Syr <3 1

Troche: Greetings.
Bratbutt: Hey ~
Troche: Burden me with your problems.
Bratbutt: /me sighs and rubs at its face.
Bratbutt: my father has cancer.
Troche: Very sorry to hear that, ya'll are close?
Bratbutt: i'm in a weird place right now honestly. i was never close to my father. He was an angry, neglectful man. Ever since i moved out, it's like he realized that he messed up but never really did much about it. When i went to their house on my birthday, i hugged my mom. He asked if he could have one so i hugged him and he started crying, which set me off. i felt angry but i also think i'm just sad because i never had a chance to be close to a father figure and it feels fake but maybe he's also coming to terms with shit and i honestly don't know what to do or how to feel.
Troche: I can understand that, my father left before I was born, and I'm unsure of how I would feel if he suddenly appeared. Perhaps he's trying to make up for the time he missed with the time he has left. Though, I don't personally know him, and his personality. You most likely will be confused for awhile, until you make a decision on what to do.
Bratbutt: i will probably just.. do what must be done to make him feel more comfortable because that's what's expected of me. i also know my mom, who is mostly amazing, is going through a lot because of this so i want to do what i can to help ease the burden on her.
Troche: You still need to think of you own feelings, though.
Bratbutt: That is a strange concept that i'm still getting used to.
Troche: Why is that?
Bratbutt: i never thought about my own feelings growing up. i always did what i could for others, to make others happy, so doing things for myself is strange.
Troche: If you do not focus on yourself from time to time, you'll eventually break.
Troche: or snap.
Bratbutt: Yeah, i know. i've been working on it.
Troche: Understandable.
Bratbutt: i'm just really tired. Not sleepy, just.. emotionally exhausted lmao
Troche: I get that. I lack the drive to do much of anything.
Troche: Maybe you should spoil yourself for a day?
Bratbutt: In what way?
Troche: Focus on what you want for a day.
Troche: Do something you've been wanting to do, or that makes you happy.
Bratbutt: Mm.. i don't know what makes me happy really xD i think... something that would make me happy would be.. cuddling with someone and watching funny videos while smoking pot. i don't have anyone to do that with though.
Troche: Hm..Well, I cannot be there in person, and I do not partake in pot myself, but we could watch the same movie and pretend i'm partaking.
Troche: As far as cuddling goes, again, unfortunately I cannot be there in person, however I tend to do that with you daily on here.
Bratbutt: /me chews on its thumb.
Bratbutt: i am feeling shy. >>;
Troche: Why is that?
Bratbutt: /me shrugs and tugs at its own hair.
Troche: Apologies, I had to take Herm to use the restroom.
Troche: There must be a reason.
Bratbutt: No worries ~
Bratbutt: And uh
Bratbutt: it's normal to get shy when the person you like says stuff like that i think
Troche: Ah, is it?
Troche: What type of movie?
Bratbutt: /me nods.
Bratbutt: Hm
Troche: Hm?
Bratbutt: Sorry, i'm looking up movies >.<
Troche: You're fine.
Troche: I have hulu, and Netflix, if that helps.
Bratbutt: /me nods.
Troche: Find much?
Bratbutt: i can't find anything new that i want to watch x.x i'm sorry.
Troche: Ah, you're fine.
Troche: Another time, maybe.
Bratbutt: /me rubs at its face, "Yeah."
Troche: You alright?
Bratbutt: i just feel annoying right now. xD
Troche: How so?
Bratbutt: Just being indecisive and stuff.
Bratbutt: Brb real quick ~
Troche: Do take your time.
Bratbutt: Back with ice cream.
Troche: Welcome back, little one.
Bratbutt: Thanks ^^
Troche: Mhm.
Troche: I have work tomorrow, but I will have to take Sunday off for Herm.
Bratbutt: Going back to the vet?
Troche: No, I am just not permitted to leave her alone, and could only find someone to watch her for tomorrow.
Troche: She goes back early monday to get the drain removed.
Bratbutt: Ah got it. How's she been?
Troche: She had an accident on the couch, but since has gotten better about letting me know when she has to use the restroom. Hasn't drank water yet, though..
Bratbutt: Has she been eating?
Troche: Oh yeah.
Troche: Nothing will stop her from eating.
Bratbutt: Wet food?
Troche: Once a day with her pain meds, yes. The other time is dry.
Bratbutt: She should be getting enough hydration with the wet food to get her by until she feels like actually drinking.
Troche: I did the back of the neck thing and she seems fine, will just ask the vet if it's normal when I take her back.
Bratbutt: Good idea ~
Troche: You seem off today.
Bratbutt: i.. am. i'm sorry.. x.x
Troche: No need to be sorry, just concerned.
Bratbutt: /me fiddles with its fingers, "i don't like showing when i feel bad."
Troche: I feel as though i've pissed you off, do you feel bad because of the topic before, or a new one?
Bratbutt: Oh no no, you haven't upset me. >.< i just.. i don't know. i just feel off..
Bratbutt: /me squishes its own cheeks and rubs them.
Troche: How so, love?
Troche: I dislike when you are upset or not well.
Bratbutt: /me blushes and hides its face in its hands, speaking muffedly, "i guess.. i am majorly depressed and.. i feel Okay most of the time, but i guess it just catches up to me sometimes and i feel down for a day or two and then i feel Okay again for a while."
Troche: /me he reaches out, his fingers brushing against its hand "There's nothing wrong with that, just bothers me is all. You deserve to be happy."
Bratbutt: /me peeks between its fingers at him, speaking quietly, "You make me happy..."
Troche: /me he places his hand atop its head, his fingers digging into its hair "It pleasures me to hear so. "
Bratbutt: /me wiggles, reaching its arms out towards him shyly.
Troche: /me his hands wrap around its frame, lifting it onto his legs as he settles back into the couch.
Bratbutt: /me swings its legs slightly as it sits on his legs, smiling softly, "Thank you."
Troche: /me his hands find its face, his fingers gripping each side of it as he presses his lips to its forehead "Anytime."
Bratbutt: /me blushes and closes its eyes, feeling better already at his touch.
Troche: /me he leans his forehead against its, his fingers stroking at its cheeks
Bratbutt: /me hums contentedly, its small hands finding the end of his hair and playing with the strands, curling in the locks gently.
Troche: /me his fingers meet the ends of its hair before he lets them sink into the bundle, he grips at the stands as he lets his eyes shut.
Bratbutt: /me chews on its lower lip slightly, brushing its fingers through his hair and letting out a soft exhale, feeling itself relax.
Troche: /me he hums a bit, his cheek laying against the top of its head as he begins to lightly scratch its scalp with his fingers.
Bratbutt: /me murrs quietly, trailing its fingertips down his hair to a strap across his chest, curling them around it in a loose grip.
Troche: /me he curls his fingers around the chunks once more, his cheek lifting as his eyes flick down to its "Feel any better?"
Bratbutt: /me looks back at him and nods, letting out a soft exhale, "Yeah.."
Troche: Apologies, I wanted to change.
Bratbutt: No need to apologize :o
Troche: /me he gives a breif nod, his fingers curling around its face once more as he places his chin atop its head "Good."
Bratbutt: /me reaches up to press its smaller hands over his, smiling and humming.
Troche: /me he hums a bit, his throat vibrating atop its chin as he does. He curls his fingers a bit when he feels the smaller hands against his.
Bratbutt: /me strokes his arms with its fingers lightly, enjoying the intimacy, humming in tandem.
Troche: /me he sighs a bit, his hum cut off short as he lifts his chin. He leans his head against the couch, his eyes shutting as his fingers stroke its face slightly. "Give me one moment, little one. Herm is awake."
Bratbutt: /me leans into his touch, nodding slightly, "Take your time ~"
Troche: /me his lips twitch slightly as his fingers move to its chin, down to its neck as his hand softly curls around the side of it to somewhat cup it. "Hm, she just wanted attention."
Bratbutt: /me tilts its head a bit to bare its neck to his touch, shivering and letting out a soft laugh, "Relateable."
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Bratbutt: ;A; Kitty <3
Troche: /me he drags his nail across the skin there, a pink streak showing where his trail went. He sighs, his warm breath hitting its soft skin. "Mhm, Herm."
Bratbutt: /me shivers, letting out a small noise and squirming slightly, "W-What a sweet thing ~"
Troche: /me he lift his hand, moving it to its arm as it wraps around it. He gives it a soft squeeze, "Mh, much like you."
Bratbutt: /me blushes and snuggles into him, staring down at its fingers as it fiddles with them, "I'm not.."
Troche: /me he wraps his arm around it, his fingers curling in the fabric of its shirt as his other hand moves to its chin, bringing it up so his eyes can meet its, "You are."
Bratbutt: /me blinks and chews its lip as its chin is lifted, meeting his gaze, cheeks pink.
Troche: /me he brushes the tip of his nose against its, before placing his lips against the same spot.
Bratbutt: /me closes its eyes, giggling softly at his gentle touches.
Troche: /me he purrs a bit, his fingers sliding down its arm until they reaches its fingers, he curls his around the smaller ones, his forehead pressing against its once more.
Bratbutt: /me gives his hand a gentle squeeze, humming happily, rubbing the pad of its thumb against his hand.
Troche: /me he returns the gentle squeeze, his eyes fluttering shut as his other arm tightens around it, pulling its frame into his chest.
Bratbutt: /me presses into him, taking in a deep breath of his scent before humming softly, murmuring quietly under its breath.
Troche: /me he tilts his head to press his cheek against the top of its head, his fingers twitching slightly as he listens to its intake of breath followed by the mumbles, "Hm?"
Bratbutt: /me shakes its head very slightly, chewing on its lower lip, "Mm nothing.."
Troche: /me he lifts his head, his eyes flicking open to peer at its face, "Hmm, tell me?" he keeps his voice as a question, his tone soft and low.
Bratbutt: /me blushes and huffs softly, swallowing before speaking quietly, "i just.. was wondering.. howyoufeelaboutme..," the last of the words were almost inaudible.
Troche: /me his lips twitch slightly at its seemingly rushed sentence. His eyes shutting for a moment as he pauses. "I care for you."
Bratbutt: /me hums and nods, fiddling with its fingers in its lap, thinking to itself.
Troche: /me his eyes open slowly, flicking down to its fingers before moving back to its face, "Hm.. It's not easy for me to express feelings. Was that a bad answer?"
Bratbutt: /me shakes its head, lips twitching as it looked up at him, "Not at all..," it reached up and cupped his jaw, leaning in to kiss his cheek.
Troche: /me he nods a bit, his jaw flexing slightly at the touch. He leans his head into its kiss, a hum escaping him, "Hm..good."
Bratbutt: /me turns its head to kiss his other cheek, sliding its hands down his neck and around it to play with the hair at the nape.
Troche: /me he gives a slight groan as its hands meet his neck, he tilts his head back to lean into its fingers. His eyes shut once more as he feels its lips on the opposite cheek.
Bratbutt: /me cradles his head in its small hands, pressing its fingertips into his skin slightly whilst leaning back to gaze over his face.
Troche: /me he leans into its touch, his eyes opening to meet its gaze as he pauses for a moment. He mumbles, "What's wrong, Little one?"
Bratbutt: /me blinks and blushes, chewing on its lower lip for a moment before it takes a deep breath, "Nothing's wrong.. i just.. want to do something."
Troche: /me his lips twitch slightly, his hands moving to allow his fingers to graze across the skin on its cheek, "and what's that?"
Bratbutt: /me hums, lowering its gaze and waiting an awkward amount of time before speaking softly, "i want to kiss you..."
Troche: /me he pauses for a moment, before moving his hand to the back of its neck, he grips the hair at the nape of it, pulling its head back so its face meets his. He leans forward, experimentally brushing his lips across its for a moment before pausing to observe its reaction.
Bratbutt: /me squeaks as he grips its hair, blinking before letting out a stuttery breath as his lips brush against its, flushing deeply and going still for a moment. After that moment, its tongue flicked out against its own lips and it tried to speak, voice breaking before it cleared its throat and tried again, ".. i.. wasn't expecting.. that..," it cleared its throat again, flicking its gaze down then back up to his, cheeks pink, "May i.. have another..?"
Troche: /me he burries his hand further into its hair, his fingers curling into it as he gives a slight nod. He sits himself upright as he uses his grip on its hair to pull its tighter to him. His free hand slides up to its cheek, his fingers digging into it a bit as he presses his lips to its once more.
Troche: it*
Bratbutt: /me tilts its head as his fingers curl in its hair, a small noise escaping its lips as he pulls it closer, shifting slightly as he sits up. it breathed shakily as his hand went to its cheek before letting out a small muffled mewl as their lips touched. its heart pounded in its chest and its small hands went to grip at his shirt, trembling slightly.
Troche: /me he tightens his grip on its hair as presses himself further into it, his lips a bit harder against its. After a short moment, he withdraws his lips from its. His face moves to its shoulder as he rest his forehead on it, a long exhale escaping him as his hand moves from its cheek to its back.
Bratbutt: /me lets out a muffled noise as his grip tightens and his lips press harder, tightening its own grip on his shirt before gasping softly as he pulls away. it hummed shakily as he rested his forehead against its shoulder, sliding its hands up his chest to his shoulders to cling to him, "Are you.. okay..?"
Troche: /me the fingers against its back begin to rub in circles, his eyes shutting as he somewhat nuzzles his face into its neck. He gives a slight nod, his other hand releasing its hair to fall to its waist. He gives it a soft squeeze, "Are you..?" he all but mumbles the two words.
Bratbutt: /me mmms and squeezes his shoulders, relief flooding its system at his nod before giving a slight nod itself, speaking softly, "Yeah..," it paused before closing its eyes and continuing, "i'm sorry if.. you felt pushed to do that..."
Troche: /me he shakes his head, his lips pressing against the side of its neck before he curls himself around it, "Not at all, little one..I just have to go to bed very soon, is all."
Bratbutt: /me shivers at the touch of his lips against its neck, clinging to him and letting out a soft sigh, "Yeah... i'm surprised you hadn't gone already honestly."
Troche: /me he returns the sigh, his eyes shutting for a moment "Was staying up for you."
Bratbutt: /me chews on its lip and curls its fingers in his hair, "You didn't have to do that.."
Troche: /me he shakes his head slightly, his own fingers curling against its shirt. "I know, but I don't mind."
Bratbutt: /me hums and gives his hair a gentle tug, "You should sleep."
Troche: /me he lets out a sharp groan as his hair is tugged, his head nodding slightly "Feels like a bad time to leave, though."
Bratbutt: /me loosens its grip on his hair to brush its fingers through the locks, "A bad time?"
Troche: /me he hums as he chews on his lip for a moment, releasing it to answer "Mhm..I didn't intend to seem as if I was kissing and running."
Bratbutt: /me blinks before laughing softly, squeezing his shoulders gently, "Love, i wouldn't take it that way at all. It's nearly four in the morning, you need to sleep," it paused before closing its eyes again, "i'll still be here when you come back."
Troche: /me he nods, his lips twitching at its laugh, "Alright, then. I'll see you tomorrow when I get off.."
Bratbutt: /me turns its head to kiss the top of his head, letting its lips linger for a moment before speaking, "i'll be waiting for you."
Troche: /me he brushes his lips against its cheek in a parting. "Alright, little one."