Coolstory [Yandere]

It's 4:30am for me (UK) so I'll probably be more talkative tomorrow, but basically, I'm pretty sure I accidentally got talking to a real life Yandere girl after replying to her pretty normal r4r post.

So, she posted this advert on r4r asking to make friends. Her post was really long and well written and she claimed to be an INTJ (After the fact I disagree with that). I am also an INTJ and so I got a little curious and replied to her via a comment instead of pming her because I had a feeling she would appreciate the forthrightness.

We DM'd a little and she gave me her discord, this was 2 nights ago, we typed briefly and then I went to bed.

She briefly spoke about her romantic history in her post, which was also pretty yandere to be honest. Anyway yesterday I end up typing with her a bunch when I get home from work at 2pm. She's very intelligent and we start to hit it off. She's Italian and said she has a thing for British accents, used to date a British guy. I told her my British accent was garbage but I'd let her hear it if she wanted.

I call her and talk, she gets kinda swoony but nothing outrageous. I should mention up to this point via text I'd been really direct and honestly pretty arrogant. Stating that if I wanted her I would just take her. (I know) I could tell just before the voice call happened that she had gone from pretty passive to quite interested. She seemed to like my mind and my sheer blind confidence.

Eventually she started speaking also and we started just talking, again, I was very direct and matter of fact and she seemed blown away that my persona was exactly the same via voice as it was text.

Okay so I can tell she is pretty down in the dumps (as a lot of people on r4r are), fairly recent bad break up that she's still pretty fucked up over. But the conversation is going well, I like her at this point, her brain seems to work a lot like mine, she's very passionate about learning, just about different things to me. She starts talking about how essentially she's a nymphomaniac who drove her ex away because she just couldn't control herself and tried to jump him genuinely every hour of his life for a few solid years. This seems mildly fun to me in theory since we're on the internet but also obviously quite concerning in general.

We flirt basically, we've seen picture of each other but she becomes really adamant about seeing me on webcam. I really dislike being on webcam but over the course of a couple of hours, she wears me down by continuously bringing it up and I cave. I remember her asking me to say something dirty because surely even though I was capable of being that direct via text and voice, I wasn't via cam, I oblige her. I can tell now that she's very aroused, I'm still having fun at this point naturally. She starts talking about maybe turning her cam on but that she's terrified that if she does I'll find her hideous and run.

Throughout the whole night it was clear to me that she was really not over her ex, she mentioned him a lot. She kept up with him and was extremely jealous and hurt that he'd moved on, she knew an alarming amount of details about the new girl too. Back to the story:

She turned her cam on and she looked the same as she did in her pictures, extremely pretty. I think I had a pre conceived notion that girls that were this eager are usually either not interesting, pretty unattractive physically, or both. It was clear she had some baggage, but she was both pretty and very captivating from a personality point of view.

It was about 4am now, I had to be up for work at 9 this morning which I had communicated several times but she was shamelessly keeping me around and I was too curious/foolish to just leave. We'd been talking for 12 solid hours by now, so we'd had a lot of time to learn quite a lot about each other, but nowhere near enough time to get super attached. And yet, she was starting to mention me flying to Milan airport and going to see her, but not some time in the distant future, not once we'd gotten to know each other better. "Can you come tomorrow?". I get it, it seems like she's joking right? No, she's straight faced, wide eyed, deadly serious. Much like the asking me to go on cam, she keeps going back to it over and over.

My face is on cam at this point and so I can't really hide my distress at what she's asking of me. I tell her that I'm working a lot right now, it's nearly Christmas, I don't have the money to stay in Milan right now, WE'VE JUST MET. All the excuses I can think of. She is very disappointed by this but I can tell she's trying not to go full crazy on me and so she let's it go for short spells at a time. I tell her that this is all developing way too fast for me and that I'm kind of intimidated (I am very introverted and I get very anxious when faced with quick change)

My heart is racing at this point, I'm a mixture of captivated, genuinely terrified and horny. At around this time I see her hands reach down below the webcams view briefly, come back up literally SOAKED in wetness and she put her fingers in her mouth. She asks me when is the closest possible time I can go see her. She tells me that she knows it hasn't been long but that she knows she wants to be with me forever (This is the least INTJ thing ever)

I tell her that it won't be anytime soon, if ever, and that I'm sorry. She starts BAWLING. She tells me that she doesn't know how it's happened but she's in love with me and she needs me there NOW. She tells me that if she can't have me she wants to die. At this point I'm very sleepy, it's 6am and I'm now very concerned for her wellbeing. I now have no interest in ever meeting her but I fear that if I just leave something will happen.

This would be very dramatic from a 18 year old girl, but this is a 27 year old Woman who claims to be an INTJ, a very logic based personality type. This makes no sense to me. I had made reads on her at the beginning and adapted to be appealing to her for sure, but this was scary.

At about 6:30am I told her I had to be up for work in 3.5 hours and so really needed to get some sleep. She needed sleep too ffs. She convinced me to fall asleep in a call with her but when we both got cosy in our respective beds, she kept asking questions, kept pleading for me to go see her, asking if she could come tomorrow and stay in my room with me. I said "not yet" again and she started sobbing again, less crazily, just softly. At about 7:30 she allowed me to sleep and I ended up getting about 1 hour.

When I woke up, she was still in the call (which is normal for that type of thing I guess). She heard me waking up and said "hello sweetie, you talk in your sleep". I was in a rush to get to work at this point and so I told her I had to go and quickly ended the call and scrambled to work. I felt so exhausted from the 1 hour of sleep and extremely overwhelmed by what had been occurring and fearing how I was even going to get out of it without simply ghosting her, which isn't like me. My stomach was very uneasy as I walked quickly to work and I actually vomited on the way.

It was only a short shift (4 hours) and the plan was to have a nap as soon as I got home because of the lack of sleep. I made the mistake of checking discord on my phone though and I had a crap ton of messages. Her asking me to come back, she needed me, please reply. etc. I replied telling her I really needed to catch up on some sleep and that she should get some rest to. She agreed and I fell straight to sleep at about 3pm and woke up at 6pm. Again, a barrage of messages. She had been looking at plane tickets to my nearest airport and she can leave tonight. She then started typing out sexual roleplay type stuff about how she would please me. How she'd fuck me in my sleep.

She'd told me on a few occasions the previous night that she'd wake up and I'd be gone, I told her I wouldn't do that. But when I'd said that I had very different information and interactions in front of me. When I got back to my PC after the nap, I typed out a brief message basically saying that I couldn't give her what she wanted and that if I stuck around I knew I'd just make things worse for her. I then quickly blocked and deleted her from Reddit, Discord & Twitter and sobbed a little to myself.

She was clear had some very real abandonment issues, I promised I wouldn't go and then I fucking went. I feel awful about that. I don't know what I went to reddit looking for, I've been feeling very lonely and down myself recently, but I was not prepared for that. I'd only had 24 hours of her and I'd had 1 hour of sleep, I'd vomited and my stomach was in knots thinking about how I was going to deal with her. :/