January 13 2021 - Delutaya Stream Translation

Mmm... symptoms
if i look it up and it tells me that symptoms dont exist or something
Smell?
let me smell this tea then..
Ah i can still smell it!
how long has the fever been?
its been a few days and not super severe but...
I wanted to sing today but
I don't think i will today
im really sorry about that
It usually gets better when i drink something but like
doesnt seem to be the case today
I was recording earlier but it wasnt songs that hurts the throat much
just an easier ballad like song
those who follow my twitter might know that i've been in a bad mood these days
and its hard to tell if its that or like a co- well we know its a cold since im coughing
its my usual menhera episode
but i havent been able to eat properly either
Well if by tomorrow the fever hasnt broken, i'll go get it checked up
These days have been really cold huh?
When i went out for the coming of age ceremony, i layer of heattech wasnt enough
Its like the cold air would come in through the seams
Staying up late huh?
my sleep cycle really isnt stable
well not considering the day i went out for the ceremony
i was really glad that i took the day off when i did
There isnt any symptom of headaches on Covid right?
let me look it up.. Oh looking pale!
My parents said that i really didnt look well
when did they tell me that?
yesterday?
what is this.. kinda scary..
its like, if you sleep alot your head hurts
someone mentioned loss of taste?
"how are you??" im fine probably?
with the karaage or whatever, maybe cause i know the taste so well but its been weird
But i do still smell the tea
but i didnt look well to the point where my mom asked if she should take me to the hospital
taste of tea?
well i did think its weak but its pretty cheap tea
but that aside, the karaage from my lunch was really bitter
So if the fever doesnt break, i'll go get it checked tomorrow
"is your tongue pale?"
no its fine its still pink
im hoping that its just a normal cold
When i go out, is it fine to just go with like a mask on? or should i call them first? (hospital)
My tongue isnt pale. if anything its really pink
Its just a normal cold? cause its been really chilly these days. thats what im hoping for
Since its kinda a downer mood right now, let me give you some good news
So as i was saying, the recording for one song is done
and the 3rd track has been completed
*music of the 3rd track
I noticed that when i get to this mindset that i just continue to work
how many hours did i blast through? 5hrs?
it was over 5hrs
maybe 7, 8hrs
"shortness of breathe?"
well im not moving much so its fine
When im in this mindset, it really just makes me think
idk how to explain it, but my thinking changes
my point of view shifts and so...
What im writing is fairly negative but
its different from my normal lyrics
I wrote it on twitter once and felt embarrassed on twitter
but i deleted it
I wrote about how you need to be like either cunning or like smart in the world to survive
Like seeing streamers who are really excelling or... what is it...
like "oh you think of your fans like that huh?"
and hearing that, i really thought "heeeeh, people like this get through life well"
seeing only numbers and SC
the people around me are kind of like that and i thought maybe that those kind of people get by easier
I like to believe that those people who only view and use others like tools will get bit in the butt later
so im toughing it out right now but yea...
I dont really look at these people and feel jealous of them or anything
I do think that they let their true feelings out on stream or something though
on a previous account i said i wanted to be more popular/bigger
so the streamers who had a bigger followers and stuff
i had asked them how to get a bigger fanbase
and they told me to change my twitter style and how i interact with the fans
like dont follow everyone and to separate who to follow and who to not follow
I didnt know how to do that so
i let them decide for me
and they cut out most of the people i followed
from like 500 people to like 97
yea and they said they only did tweets like goodmornings and before streaming
instead of daily accounts
So the main account would only have the hellos and goodnights and such
and the sub account would have the other kinds of tweets
even people that didnt really care about these kinds of things would say that
"what are we talking about right now?"
Talking about streamers right now
talking about how streamers can grow quickly
but it naturally becomes like that huh?
My main account really doesnt post a whole lot
and my sub account does a lot of tweeting
i think its not good to make it up.
Like in the past i made things up on the accounts like aging myself up
or like setting up the character or something
thinking that its something i needed to do
rejecting off collabs and stuff
*
How did those around me view me when i lied about my age?
i kinda doubt that they saw me as older than 20 www
*she mentioned other streamers viewing fans kinda from a distant kind of way
But im not really like that, if anything im the opposite where i need to interact with them or else i start to feel pretty down
*talking about how she couldnt eat and was really down this week
*to the point where mom asked if she should go to a counselor or something
*alot of people tell her to go to a counselor but she already knows what thats going to be like
*first off, they'll tell her to stay away from that internet. she doesnt like that already but if you cant follow that then they tell you to stay at a facility
*theres no freedom of choice
*"what are you so depressed about?" oh well about a few things but i really dont understand if the path im going is correct or not--
she felt worried or anxious about that future/path shes going
*since somone she knew had passed away recently shes been in a bad place.
"wasnt the coming of age ceremony fun?"
*about that, it was fine. it was different from what she expected and so it didnt meet up to the hype
*the food was good though
Its not like i was super close to the people around me at that ceremony
and i cant eat as much when im surrounded by people im not familiar with
so i would have rather gone with closer people
on the 16th i will go out to eat with the sharehouse girl
and talk to her about it
If we go out to karaoke, i'll stream via twitcast
if we dont go, then i might do a small talk stream
oh the ceremony pictures
i didnt get any www
my mom said its fine since its once in a lifetime event
but the price wasnt something that i could justify
i did get a picture at the ceremony on my smartphone though
Like if its just me.. i cant justify the 3---- price
if i was like super pretty and was like a model, maybe i could make an excuse for it but
its not like we go and look at photos much anyway
if it was cheaper maybe but not at that price..
you really dont see the appeal of your own pictures though www
theres a price for the pic, the processesing fee, and shipping*
"looking at pics are for when you're way older"
Well yea but thats like not these kinds of pics
usually its like more candid pics with friends and stuff
and you say "look, this is what mama looked like when she was younger"
will i be a mama though? idk
I dont think i can be delu mama though
I think i'll just one day disappear before i get into a romantic relationship
I really dont plan to live long
right now, once what i want to do is done, i may disappear
maybe if i find another route
But right now
once i lose my voice im probably done.
It gets harder to live as you get older
i want to get it on with and pull the Life Gatcha
*i guess thinking of the next life...?
yea I think disappearing after maybe 50 is ideal
I think if i wanna do anything, it has to be now
so thats why im doing my best to accomplish things right now
people say talents right? but i really dont think i have any
So like, i just have to work hard from zero
those who want to play games till they pass away is fine!
i envy that
i really realize that i cant enjoy any games playing on my own
i set up the switch and stuff but yea
I really dont think its thhat fun on my own
i think i just dont like games in general that much
maybe cause its alone www
*playing with friends is fun though
"I think wanting to die after doing what you want is fine but life has too much to offer so there isnt any way to do everything in one life time"
thats wonderful!
but what i want to do is limited to a younger time frame so...
Im someone who only talks about the pros/cons outside of my hobbies
So if i start playing something like Apex and the rank system
I cant think of it as "for fun"
but i want to test how far i can go
Its hard to play just casually
and i think thats why it doesnt continue too far
but if i want to get better at it
and i realize i need to practice more
i would need to take time away from singing and other hobbies
and that makes it not really worth it
*talking about how she thinks maybe her voice would last around 35 or so? she isnt sure how long people's voices last
but thats why reading books is nice
its been a good way to spend time
35 years right?
thats like 15 years
i wanna do something by then
Currently i have 4 titles im reading
but theres something i got from a fan that i think of reading too
Pvp?
but yea i want to get something done within even like 2 years
oh that means person vs person huh
like apex
35yearold "Zaaako"?
www i wonder what that is
wouldnt that be nice though?
like an older onee-san in bed
and like the guy is already dying and is like "ah no more i cant"
and then shes there and just whispers in his ear "zaaaako"
ah my imaginations...
*talking about how she can easily come up with these steamy scenarios and scenes in her head
*and she feels its more aimed towards guys and that she really has a hard time getting into anything aimed at women
I used to be stuck on Mesugaki being put in their place by olderguys
like that was the template i would follow
but recently
i've been stuck on Onee-san
or like
someone who's good at work but they go home and they're really clingy?
I wonder if i look, i'd probably have a penis somewhere www
*aka, "i might be a guy" lol
or like i want some lady to tell me that "you're wrong" and then they mess with my lower regions with their foot or something
ah wait is that too lewd? will i get banned?
"thats so lewd. i've seen an AV like that"
"i've seen something like that, like in a kotatsu"
oh that might be good
today'
s
pantsu gatcha
Black and Pink
i remember what i wore today
"i like the mesugaki voice"
i dont really know how to do that one
"being able to work but really clinging at home?"
yea that one i like that one alot
"i want a girl to mess with me with their feet under a kotatsu or at a family restaurant"
ahhh i've seen like something like that before
but it wasnt really their leg or feet but they were sitting next to each other and touching eachother
the waiter probably knew what was up
If anything
I saw something like this happen in the bathrooms after school clubs
like my badminton club ends fairly late so its kinda dark
and on the way home, by the bathroom under the light
i mean thats kinda..
an envious situation you see in 2d works
i mean
its not like i would ever want to be in that situation in real life
*talking about other situations people are talking about in the comments
of course most people havent done it outside!
thats like fairly normal to not do it outside ww
I think i was pretty established as this kind of character but like
i think alot of people are interested
like if i said now "im actually not interested" people wouldnt really buy it
But if its to the extent of just joking and stuff, its totally fine with me
i wonder if i should say this..
well i mean i dont plan on  keeping this stream archived anyway
So the first thing i was hooked on was like
messages
and how that leads to other things
then i really got into like
some girl stealing something and they get searched
and that leads to things
is that kind of niche?
*maniac (?): exretreme, weird, out there.
and the situation would continue like
"is it fine if i call your parents?"
and they say like no anything but that
there were times when i was super hooked on mature ladies and
it only lasted a short time but
i went through a lot of videos and such
and it was less because i was into it but more cause i was curious
and like those age ladies are like close to my mom
so i asked her if she still had that kind of libido drive
and she said nope nope, that just fades away
And So actually
i started playing apex because
i saw pathfinder on a sexmachine video
and then i found him on apex
it wasnt the other way around
wwww i was into sexmachine vids for a time
"what is your fetish?"
well like
idkwhat you're asking here but
The part between the knee and hip
that area is nice
but yea pathfinder's voice is really cute too
when i first started playing apex i would always be talking about how cute that voice is
oh
yea that bit right above the knee socks is nice
waki? *armpits
Ahhh yea for 2d is definitely a good point
in 3D tho, there isnt many people that have nice pits tbh
I really dont feel a whole lot from kneehighs anymore cause of all the things i've seen
But yea
i graduated from watching AV's when the vanilla stuff started to not do it for me any more
anything extreme is just fake and made up
thats why doujinshi are so good
"you probably have a dick www"
right? somewhere. maybe in my heart theres like 3 growing there
like i feel guilty talking to pure girls
the conversation doesnt always connect
*she also talked about porn using rotor vibes and being in the favor of the guys. she stopped wearing knee high socks in middle school. and people are asking "you really talking about this at this time?"
"how are your cats?"
they're fine!
but its cold so they stay around the kotatsu all day
"they say that women have a higher drive"
i think i get that
But i really cant get off on my own
like i enjoy watching lewd things
but i think i've seen too much at a younger age so its hard for me to get off on my own
Like i probably knew down there feels nice since i was young
used to keep a firmer plushie between my legs at night
its not like i would take my clothes off or anything but
i did have something between there... like mr Winnie the Pooh
i owe him a lot
a bigger PoohBear plushie
I better not archive this
"do your best default!"
www the translator default-kun
i hear puberty can hit way early for some people
like 5th grade or even younger
I wont archive this one yea
Honestly im glad that my puberty was much later on in life
i was able to go and do my school clubs normally
*because with puberty, you get periods and such
people who have the heavy flow really cant get out of bed and stuff
sometimes my mother wouldnt go to work and such and i asked
and she said i cant
Im lucky that my flow is light
*asked guys when they got the pleasure of knowing.. well self-pleasure
*most people saying 4th - 6th grade
*shes surprised its so young. her brother must have been a late bloomer
*some persone found out in 3rd grade due to his dad's AV on the PC.
*talking about how she really cant use the same vid twice. shes a one-and-done kinda girl
*but doujinshi might be fine
*a few times anyway
*more comments about how people like to watch or read their lewds
At one point i was hooked on Shoujo Ramune
but once i watched it through all the way, i was done with it
wasnt there a cause of death if you do it too much?
Like if you fap too much in one day.. you die?
"Technobreak?"
oh yea that one! is that a real thing or just an urban legend?
I wonder if theres info on this
"welcome to delta's stream!"
i cant recommend this to new watchers www
So i was looking into technobreak and saw a post
"hi i fap 2 times a day and im worried about technobreak.. how can i stop fapping? please help, i am 19"
www this kid is worried about technobreak fapping twice a day
well i say kid but we're close in age...
But if this was the case
everyone would be dead
morning, lunch, dinner?
isnt that doing it a big much ww
idk i like talking about these things
i wonder why
*talking about how guys in her class talked about doing No Nut challenge
*she wonders if anyone actually follows through
they say your memory gets better and stuff if you do it!
the guy who  said he'd do the challenge did get better scores though so
*talking about how they say your skin gets better and you feel more awake and other benefits
"male hormones are poison so lets all become females"
but i hear not doing it (fapping) is not good either?
the uh, little tadpoles (sperm) comes from rice, right?
like its nutrients that gets turned into that
so release too much and its bad for your skin and stuff
"just take in what you shoot out"
wwww eh??
i mean i guess you can make an infinity loop with that
I hear that if you keep it in for a week or something it goes bad or something
I heard a lot of things because of the guys in school wwww
oh man
isnt it fun to follow those No Nut blogs?
where the guy just talks about his day to day
oh man i wanna go look it up, those were really fun
it was written well
im sorry default-kun
you wouldnt happen to be seiso or anything right?
you can rest www
Im gonna look it up after the stream
"today i learned a lot of new information"
"theres alot of slang that the oversea bros dont need to know"
www
"default is seiso"
are you sure about that?
are there such thing as seiso guys?
like if theres big boobs, wouldnt guys jump on it?
ok fine, this is the last erotic topic!
*talking about how she looked up some things on pornhub and how "big boobs arent that great"
[TL Note: actually dont know what phrase she used... its some lewd slang but i dont know it at all...]
But girls with big boobs cant see their toes right?
like thats... wow
how
well like let me stand and see
like from here i can see like...
well over half my feet
Girls who play volleyball and have huge boobs are really impressive
like i said this before but like
when you work out, you naturally lose fat from your breasts so
thats the norm
thats what i was told
but there are people who play volleyball, who are tall, and have big boobs
is amazing. what do they do?
wearing sports bras to prevent it from moving around more?
yea no, there was a time i had breasts that shook!
i was a little more plump at the time but
it happened
i was so happy it shakes that i remember standing in front of the mirror and jumping
i remember it well
and i though to myself oh no
i need to cut out the belly fat
you notice these things when you play sports
So i jump roped and lost a lot of weight
but lost a lot of my breasts with it...
"if you shake it, it'll sag!"
i didnt know that
but its gone now...
im sad
"i do sports so i can vouch for noticing fat"
right?
"its not like there was much to sag anyway"
....
breathes in
Well you know guys have a dick-cup chart too
*dick size maybe?
I hear the average is B
if you have time look it up
whats my 3 size?
i never really looked into that
*talking about how this is probably not a good topic for youtube...
*comment about "thats not fair since im not hard" or something like that. you cant really measure without it being Full Mast after all.
"are you trying to kill the translators?"
im sorry ww
"full counter? is that a 7 deadly sins ref?"
i havent watched that before
but i get told i sound like the pig in that series
anyway i wonder...
if this is corona or something its not a laughing matter
after the stream, im going to make sure i can taste food
Hawk is the pig's name!
"well done changing the subject"
I think tomorrow if i still have a fever, i will call the hospital
once i messed up my stomach one that one time, i've been sensitive to things like lemon and spicy things
i've been told to eat things that are easy on the stomach
"do you like jujutsu kaisen?"
struggling to say the word
i havent seen it yet
I really did mess myself up on that though, my stomach.
i drank way too much lemon energy drinks and i reaped what i sowed
more struggling noises
I cant say jujutsu and words like shujutsu
i become like a robot when i talk
its a good anime huh?
yukkuri Delta?
if its this pace i can say it
[TL Note: Yukkuri is a slow form of speaking that often used as a meme]
*talking about when wisdom teeth being in the way. certain mouth shapes and sounds can hurt cause it was in the way
hurt cause it was in the way
*but one is gone so its fine
*talking about how her fangs were super sharp and her dentist commented on it
yea one fang was so sharp that it kept cutting me so
i took scissors and chipped it
it didnt hurt much to chip the tooth actually
it hurt more to be pricked by that fang
like even a light bite will make a hole
what happened recently..
not much except work www
"can you bite me?"
really it'll hurt
its so sharp that im wondering if im part dog
the fangs arent thin like a cats so
if anything its like a dog
"have you bit anyone before?"
when i got mad at my brother www
i think i will stream for about 2hrs
and then quit for now
biting my brother?
I think he may still have a mark from the bite www
for corona, can i take regular cold medicine?
let me look it up
*talking about the start of the fever was a few days ago and thatt it stayed consistant for a while
*but she realized it was just yesterday
and it might be just a coincidence but then today's food was bitter
and so i drank water and rinsed my mouth
but it started to feel like just the air was bitter
*
Its not like i have a hard time breathing or anything
my breathing is stable
*she talks about how her taste seems to be off
I think i mentioned that no matter what i ate, i threw it up
but its probably because everything tastes bitter
it may be a mix of that, a cold, and my stomach issues
i looked into corona symptoms but
its only half matches
there do seem to be results of people who dont have all symptoms though
honestly, staying healthy is important..
That reminds me
my household always talks about who spend the most on medical bills at the end of the year
mom has insurance that covers alot of her chronic medical stuff
but for me, i was the biggest spending this year..
i felt kinda guilty about that
to use that much on my own..
whats amazing is that this was after all the insurance coverage
i mean it can be helped i supposed but...
i mean this yea, i want to be healthy
if it can be helped.
eh what is this?
i got a message saying something from my stream violates some TOS?
but this music is a freetrack so..
what got flagged?
was it my voice?
"its behind you"
yaba, it was?
i was surprised just now ww
it came up again!
"your stream may be blocked"
what is that?
"get a bgm made by a pro" i think thats fine but yea
"first is a warning, second is the kill"
i wish they would tell me what i did wrong though!
fine lets change it
even though this is a free bgm
lets change it for now
*she talked about if it was the lewd topics, it should be different so its not that
This isnt monetized so its not that right?
Or did i do it wrong?
i said i wouldnt monetize the fanbox streams so
ok its not that
Anyway im hoping its a bug.
The superchats that people sent that one time... im going to personally thank the people who did that
im working on it
i think people like hianee and mirrorred was in there
"try playing the piano!" i cant play the piano
This Derpy guy? i think he sent one too
where do you look up superchats?
like theres some that just disappear quick so
i'll look it up later...
I was thinking of getting a remix of Kokoro Rain Stop
i was thinking of talking to the original creator of the song to see if we can work something out
the superchat gets logged somewhere right?
like i know some streamers read their superchats the next day and stuff
oh here it is
i found it
now i can reply to everyone
yea remix version!
"2 hours passed"
www i guess i'll talk a bit more
that reminds me
King's mix never came in!
I talked to a friend who does mixes this morning
if anything, Ai Kotoba might be finished before King
*she recorded Ai Kotoba this morning as well
I got a reply talking about when they could work on it and stuff
and they should be working on it and it should have already been completed by now?
but maybe they didnt feel like it?
when did i commission this?
let me look it up
wait its like...
i requested it on Nov. 21st
I have a message saying Happy New year that i didnt realize from them
i wonder
i should ask them
"maybe they forgot?"
well they sent the happy new year message though..
i mean maybe we can finish Ai Kotoba first
i guess its not too big of a deal
Well with Ai Kotoba, i have a friend working on it so its fine
I really havent expanded my connections so like
i really want more connections for these things
*music related
When i recorded KING i thought this was perfect
but as the time goes on, i keep thinking i can change this or that
at this rate, maybe i should retake the recording
ah yea i do want to be able to mix on my own!
to be able to do it on my own would be amazing
like being able to do that will make things cheaper by about half
i want to do like even the base minimum
it really does change if you set up the baseline for the work!
like they would just need to change some other parts but the amount of work will be less overall
if the base mix is already set, they will make it cheaper sometimes
The benefits of being able to do things on your own is how you can make things go much quicker
*in terms of completing the project
theres no stream tomorrow right?
I should have made this based on my schedule so...
i can go to the hospial in the morning if need be..
is my voice still off today?
Like i cant tell since my voice naturally sounds nasally so
people say it doesnt change much
i feel it in my throat a bit but thats about it
*reading comments that say its a little different sounding.
i see..
it does sound better than when i first started
what should i eat after this?
I tried to eat this morning and i threw up so
i wonder what i can eat
maybe tofu life for a bit..
When my stomach was messed up, i really couldnt eat much
Tofu, salad
and what else?
I ate eggs and jello
ramen huh thats probably a no go
maybe lighter flavors but nothing oily
I really like tofu though
Boiling tofu and just eating it with some tsuyu is nice
*pinapple pizza comment. and she says no. unless its a sweet pizza
*recommended foods like rice porridge, apples/bananas, etc
tapioca ramen..?
hotto doggu hotto doggu?
that song really is catchy isnt it www
i think i should make a full version and make it a bgm
and the listeners slowly lose their sanity
Even my mom and brother couldnt handle the spicy ramen
they said it ruined them.
And it looks like the 16th stream will happen
I talked to her and asked if she wants to show up
and she said its fine
So it looks like
as long as we meet, we'll stream
next week is going to be really hard so
its good we're doing this this week
i'll record at the studio
and if i can get it in one take thats nice
but if not, i'll have to back and forth for a while
So for sharehouse girl, i'll go and meet her and i cant say much on when the stream will be
*talking about how she used to be the one more corrupted and sharehouse girl was more or less pure. but since she fell into the internet, she has gotten far more corrupt than Deluta
i used to be the one to recommend toy- well like "goods" and be like this is good or bad
but not she's the one who recommends things to me now
and shes really pretty and stuff too
"sharing info on "goods" is hot""
*atsui is the word used...
**so "hot" works i guess
if sharehouse girl and i get together
i know our topics will be way worse than today
so i will do it on Twitcast for sure
its not funny if i got banned on youtube for this so
theres never been a time when i HAVENT talked about these things with her so
im going to talk to her on Twitcast so its fine if i get banned there
not that twitcast cares too much
I feel bad for default on this one
We have been talking and DEming each other on Line and stuff
i do feel like i want to return the favor to default and the
translators
on the server side
*talking about setting up credit card and like how her parents are against it for now. still gotta do it though
"what should we call sharehouse girl?"
well she doesnt have an internet name yet so like, for now call her Sharehouse Girl for now
"theres people who translate in the Chinese server too"
I see! thank you. i was wondering about that too
"Girl A" www
*talking about cards and how she still had it under her mom's name and stuff till she was 20
*now she can make credit cards and debt cards and stuff in her own name
whats a credit card..?
looking it up
its not the one that lets you borrow money?
you buy the thing...
and at the time you pay with card..
and the card company pays, and you pay back later
right?
so whats debt...?
looking up
i see
ahhh i see
taking money out of the bank
since im not making huge payments, debt should be fine
*talking about what works with debt what works with credit and the inconveniences
so credit cards are more convenient huh
its easier to use huh...
[TL Note: Debit. not debt. typos]
I really do want to get these going though since i want some sound plugins and such
wait can credit cards do exchanges in Dollars?
how is everyone buying it
visa cards can work overseas?
"if you use credit, it doesnt feel like you spent money so be careful"
i just want to buy things from overseas so
its not like im making big purchases
"its good experience to be in debt so go with the credit card"
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its not like im going out and buying things for myself that much
its mostly just work related stuff
paypal works?
i dont waste money much...
Like i saw people who wasted their money around me
and in that sense, i do feel thankful for my householf
"i lost money trusting Mom-bank"
i've been through that too
I think i mentioned on tweets but
Im only using the fanbox money for the works i do
and any money i have left is going to be something that keeps tripping me up as a reminder of what i havent been able to give back
so just in case, i have plans set for the money*
did i mess up on the stream last time?
I think i kicked myself out of the Apex group last time
even if you said i can use the money, i really cant allow it
I was thinking other streamers and stuff's plans on fanbox being cheaper
im thinking that im keeping it 400yen forever
even if you say i can use the money i wont use it for anything other than streams and works
its not like i have anything i want to buy
its not like the money really gets used much on the streams so i want to make something more tangible
so thats why i want to do Original songs and Covers
and while i havent released these things, i start to panic a little
while im paying for the album i always go "uuu"
cause its pretty pricey..
lets say you have a vtuber you like
you throw a Superchat
and they say thanks i ate good food!
you can be happy about that
but for me, i dont do that much so..
For me, if its my oshi, then just watching their stream is good enough for me
or if they used the money for themselves
but it does feel nice to see productions by them too
I mean you want things back no?
there arent many who just give and dont expect anything in return
are you sure about that?
i mean, wouldnt you be happier knowing the money is being used for these things instead of being wasted on other stuff?
Im taking the time to rest and stuff
but one i start streaming, its so fun i keep going
like now
i have a good balance right now between works and streaming
i say im panicked but its not like anyone is putting me in that position
if anything, im putting this pressure on myself
so dont feel guilty about it
its like when someone goes on vacation and they give you a souvenir
and im the type who HAS to give something back in return
and it becomes and eternal cycle of giving back
so right now
im getting from you all
but not giving back yet
when i get progress done on my works though, it makes me feel better
i did well today, so this is okay
but yea, i think buying music and books i can allow since it'll help me produce better things in the future
i think since i hated reading before and recently been able to get into it
its been nice
like going into a genre that i like made it a whole lot easier
"hearing you say zako is enough"  www
i think there are some who prefer music over streams so
and i heard there were some people who wanted to buy the music so
The album right now has about 4 songs right now
I want another 4
and maybe throw in a special fanbox only song in there
and if you have the special plan or higher
i'll give this to you for free if you can show you were in the special plan
fanbox keeps track of it right?
so i'll give it to you for free so
you dont have to buy it
*talking about songs and how shes changing some things. Like making a leadsong not just 1 but 2 songs. and she also said shes thinking of making like a vocaloid duet version of a song and such.
*she got in contact with people who she never thought she would be able to contact. some big names she never thought she would be able to contact have been in contact with her
*there will be a MV with it too
*the me from 10years ago would never believe who i have on my discord friends list now
Since i cant come up with lyrics for this one song and its intense sounds, i had this person come up with lyrics and such.
So im thinking of tacking on a freebie for fanbox only
im thinking of seeing what song gets requested most and add that in there
and if Kokoro Rain Stop gets a remix, it will be 9 songs
if he says yes, i'll add the remix version to the album
The album cover is done by the person who "it HAS to be this person!"
Im super excited!
i want to tell the me 10year ago me who they'll be working with
the happy news i had was talking about it
on the 15th, i'll be working with the big name person
and potentially making it the major lead song
and this is exciting
wait was it the 15th?
its...
yea the 15th
nowait
its tomorr
ow
I have i a break tomorrow for that ww
"at this rate we'll hit one DST"
i have some meeting on the 15th too?
what is it?
what is this..?
if i dont write who im meeting with, its not good!
For now, i want to get better before i hang out with Sharehouse Girl
ok im sorry
i'll end here in a bit
i got too excited www
so tomorrow's meeting
i'll let you know when im done
i'll probably be super excited
I have 3 melody tracks ready for tomorrow
the bigname person will mix it and stuff
"no archive?"
the first half was kind of...
so
i mean i'll keep it up for a bit
but when you dont realize it, i'll take it down
ok so lets call it good soon
"ah so it was erotic"
yes it was...
I think sitting in front of the pc and working on things is so much more fun for me these days
its more fun than games i think
Games last about 1 hour but
working lasts so much more
if i dont get better i'll go get a check up
thank you for translating for so long Default!
and dont worry
if i dont stream with sharehouse girl
i will stream on my own
okay well
Otsutaya!