective, I was out of the blue questioning my gender identity and she didn't know how to handle it. She loves me but she fears for me.
(firelawl)

Posted 8/7 5:43pm
What mom said hurt. I always to her for advice and support and it has been spotty.

She said today I can turn my life back around, if only I would make better choices.

LGBT rights are things for other people, not her daughter. And what hurts worse is how gentle she says it, its not yelling, its "love." A judgmental, nonsupporting kind of love. The kind I really need in this difficult time.

(lolFire)