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- ThePrecious: In a sense your reality as it stands now from your persepective is (to the whole being constructed comment)
- Collarbone: wait what
- ThePrecious: I've asked a few people what they want from life
- ThePrecious: ?
- Collarbone: what did they say
- ThePrecious: To be happy.
- ThePrecious: That's not my answer though
- Collarbone: i feel like people make it seems harder than it is
- Collarbone: lol
- Collarbone: being happy is easy as fuck
- ThePrecious: I mean, happiness is perspective.
- ThePrecious: ya
- Collarbone: yes
- Collarbone: and not only the self-help books
- Collarbone: but a lot of professionals say
- Collarbone: its a choice
- Collarbone: and having been able to do it
- ThePrecious: To be honest, I'm not sure I'd want everyone to be happy - what if someone's happiness was to kill everyone???
- Collarbone: appreciate being alive, being surounded b yloved ones, appreciate people, appreciate not being dead.
- Collarbone: its so easy to be happy
- Collarbone: if people were as deep as me and dint take everything they have for granted
- Collarbone: zach came to visit and im so happy
- ThePrecious: I think a lot of people don't realize how happy they could be until they face great loss
- Collarbone: :3
- ThePrecious: Now?
- ThePrecious: But ya, my answer isn't happiness
- Collarbone: whats your answer?
- ThePrecious: Well my heart's desire in some ways has been to be cherished (not by everyone, just at least one, you know?) - to be "precious" in their eyes. Not "a precious" but "the precious". But it ultimately stems from in life me wanting to be understood+accepted when understood.
- ThePrecious: First and foremost that is met via faith for me, but it stems into other areas, life
- ThePrecious: how I view myself, what do I actually understand and know about myself? Do I accept myself? Sometimes I really don't... I feel like I'm contantly learning too
- ThePrecious: how someone close to me views me, the world etc.
- ThePrecious: For me there is sort of another pyramid (although I don't disagree with that one, which i remember now after looking over it).
- ThePrecious: Being accepted by God opens me up analyzing my limits, who I am with and without God. But essentially, the more I experience God's acceptance of me, the greater my capacity to accept others, and also to accept myself
- ThePrecious: sorry, I'm bungling up a little I think (a limit to typing and not talking sometimes), but ya, like you (if I'm understanding you right), what I want most in life is that acceptance.
- Collarbone: sorry
- Collarbone: im reading
- ThePrecious: Not from everyone (although that'd not be bad)
- ThePrecious: it's ok
- Collarbone: i understand where youre coming from
- Collarbone: so we are similar
- ThePrecious: To be honest, I feel bad for not pushing you to get to work, but I'm hoping if you're more emotionally stable a little it may help. Plus I want to be here for you.
- ThePrecious: I'm wondering if you'll be able to rest at all tonight.
- ThePrecious: And yes, I think we are similiar in that regard
- ThePrecious: I wonder if this is true for Kev too. I don't know if this is how he'd answer but I get the feeling he'd share this sentiment.
- ThePrecious: Also, thanks for hearing me out when I talk about my faith too. I really appreciate your patience with me in that.
- ThePrecious: I've lost friends for talking about that, and it hurts when that's happened.
- Collarbone: no
- Collarbone: youre th best jess
- Collarbone: thank you for being the best
- Collarbone: <3
- Collarbone: its okay
- Collarbone: i dont mind
- Collarbone: talk to me bout your faith :D
- Collarbone: im jus quiet
- Collarbone: bc im trying to move this tv
- Collarbone: zach is helping me w
- ThePrecious: Oh, so you guys are in a room?
- Collarbone: hes helping me
- Collarbone: mount the tv
- Collarbone: bc im having issues
- Collarbone: but he likes my room :D
- ThePrecious: Also thanks Jo - my faith is probably the most significant part of who I am now in how it touches every aspect of my life so it's nice for me to feel safe expressing that. I mean, I still express it even when not feeling safe but ya haha.
- Collarbone: and i feel so stupid
- Collarbone: how he can make me feel so happy
- Collarbone: UGH
- Collarbone: and he has a gf he does
- Collarbone: its okay jess
- Collarbone: my family on the east coast is religious
- Collarbone: i go to church w any of them when im over there
- Collarbone: and we always do grace
- Collarbone: and tlak bout god and faith
- Collarbone: its ok im used to it
- Collarbone: like i respect it
- ThePrecious: Sometimes the people that are most angry with it are people familiar with it haha, and i didn't think you'd be upset with me, but more so I didn't want to be upsetting to you.
- ThePrecious: So I apprecaite you being graceful to me in that.
- ThePrecious: I'll be praying for you Jo (rather, I'll continue to), that you'll find the healthy relationship you need. One that will strengthen and build you up, as well as allow you to be soft and vundrable.
- ThePrecious: I would love to see that for you. Tearing up a little just thinking of it.
- Collarbone: thank you jess
- Collarbone: it means a lot to me
- Collarbone: im soryr to rant your ear off
- ThePrecious: If it's ok with you, I think I will call it a night from my end. I will be up for a bit yet (I want to watch some anime or read a little haha) so you can text me still.
- ThePrecious: And no no - I didn't mind
- ThePrecious: I want to be a safe person for you to express yourself with
- ThePrecious: I won't always know what to say, but I'll be willing to hear you out.
- ThePrecious: Also, I'm looking forward to catching up when school's out.
- ThePrecious: Maybe we can have a dance party - or a fashion shoot.
- ThePrecious: Oh hey
- ThePrecious: I didn't say it earlier really but I totally dig this room
- ThePrecious: Maybe this weekend you can show me your other room(s)
- Collarbone: yes go sleep jess
- Collarbone: you must be exhaustd <3
- Collarbone: thank you jess, youre the best. you are a safe person to me
- Collarbone: and that would be great
- Collarbone: and im glad you do :D
- Collarbone: yes!
- Collarbone: lets hang this weekend for sure
- ThePrecious: <3
- ThePrecious: /me bear hugs ya
- ThePrecious: Thanks Jo - I always enjoy hanging with you even in rough times.
- Collarbone: /me bear hugs
- Collarbone: <3
- Collarbone: love you
- ThePrecious: o/
- Collarbone: i do too
- Collarbone: thanks again for listening
- Collarbone: i appreciate so much <3
- ThePrecious: You're welcome, I appreciate you!
- ThePrecious: Love ya lady - oh!
- ThePrecious: And I'll be praying exams go well. ;)
- ThePrecious: Nite! o/
- ThePrecious: /me poofs
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